I think I'm a loser because my brain lacks perspicacity. Other people's brains recognize connections and dimensions in reality that I am oblivious to. From my point of view, what they do seems very strange. When we listen to a composition, for example, they will feel it and understand it more deeply and quickly.

Their intelligence makes life better for them at the most fundamental level of simply making sense of it and assessing events, feelings, perceptions, and so on.

I cannot let go of the feeling that I am in a disjointed, forlorn, delusional state of existence in which nothing I experience is "right" or "real", leaving me in a fractured, self-conscious state where it is as if I am watching life through a monitor. This is the only way to explain why I'm such a loser and why the behaviors I mimic do not reproduce the successes others have. An internal, imperceptible but still confounding variable. Something fundamental must be missing from me, like being unable to hear music in the right way or if there was a kind of mental colorblindness that left me unable to properly discern life. It has been this way for over 5 years. Whenever I try it feels forced and artificial, like a rigidly programmed computer following a set of instructions instead of an organic being who is growing and changing to understand something new

another autist thread, great

>>33235524
why did you make this comment?

>>33235471 (OP)
Read book; disregard the libtardism.

>>33235624
once you've read one new york times best selling self-help book you have read them all. no thanks

Coming from the most perspicacious person in the entire universe ever -
This intelligence inferiority complex anhedonia complex media muddled complex I perceive lesser than an idealized orgasmic norm is not new

>watching life through a monitor
Newsflash, you probably ARE, you probably are clutching to screens and not actually putting your self out there vulnerable and exposed for the world audience to witness and soak in, the messy mediocrity that is you

You are good at writing, though

But you have nothing to write about

So go get your shit kicked in til you are bursting to write about all your tales and tortures and triumphs and trials and tribulations and yadda, come back brimming with something worthy

>>33235638
>once you've read one new york times best selling self-help book you have read them all. no thanks
Then what are you asking for here?

>>33235980
something real instead of /adv/ bluepill platitudes. something better than what i could get on askreddit or some "mental health" forum