Developed a mouth ulcer, think it was a combo of eating terribly on shift and a bit of stress/sleep deprivation from that, sucks tho. At least my payslip is big this week.
>>40019788
>it's a good idea to go out.
The impulse to try and girlmode is pretty intolerable now, mostly because I'm close to it being a safe-ish possibility. The waiting is pretty torturous. It's weird, I mostly just want to as a gauge of how like "palatable" I am societally, it's hard to judge what I need to work on without a good reference point.
>Yeah I'm sure he is only mating pressing me to be polite.
Lol. Despite cypro killing a lot of my sex drive the thoughts do not go away (well, that and my bisexuality has decided to fight back at me with regards to men).
>You're not alone in all this, okay?
I appreciate it, I'm trying to rewire my brain back into some of the mindset I had going last year to handle the brainworms sometimes.
Having to mentally quantify transition as a form of bodybuilding just to put myself in the right headspace to accept that things aren't going to all happen overnight. Just put a few mental restraints back in place so I'm not completely unhinged.
>>40020125
>I had tried to stick to 1300 cals before
T.Went from 105kg to 73kgish (about 20kg of that in one 4-5 month shot, then really most of the last year to drop to 73).
That's too drastic a deficit for your current state anon, which is probably a contributing factor to the rebound, 1300 is a figure I targeted when I was dropping weight at around 95-82kg (and I was doing a good amount of cardio as well) but for you your maintenance level is likely significantly higher, i'd really look at 1600-1800 at minimum for a while.
Like i'm trying to drop to 65kg and I'm seriously struggling to hold my 1600kcal allowance while working so I can't imagine 1300 being viable, and my base metabolic rate is really only just over 1600 maybe 1700 (but I do a lot of exercise/physical job in cold environment)