>>40193035
>Being alone, staying in bed has always been my permanent comfort and friend.
I understand, and I am definitely not going to wish to take this away from you. Self improvement for its own sake can be extremely misguided. But it is also important to avoid rotting and feeling miserable. And.. misery can be very, very comfortable to a point. The point shouldn't be an arbitrary goal of getting better, I agree! But it can be a necessity for survival. People shouldn't be a chore, either. I think you get my point.
>>40192039
Very, VERY proud of you, Anon! You did great.
>I don't have anyone that I'd feel comfortable asking that of.
Now comes a very, very hard question: Do you trust any of your acquaintances enough to try and open up? If not, why not? What criteria would you be looking for in someone you trust with it?
>It's all so scary and hard and confusing...
>I'm feeling like I shouldn't....
I understand, and as you can tell, many feel like you. I wish I could do more than reassure. But.. keep going. Perhaps check the second youtube video in this post.
>>40193051
>i often wish to get to experience part of that
You certainly do now, that much I can attest. And as you put it, it is very cool to see from the outside. The strangeness of it all is unavoidable. You are doing as well as anyone would.
>Yes! I'm not sure if you're keeping track of me
I do try actually! Sometimes I confuse anons but I try to keep tabs more or less. And it sounds like you are going in an overall great direction, Anon!
>I have some mental blocks there too, but maybe I should try really prioritizing it for a bit so I can cross off whether that's important to this leg of the process or not
Here is a video on making art I like to share, the channel in general is quite nice in my opinion: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ewHVHPGS_LU
There is another video actually that is "about art" but not actually about art specifically at all in my mind: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pQn8IIvl6Dc