Looking back, I don't think I was actually a super sexual person naturally. I think it all came from all porn that permeated the media I consumed. I was no eunuch by all means, but a large chunk of my twenties has been defined by an increasingly sexualised mind that's only now beginning to slow down. It's to the point now that just seeing a female girl in a game or show will immediately bring sexual imagery to mind, even as a horny teenager I wasn't quite as brazen with this response. Maybe it's just a virginity thing? I have plenty of self control at least, but it's just something to think about. I hope I return to how I was before someday, I don't think the boy back then would relate to the odd man I am today.