It's the start of the week again, take a deep breath in, hold it and exhale

Were you thinking of giving up today? No you weren't. You made it through last week, you'll make it through this one as well

What are your goals for this week? What do you plan to achieve? List it all down.

Take a deep breath, hold it and exhale, move at your own pace

We're ALL gonna make it

The motivation thread is open

Last week’s thread >>76348120

I'm a complete beginner just lifting at home with some dumbbells and a bench. Been chubby as long as I can remember, had a couple of rough years and got real fat. Now I've managed to lose 35 pounds over two months, arms and shoulders looking way bigger, traps and chest starting to grow as well. Just eating below maintenance and getting lots of protein. Weights and reps going up week after week. I feel so much better it's unreal. Starting to gain back some self-respect. Never give up on yourself.

>>76376026 (OP)
I just wanna do all 3 days this week. Started SS last week & I was pretty sloppy, 2 days in the gym 2 days apart and then yesterday the gym closed early so I supplemented at home with pull-ups and pushups

Deleted my Facebook yesterday. Didn't tell my family, will be fun when they find out. My mom 100% believes you can't live without a Facebook account.

>gym crush I had forgotten about reappeared after several months
>she got chubby
she's just like me now

had my navy meetup last weekend, just flew back in this morning. hadn't seen these people in ten years but it was nice just hanging out again. i have minor beef with some of the people that didn't show up but would have liked to have seen them regardless. in general its just nice to see people not completely ruin their lives as time goes on.
missed my wife as she couldn't make the trip. got to see the first ultrasound pic and little guy is only seven centimeters and due in February. definitely started to feel real.
got a buyer for the land my destroyed house is on, not quite what i wanted but not far off enough for me to draw out the process. at this point just glad to be done with the complexities - unloading a property is so much more work than having it rented through a property manager.
halfway through the month and i need to catch up on my reading for this stupid data mgmt cert. i might just wing it since it's open book anyway.
other than that, back to the gym and salads.

>>76376026 (OP)
Today's the day. I'm finally in a position where I have the time and money to keep a gym membership and I'm taking my first step to becoming swole.

>>76376124
Same here anon, do you do any cardio?

>>76376149
I've not used facebook since, 2015.
Deleted all of my other socials too apart from instagram (its the only way to keep up with friends)

>>76376344
If money is tight and you actually want to keep this up for a long time just invest in some home gym equipment. you will save so much in the long run.

I am still a 24 year old virgin schizoid doomer. I am no longer a wagie.

I may have never felt worse than today. Theres this younger guy at the gym I befriended and so we hung out sometimes, I especially latching on to opportunities because I had nothing back home for years and years and Thailand offers new beginnings. Since we were both sick and not training Muay Thai for a week or so, we basically met up today and spent the whole time smoking weed. I basically got lifemogged so hard it's unreal. He basically didn't give a fuck about his first time and just got it out of the way with some random thai girl hes been dating casually, and whiles he been here a shorter time than me, he's much more bold and adventurous and it comes easy to him, exploring the local avenues and befriending people as well as women. Meanwhile, I'm so crippling defective from years of being a shutin, even though I have the literal capability to do more, I struggle to actually act on it. For him what's comes effortlessly and without the jaded cynicism of years gone by with things slowly degrading, is an insurmountable task or a small hero's journey all on its own for me. I've never really made friends back in the States, so it's almost an alien concept here, as much as I try to be friendly. He even asked if he's the only friend I made since here. That hippy girl I met weeks ago must've caught the same loser vibes from me which is why she invited me out from a place of pity. And I even feel like I facials MOG him, he just has so much more XP in these arenas it's unreal. Hotter ex's than girls I ever could hope to attain probably. I feel like there's some genetic or epigenetic marker he has that I don't that allows him to succeed as such

I'm going to try and enjoy my lengthy trip as much as possible, but I fear after years and years of being heavily conditioned to just room rot, it may be too late and the eventual conlusion to my story always ends the same, by my own hand.

>>76376489
I would do but I live in a box room in shared accomodation so I don't have the space.

>>76376478
I got tendonitis in my shoulder from curling too heavy with bad form, took a week or so to heal so I did an hour on my stationary bike every day. Not so much now though, lifting is fun to me whereas cardio is boring. I do go on regular two-hour walks with a friend which helped with the weight loss.

