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kinda going somewhat better

still paranoid about stuff and fucking up being a decent human being to those that care about me/I care about
still don't have a new job and the one I'm at is getting more difficult every day, can't even properly close up the store anymore
I'm dead beat tired all the time, have no energy to do laundry or other chores
still losing money out the ass

but I'm more appreciative of people I feel
I feel a little bit better about myself
I'm not constantly talking down to myself and feel kind of good at the end of most days
it feels like there's light somewhere and I'm working my way on finding it
I want to do good for others and really find a way to help myself out too

so I'm getting there