I'm 34. Recently I was bored and scrolling through Facebook which I haven't used in probably 5 years. All my high school friends are married, have been for 10 years. They've all been at their careers now for the same amount of time. They all have at least 1 kid, many of them 2 or 3. They all have houses and 2 cars.

I have none of these things. I haven't worked in years because I'm mentally disabled. PTSD, parents used to beat me when I was a child, you know the drill. I live in a shit hole apartment that takes my entire cheque as rent. I'm in a great relationship but neither of us want kids or to get married. But the thing is, I look at all my peers and think, is that what I'm supposed to be doing? Have I fucked up? Am I "old"? I never considered myself old until looking at all these old friends who used to be spry, dress sexy and go out at night, get laid, now they're wearing vests or long, loose dresses and just sit around in their back yards doing nothing. Their lives are just go to work, come home, raise kids, watch tv, go to sleep. Weekend, sleep in, sit in the backyard drinking beer, watch tv, go to bed. Go on vacation abroad 2 times a year.

Is this what I'm supposed to be doing? Did I fuck up? I had no qualms with my life until I saw literally EVERYONE I USED TO KNOW living the EXACT SAME LIFE.