No updates today. But I would like to mention a small personal detail tonight. My mother was a fucking lioness. A chain smoking, alcoholic, likely ADHD riddled lioness. But she loved me, and she cared so, so deeply about me, and went to such great lengths to the best of her abilities at every turn, that it permanently set my trajectory for how I have come to love people. I try not to be self destructive about it but.. ever since i was a small kid, I was treated as as much of an adult as I suppose would make sense. I was treated as a thinking being with their own logic and feelings. She claims to have never really raised me, that I just came to be myself all on my own. In a way, her parenting style sure gave me the the chance to figure myself out. I owe her a great deal. The next few days.. well. I suppose you understand. Now is not the time to speak of it as if it already happened. Now is the time to say, I am proud of her. And I am grateful for her.

My many of my traits that made sig happen I owe to her.
Goodnight.