>Day 3
>after 46 day streak I had a goon week really bad
>went to Confession 3 times in 7 days
>Finally had a breakthrough on something

Silence. God was trying to tell me to Silence everything, put away the phone, get away from media and just basknin Silence.

Commit to 15 minutes of Silence no excessive breathing don't even try to think. Just talk from your mind to God (The Universe, Creator, Prime Mover, ect. If you aren't Christian) and just lay it all out.

Warning the first time you really do this might get a little heated or even emotional. You will be facing yourself and all the bad things that happened as well as your mistakes. You need to make peace with yourself and then you will start to recognize the blessings.

This is why I said just 15 minutes of Silence. It is simple anyone can do it. It isn't incredibly long or tough to accomplish and if you can do more just do more.

>Day 42
>Went on an image binge was able to filter lewds I needed to scratch the itch
>noticed more of the nicer images I'd have never looked at because I just needed to goon
>starting to grasp how much rape and other stuff is in hentai like I knew but it is so normalized even amongst fan art
>realizing just how numb I was to it all
What else have I not noticed these decades of my life I wasted