(Part 4):

I have prayed and prayed with a fervor that is new to me. I am increasingly able to look at my past and see what a sinner I was and what darkness I have been wandering in. For example, most of my adult life was heavily influenced by the New Age. I was a member of a New Age yoga cult for 9 years until the founder was revealed to be a sexual predator who used the group's donations to fund a lavish lifestyle, a total sociopath. I thus unknowingly worked for a man who worked for Satan and thus I was under Satan's control. I was influenced by many New Age voices such as Louise Hay and the authors she published. I had an addictive relationship with yoga. For many years I attended classes 6 days a week and did so bc if I didn't my energy would feel "dirty" and sluggish and I would get the worst brain fog. In my younger years I experimented with drugs but only recreationally.