>>211757571
Because I've done nothing for those 32 years. Nothing. I have no interests or opinions or feelings and no stories to tell, no anecdotes.

If I speak to someone I feel nothing. When they speak to me I feel no instinctive reflex to respond. I understand on an intellectual level that it is polite to respond but in my mind nothing happens. Usually I can choke out a "haha, yeah" but people, men and women alike, can tell there's something not right, that there's nothing behind the words. The hope of any relationship, platonic or romantic, is snuffed out in 1-2 encounters where I come off somewhere between frightfully rude or mentally ill and odd.

It's at the point where for me to talk to a woman, to enter a relationship with her, is almost cruel or immoral since I'm such a weird cunt. In my mind I feel that these women deserve to be with someone normal. There are plenty of normal men about and they'd be better off with them.

>>211757598
I appreciate your kind words during these trying times.