>>76410661
Listen my guy, do one single hardcore push before you give up completely. Try to do something with yourself but always keep the exit strategy (suicide ofc) in your mind. I've been through this. We probably suffered the same way, so i'm sad seeing you to continue suffering instead of letting go and enjoying life. There are lots of ways to do it as long as you're open for them.
You CAN recover in your 30's. It's possible. You didn't miss that much - althought i might regret not getting into some cringy but cool subculture when i was younger. Most people your age are soulless husks and if you work on yourself you can make it and easily mog most men out there.

Also it's so hard to find an image of two guys hugging each other that doesn't screams "gay" and the only one i could find screams "gay" because it's from My Hero Academia LMAO