>>76376026 (OP)
Open the bar again, I need whiskey on the rocks.

I just learned that my ex is putting my old cat down on Thursday, his 12th birthday. I broke up with her a year ago but I lived with her and the cat for 5 years. I never regretted breaking up with her but I loved that cat and she lives far away now so I can't be there for my boy. During COVID isolation he was most of my contact with a living creature.

He was diagnosed with dementia or a brain tumor but his quality of life seemed like it was still good and she just wanted to put him down before it got worse, I don't think I would have made the same decision because I still think he has a few years of quality life left in him. I'm a wreck and I don't know what I should do or how to deal with this.

>>76376519
dude you're undersocialized, socialization is a skill you have to build up, you're not going to immediately be good at it. Your self defeating mentality will mean you never take action and never improve. Little by little, we advance with each step.

Don't compare yourself to someone who's been socializing his whole life, be the best version of yourself every day.

I have significantly impoved my life and my mental and physical health over the summer. i'm rereading my journal entries and shit i wrote to chatgpt during the spring when i was in a depression spiral and it's like i'm reading someone else's thoughts.

>>76376519
Dude you have to shut up that inner defeatist voice, have a few drinks sometimes and just go to gathering places etc. You'll feel way more relaxed and you can make friends. Or do 2 g phenibut 3 hours going to an event etc. If you don't drink alcohol. Of course do it only when you go out and once a week would be the max otherwise you get an addiction

I'm about to break up with my gf of 1 year because I'm too broke to provide anymore.

>>76377653
>I'm about to break up with my gf of 1 year because I'm too broke to provide anymore.
Is that the real reason or is there something else?

>>76376026 (OP)
I just OHP'd lmao 1pl8 for the first time. It was only one rep, but considering 15 years ago my left shoulder wasn't even connected (AC separated) I feel pretty fucking good. Wagmi!

i just send an email to a real state agent asking about details about a house guys

i might actually finally buy a fucking house. i've been linving in this flat that isn't even mine for so long, trapped without being really conscious about it

>>76377742
The first time you don't have to think twice about putting a nail hole in a wall...
>chef's kiss

Was having a pretty good day till a sudden episode of depression and anxiety hit. Struggling hard to motivate myself to workout today.
How do you deal with having a bad day bros? Do you skip the gym? Do you still go but lower the load?

>ordered a neutral grip pulldown handle after supinated lat pulldowns for a year
>less stretch at the top position but my lats are on fucking fire after 3 heavy sets
I even got a free tricep rope with it, great start to the week.

>>76376131
Good luck bro!

I am so constantly tired lads I have no idea why, it's like I need 12 hours of sleep to function and when I wake up sometimes I'm still tired
has anyone ever experienced this?

>>76376124
Let’s gooo, you’re in the right place fren. Check out some of the old p90x videos for some good dumb bell exercises

I was lifting weights in the garage when my 4 year old son came in and asked, "Dad, why do you exercise so much?" I stopped for a second and then sat down next to him. I said, "Life is hard and unpredictable. Without warning, some one could break into our home and try to hurt or kidnap you and mom. The more I exercise and the stronger I get, the easier it'll be for me to help them load you both into the van. Now get the fuck out of the garage."

>>76376026 (OP)
I'm on week four of my return. One of my closest friends had a massive heart attack and died last Thursday. He was 10 years older than me. I heard a guy on some video talking about what's necessary for life. Like you can survive for X minutes without air, X days without water, X days without food, and everybody understands this because it's pretty observable in the short term, but the death from lack of exercize takes so long that people don't fully grasp how necessary it is for life.
Anyway, my bro was an organ donor, and he's being parted out and will help a lot of people. I've been dedicating my lifts to him. Ten years from now I intend to be in much better shape than he was, and whenever I feel like quitting I'm going to picture my bro telling me not to follow him, to shut up and get to work.
Fuck, I miss him.

>>76377790
The hardest part is getting there. Just tell yourself that you are at least going to do your main compound for the day. Tell yourself to go get that one thing over with just so you can say you did tour exeecize for the day. Once you're there and you've done your one thing, tell yourself just one more since you're already there. And then another, et cetera.
I go and stand in my homegym and just being in there and thinking like above gets me going.

