I recently started DIY-ing estrogen monotherapy as it's something I've thought about for a long time (few years atp, currently I'm 20). I'm really not far in (2 weeks, 6 days). And I've been pleased to note that I haven't had any facial acne problems as well as regaining complete control over my libido, which is nice. But I've been thinking that in order to feel completely comfortable I'd probably also want to order anti androgens, which would cut any testosterone production down to null. I've been thinking about deciding whether or not I want kids in my future. I have a very strong feeling that they would be better than me in many ways but I'm uncertain on whether I should go all the way in my transition (like inevitably getting orchi) or I should just keep this as a temporary fun experimental thing I do (like a year, year and 1/2) then later de-trans if I actually find someone.

I just realized I'm trans at 20, the quickest method for me to get HRT is probably through DIY and crypto. I ordered crypto but there is a hold on funds leaving the account until Friday and then the vendor I'm buying from can take potentially another 5-10 days to deliver. I'm not really eating very much and I just wanna know how much masculization could take place over the duration of like 2 weeks so that I know if what I'm doing is crazy or reasonable?

Emotions can be used to get people to do things both "good" and "bad" either intentionally or unintentionally. Think about people who are less emotional (i.e. men), oftentimes they can get stuck in objectively shitty jobs with less freedoms or political ideologies that aren't actually working for their benefit and yet they still just go along with it. Whereas other more emotional people (women) wouldn't tolerate unacceptable working conditions or poorer quality of life quite so easily.

and to add, is the purpose of less emotion in order to make you more susceptible to being used?