I always feel tired and stressed and struggle to sleep or do anything when awake. My head feels like a constant dull buzzing, and I feel as though I have no control over my thoughts, as weeks pass in a frustrated haze. I have a tendency to get stuck for hours thinking about how awful it is to live, and how nothing is really possible, and worse things. I keep hoping that I'll just wake up one day feeling 'okay' again and this fog will be gone. I haven't gotten anywhere, trying a lot of the usual stress management tips, and having my thoughts always clouded has made it impossible to set time aside for things like meditating; even if you told me to do it now, I highly doubt I'd be able to, I think I'd just wander off or look for aspirin.
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My girlfriend has a condition which was fairly debilitating for a long time, and treatment now enables her to live a somewhat normal life, but I think a lot about how it must have been for her to endure it for so long with no promise that things were ever going to get better. And I wish I had that kind of strength, or desire to live. I just keep 'hoping' it will come to me.