>>76377725
Awesome, bro. WAGMI

>>76377790
I hear you anon. You have to force yourself to at least start it. The most important thing is to not let stuff like these bog you down and get in your way, and I promise you'll thank yourself once you're better for getting things done and not wasting the day sulking.

>>76376987
I feel your pain, man. Putting down my old girl was the hardest thing I've ever done. I made this memorial for her in my yard, and I think about her, and all the pets I've had in my life, every day when I water the flowers. It keeps their memories alive and gives me a positive feeling every day.

A hefty single mum asked me out. I said yes because beggars can't be choosers, and it feels like what Jesus would have me do. Now I'm kinda regretting it. There's no real reason to say no other than she's a larger girl and a single mum, but it almost feels like disrespecting my parents to completely say no based on that alone.
She's just not the 18 year old untouched latina of my dreams, y'know? But perhaps sacrificing said dreams to open up the way for an adventure far better is exactly what Christ would have me do.

>>76378894
Jesus died a virgin after friend zoning whores.

I WILL SURVIVE THIS JOB
I WILL STUDY HARD
I WILL PASS MY LEVEL 3 CFA EXAM THIS JANUARY
I WILL ESCAPE

My new job is extremely tough. I’m being challenged like I never have before. Yesterday my boss and coworker commented on my mistakes. I’m trying to take this role day and day. I’m learning something new everyday but I’m worried about not meeting my deadlines. My boss also decided to make me take full responsibility for my clients this quarter instead of waiting for the fall. I just don’t want to get fired.

I’ve gotten back into using Kaplan. I’m really glad to return to the provider, it gives me a lot more guidance. I have a lot less time to study because of work and adult responsibilities. So far the material seems easier this time around. I must work hard and with optimism, believing that I can reach the summit.

We will face many obstacles during our travels, frens. But we cannot give up. Best of luck this week. WAGMI

Auditioned for 2 shows today and totally nailed them. Either one of them would be my first paid show in over a year, so I'm stoked, and it's very well connected for getting my name out there.
WAGMI

>>76378910
He also said, "And as you wish that others would do to you, do so to them."

>>76376334
So that'll give you more motivation to get into shape

>>76376026 (OP)
I quit my job 7 months ago looking for something better and have yet to find that something better. On the 1 hand, the job was very fun and taught me a lot about data analytics. On the other, I was also having to fix constant mistake while relying on those who allowed them to happen.
>hey so we just lost 3 of our major clients because dipshit was lying his ass off
>despite me trying my fucking best to maintain those relationships
>they just left us because they couldn't stand my boss which i understand
I began to drink heavily again, started doing kratom to hype myself, and eventually snapped when I felt my service wasn't appreciated and I was being held back. I want to do good in a career but can't stand everyone's contentment with mediocrity.

195 for 3 reps or deload

>>76377811
This fucking website has poisoned my mind to where I look at Frye in this pic and think he's a too fat DYEL

>doc says I have sleep apnea
>but I'm not fat
>she asks me to stick out my tongue
>whuzzahmadduhwidit
>you've got a fat tongue and it's really long, you're trying to swallow it in your sleep, do you have epilepsy?
>iunno
Just kill me.

>>76376338
You should feel happy that you can still reconnect with your friends from your past. Congrats on your kid! Use his birth as motivation to become the type of man he will look up to

>>76376026 (OP)
>did a job interview assessment where they asked to test your pattern recognition and numerical skills
>did slower than I expected when I used to be able to do it really fast
>in a panic start immediately solving as many practice problems afterwards as fast as I can

Don't neglect the brain bros.

>>76378704
Eat more carbs, drink water, sleep 7-9 hours, exercise 3x week, no more than 200mg caffeine in a day. You got this.

so close to a 6-pack and a gal who feels like home

>>76376026 (OP)
im currently waiting and calculating the crack heads to leave planet fitness so I can enjoy my gun blazing workout.

