>>39990792
>it gets easier to do it again
Ye, i mean I've done it with other stuff before but I have this struggle of like being able to justify why I'm trans when I have a need to be able to explain myself to people. For running when I was fat(ter anyway) the answer was obvious and easily digestible but for transition? I've got nothing aside "my emotional range isn't shot to shit and I dont want to disassociate from seeing myself". It's stupid, i just need to bite the bullet otherwise I'll always be at "oh i just need to be a little more presentable" ad nauseum.
>Differing opinions
I guess I worry that I cant control other peoples expectations, I have a lot of contradictions that arent immediately apparent or easily explainable and I hate not knowing how people might react to that, I have to force myself not to write novels on my dating profiles.
If only I could read minds to figure out if someone has understood me correctly.

My eyes keep forcing themselves shut in protest atm so might come back to this