>>40217449
>I need to focus on myself and my (long neglected) goals and only then cut some time in when I can for other people and "stupid" activities.
How do these situations usually come to pass? Do people wind up pressuring you into things you don't feel like?
>>40220449
>>40220478
That is all pretty damn grim on the environment front.
Honestly I believe >>40221239 already made amazing points, so let me try and pick up from there: To paraphrase, it sounds like there is an overall moderate risk, but you don't have people you can be yourself around unguarded. Here is something to perhaps dwell on:
Repping, to the best of my knowledge, is essentially microdosing trauma. It does not feel like it moment to moment but it seems to be an erosive force. As such, time spent repping is, just like radiation exposure, something that needs to be minimized because harm is accumulative. My point, even though implicitly stated, is basically this:
Ideally, the reppy aspects of your life need a hard deadline as soon as feasible. The fact that you have a clear goal with your career trajectory means you can estimate the maximum amount of time it would take for you to reach that point where they can't fire you, right?
I basically try to advocate two things: One, trying a find a deadline that is as hard as possible, as near in the future as possible, because we as people always tend to push uncomfortable shit into the future. Two, finding people you can be yourself around as close to right now as possible, as it eases the strain on you.
>>40220833
Great progress overall, Anon!
>i still want a relationship but I'm hoping it'll come naturally and not from an algorithm <3
on that front, if you are actively looking my personal approach way back has been to try and find people through friends and friends of friends