>>76376026 (OP)
Wagmi brother
I had a dexa yesterday
15.9 to 14.9 bf
1.3kg fat lost
300g lean tissue lost
I was depressed for an hour or two but then I saw my top ab in the mirror and I regained motivation to cut to 12%

>Before this past weekend spent the last three weekends alone including the 3 day July 4 weekend
>want to kms because of how I’m wasting beautiful summer weekends doing nothing
>this past weekend I was busy the entire time, out of the house from 7a-8p both days, doing physical activities, being with people
>feel really no different from the weekends I spent alone, still just miserable and thinking how all the people I was with or saw are all happier more attractive and more successful than me no matter their age
It’s over for me

>>76379735
you are just looking for excuses to make yourself suffer, you need to stop reveling in the misery. Sadness is painful but also comforting and safe, that's why you feel compelled to make it your prison. Find the spark of life inside you, your will to live, and you'll realize that things can get better, if you let them. You are not irreparably broken, you are just letting a small pitiful part of your mind control and ruin your entire existance, but you don't have to.
It took me until I was staring down the bridge that I had decided to jump off of to have my epiphany, but things have slowly but surely gotten better ever since, others are not so lucky and just end it all.
It might not seem like it right now but your depression is a choice, and if this makes you think "oh I'm so terrible and hopeless that I'm doing this to myself for no reason, I truly suck" then stop and ponder about how silly and unreasonable to yourself you are being. Would you treat a beloved friend or relative this harshly?
I don't know if any of these words will get through to you because everything gets twisted and darkened when you're inside that mind trap, just know that things don't have to be this way and that you have the power to get out, you've always had it.

Guys I think I’ve finally hit my boiling point
>sick for 5th (6th?) time this year after just finishing cold 2-3 weeks ago
>don’t sleep for 2 days, like 2 days ago I got 3 hours of sleep and I’ve been awake ever since
Went into work today feeling like absolute shit. Was falling asleep at the wheel by the time I got in. I had to sit in the parking lot for 10 minutes because my ears just had this loud ringing noise and I felt like I was stun grenaded. Get in and the old guy coworker starts his shit
>and who said he wasn’t gonna show today?
>uh hellooo anon you all there?
>say no explain still sick and the lack of sleep
Was literally stumbling around sluring my speech. Inb4 stroke. It took me like 2 hours to get momentum going. Once I did I outpaced him. Did 70% of the task. He took the easy part. Was a big pain in the ass project, but could have been easier if I was normal. He started having senile moments where he wasn’t getting any work done. Towards end of shift I realized how much he didn’t do which I assumed he did because it was where he was working it pissed me off. He wouldn’t move out of the way. A lot of the same old shit I’ve mentioned.
Then I just snapped. I told him how something needs to be moved for us to get this done and he tried to object and caught an attitude about it and I replied
>okay well this shit has been here for the last hour and you still haven’t changed anything here so why don’t we try moving it on the floor, if it gets the work done I’d gladly take a temporary small mess on the floor.
Sure enough we finished.
I’m almost hopeful I get reported. I want to leave this job. But I want a new one lined up.
>we’ve told you
I know. I realized I see reporting him like something that forces me to commit to this job for life. With the idea of just quitting none of this matters
>just slept for 10 hours
I literally typed this out last night and fell asleep immediately. I’m supposed to be at work right now lmao

>>76377790
Motivation is a feeling that comes and goes and if you allow that to be the driver of your workouts then your health is at the whims of your anxiety and depression
It's also always going to be way more of a bummer to get to the end of a bad day and think about how you did nothing, even if I'm still depressed at the end of the day, at least I can tell myself I still accomplished something positive

Guys I think I’ve finally hit my boiling point
>sick for 5th (6th?) time this year after just finishing cold 2-3 weeks ago
>don’t sleep for 2 days, like 2 days ago I got 3 hours of sleep and I’ve been awake ever since
Went into work today feeling like absolute shit. Was falling asleep at the wheel by the time I got in. I had to sit in the parking lot for 10 minutes because my ears just had this loud ringing noise and I felt like I was stun grenaded. Get in and the old guy coworker starts his shit
>and who said he wasn’t gonna show today?
>uh hellooo anon you all there?
>say no explain still sick and the lack of sleep
Was literally stumbling around sluring my speech. Inb4 stroke. It took me like 2 hours to get momentum going. Once I did I outpaced him. Did 70% of the task. He took the easy part. Was a big pain in the ass project, but could have been easier if I was normal. He started having senile moments where he wasn’t getting any work done. Towards end of shift I realized how much he didn’t do which I assumed he did because it was where he was working it pissed me off. He wouldn’t move out of the way. A lot of the same old shit I’ve mentioned.
Then I just snapped. I told him how something needs to be moved for us to get this done and he tried to object and caught an attitude about it and I replied
>okay well this shit has been here for the last hour and you still haven’t changed anything here so why don’t we try moving it on the floor, if it gets the work done I’d gladly take a temporary small mess on the floor.
Sure enough we finished.
I’m almost hopeful I get reported. I want to leave this job. But I want a new one lined up.
>we’ve told you
I know. I realized I see reporting him like something that forces me to commit to this job for life. With the idea of just quitting none of this matters
>just slept for 10 hours
I literally typed this out last night and fell asleep immediately. I’m supposed to be at work right now lmao

