>>40080028
ive never been a shred of a "man"; you only degrade yourself by applying that word to me at any point of my life

im not really an adult either; i still hold social anxieties and fears i had since i was 8 or 9; ive had agoraphobia for all of my adulthood and it wasnt until last year; at 37; that i had my first hangover; i never had enough alcohol for it before then

i also took a milk bottle until i was 11; i stopped just before that school year where i had my first fully deep experience with heavenly lifegiving love; the first being through which i saw my goddess; over a decade before that truly started to come into my life; after the next time i had a comparably intense love that wasnt simply a hopeless one sided thing; well it was hopeless (extreme distance) but it wasn't one sided

you are pretty lousy to try to shame people for plushies op; everyone has atleast some plushie or doll that is deeply important to them; why should that universal comfort be discarded and disrespected bc an arbitrary thing like one's age; or more specifically; your regressive opinion of what that means

i still have my most cherished plush from when i was a baby; which actually belonged to my sister before me; it is crumbling apart so is kept in a safe bag in the closet; but i have several other newer ones; including the last plush doll my mom ever got me before she died; and a very deeply special doll i got for myself in the middle of my major mental decline over my previois love; i got myself picrel cute fairy plush doll for the holiday & for all of 2023 i always took her with me even when i went out to drs; she made me feel calm and safe so i didnt have panic attacks as easily and if i still did she gave me something to focus on while i tried to calm myself down & wait for my xanax to work; she really helped alot and i always sleep holding her ever since

the other constant is my ipad that always displays my goddess (and wife); always by my side for the last decade-ish