Coming from the most perspicacious person in the entire universe ever -
This intelligence inferiority complex anhedonia complex media muddled complex I perceive lesser than an idealized orgasmic norm is not new

>watching life through a monitor
Newsflash, you probably ARE, you probably are clutching to screens and not actually putting your self out there vulnerable and exposed for the world audience to witness and soak in, the messy mediocrity that is you

You are good at writing, though

But you have nothing to write about

So go get your shit kicked in til you are bursting to write about all your tales and tortures and triumphs and trials and tribulations and yadda, come back brimming with something worthy