>took a deload week last week as my CNS felt shot and my sleep was horrible
>back to normal yesterday, bench
>try my 105kg x 3
>barely manage 2
>drop down to do my normal 100kg x 5 sets which I've been doing for the past month or so
>literally could not even do one rep at 100kg, it felt like the bar had the wrong weights on one side the entire time but it didn't
what in the FUCK
I am NEVER taking a fucking deload week again
Realistically I just shouldn't have done the top-set of 105kg, I think it was too much to just jump back into straight away.

>>76378894
> There's no real reason to say no other than she's a larger girl and a single mum,
Those are both, very real reasons to say no.

I want to become more flexible. What are some good positions and yoga exercises to do?

>>76378894
> There's no real reason to say no other than she's a larger girl and a single mum
there's the million red flags that go along with both of those things

>>76379163
I am, believe me. I had groomsmen at my wedding that ranged from when I was 10 until now, except for that time in the Navy. Lost a lot of friends because of supporting Trump and then COVID/BLM shit.

Squatted 3.5pl8 today for the first time
I guess taking a month off squats really was the answer

>>76377056
You’re doing great recognizing your flaws and bad patterns. Don’t fall back into them, you’re better then that

>>76378894
My dude, forget the hefty part, single mom is an absolute no. Years ago I had a professional roller skater madly in love with me, but she had that kid and you could tell her life was just falling the fuck apart because of it - she would have fucked my life too.

I do regret not pump-and-dumping, but that was probably for the best too.

Found a house that I like the look of on zillow while randomly browsing. It's a three bed, two bath and barely 1700 sqft but it sits on 14 acres of land. All for about 225k. I've got amazing credit so I could probably get it for less but I don't know anything about buying a home. I don't even know if this is a good time to buy or should I just wait for a potential crash in the housing market.

>>76380709
>All for about 225k
so lucky, I can barely buy an apartment with that kind of money here (and I don't live in a city)
>wait for a potential crash in the housing market
those don't exactly happen every other year so unless you have it on good authority that one's about to happen I personally wouldn't wait for it

>>76380730
>so lucky, I can barely buy an apartment with that kind of money here (and I don't live in a city)
That's insane. The market is pretty bad but it's better or worse depending on where you are. Plus there's probably some issues with the place they aren't being upfront about.
>those don't exactly happen every other year so unless you have it on good authority that one's about to happen I personally wouldn't wait for it
There have been multiple articles about houses staying on the market longer than average. Also some prices are trending down because no one is buying at the inflated rate. They're still up but trending down.

>>76380795
definitely try to gather as much information as possible from other people who know the local market well then, waiting a few years might be worth it unless the deal you found is particularly good.
Also use your head but trust your gut too, sometimes we regret our logical decisions more than our instinctive ones

>>76380709
Wait for it if you can. While the value is in the land itself and that is assured to go up, the banks are going to have a wild time soon as we will be seeing a lot of property management companies starting to aggressively refinance or default on apartment building mortgages fairly soon.
Apartment housing is going to crash soon which is going to fuck up the standard housing market for a time. Honestly, I wouldn't opt to do a house until probably after Trump is out of office. Stack whatever income you can into other investment avenues and let that accrue before the upcoming full fledged recession wo that your net worth doesn't take as big a hit when that house's value takes a dip.
Take what I say with a grain of salt though, as I'm only a casual armchair economist.

