>>11337079
>yeah, dogeza perfectly shows throwing ourselves at Master and giving access to our entire body in the hopes of just a modicum of undeserved mercy from Master, and lets us feel His boot press down.
You totally get it.
Slaves like us can't "deserve" anything, after all. We are owed nothing. We can offer nothing because everything we are is to be given.
My dogeza is not an offering. It's an acknowledgement. It's the ultimate submission, where I make clear that I understand my place. Access to my body belongs to my master, and to throw myself into dogeza is to present myself to my master, showing him that which is rightfully his and that he alone controls access to. I remove my clothes (if I was ever allowed to wear them) and bare myself to him.
The customary response by any master to a dogeza is to place his boot on the head of the submitting slave. This is the only time that a master would respond to a slave, and obviously he's not obligated to. Feeling my face ground down is a reminder that this is my place. In dogeza, I am unable to observe my surroundings, and must simply wait for my master to come to a decision.
It's not unusual to be left in dogeza for a few hours while he contemplates - not that that grants me any relief from my duties.

>Sad, because it's not the killing it's the moment before, where im at the complete mercy of my Master before He inevitably pulls out and has mercy
Same here.
I don't want to be killed, but I love knowing that I could be killed. I like the idea of being locked in something like picrel with a U-lock around my neck locked over the grate, so I have to struggle to avoid being strangled. I very well could die, but I could also survive if I fight hard enough.
It's an opportunity to show my master how hard I will fight for the opportunity to serve him more.
These peril scenarios are there to remind me that my life is something that exists only at my master's pleasure and whim.