>>81548566
I dont even know how to start. I feel miserable and i hate the neet life. I constantly blame myself for everything i have done. Everyone tells me im super young still and theres nothing wrong with going to uni next year and i know i am. But nonetheless the idea that all of my friends are getting their titles next year when i will have to start over because i was going to kill myself. I dont know how to feel. I stopped taking my meds last year because i felt better. But that feeling better was just escaping from the hellish place I was. But now everything is starting to feel again the same way. Everything I do, no matter what feels horrible. I can't draw. I can't sing. I can't performe. I can't write. I feel like trash. I feel that I fail everyone's expectations and myself too. And I know I'm just hard on myself but what can I do?! Fail over and over again!? I'm sorry anons. I just want to feel heard :(