>>76376026 (OP)
Bros, 1 month ago I reported my first day sober from a very unhealthy THC addiction. Today I report 1 month free from the green menace. The posts here have been (mostly) encouraging. I hope we can all become the best versions of ourselves. No matter what stage of life you’re at, keep going and know that you have a group of anonymous brothers cheering you on in the background. Thanks bros.

>>76380853
yo congrats! that's huge

>>76380873
Thanks! I’m feeling a mental clarity I haven’t felt in a long time and my recall has improved significantly. What initially started me on this journey was all of the umms and uhhs in my speech and thinking. I was subjecting myself to what felt like voluntary retardation. It was tough, and still is at times, but going back isn’t an option.

>>76380836
>bro, just wait another 3.5 years
>that 300k house you wanted now, bro?
>bro, it's now 420k, bro
>no, bro they didn't upgrade a single thing. in fact the fuckin things got leaks, bro
>not too bad of a price change, eh bro? bro, think if we had anudda covid, bro

>>76377653
You shouldn’t let money be the reason you break up. If you truly love her, you’ll find a way

>>76380836
People have been saying a "full fledged recession" has been coming for a decade now and nothing has really happened. Covid was an anomaly and probably won't happen again. I'm somewhat of an amateur economist and why would they refinance or default on apartments? Those are a particularly safe investment and the shitty ones are covered by section 8. If anything fucks to the housing market won't it be people unable to sell due to the insane prices they're trying to flip for?

>>76380923
House prices frequently stagnate when interest rates get fucked, and they're about to. It's not the price of the house, it's the 30 years of interest.
>>76381045
>why would they refinance or default on apartments?
Because they are those retarded luxury apartments that started construction pre-COVID and opened up shortly after lockdowns lifted, They're defaulting because those buildings are half empty. If you look up complexes near you and they're offering a month of free rent or significant rent credits despite retarded pricing, that's a sign they're trying to rapidly load units to demonstrate investment viability and use that as negotiating for better interest on existing mortgages. When that falls through, defaults or PE buy-outs of those buildings are next and those units will take awhile to recover viability and thus local valuation will also take a hit.
>If anything fucks to the housing market won't it be people unable to sell due to the insane prices they're trying to flip for?
That also has an impact, but you will always have people like >>76380923 who think they need to get in on a "good" deal now. Different housing instruments will affect each other, so true houses are also impacted by apartment markets.

>>76381093
>Because they are those retarded luxury apartments that started construction pre-COVID and opened up shortly after lockdowns lifted, They're defaulting because those buildings are half empty. If you look up complexes near you and they're offering a month of free rent or significant rent credits despite retarded pricing, that's a sign they're trying to rapidly load units to demonstrate investment viability and use that as negotiating for better interest on existing mortgages. When that falls through, defaults or PE buy-outs of those buildings are next and those units will take awhile to recover viability and thus local valuation will also take a hit.
Those are mainly in cities and are being sold to the government to turn into low income housing. There's still a ton of middling apartments that were made and are being used. There are multiple complexes popping up near me and they're not offering a free month at all. If those luxury apartments were going to be a huge shock to the market it would've hit in 2021 or 2022. This sounds more of a failing of people leaving major cities in droves.

>>76381093
Those are mainly in cities and are being sold to the government to turn into low income housing. There's still a ton of middling apartments that were made and are being used. There are multiple complexes popping up near me and they're not offering a free month at all. If those luxury apartments were going to be a huge shock to the market it would've hit in 2021 or 2022. This sounds more of a failing of people leaving major cities in droves.
>Different housing instruments will affect each other, so true houses are also impacted by apartment markets.
That's true but apartments are a lot more stable than actual houses. Especially since more people are renting now and not even buying. The main people who would be fucked are boomer home owners who try and sell.

>>76378956
that is quite literally the ideal fizeek

>>76376026 (OP)
Career Goals: Keep Grinding

Boss has finally given me access to some of the case files we're working on and wants my thoughts. Unfortunately, they are incredibly complex tax law cases. I still do not understand all of what is going on, but I am going to bang my head against this wall until I do.

Social Goals: Hit on more women

Whenever I get the chance to work remotely I go to a cafe and spend time hitting on the women there. They've been pretty receptive. I got stuck in a convo with a chubby yoga teacher. I didn't realize how fat she was, until she was up close and I saw her shape wear.

Also, started talking to a woman who was incredibly bubbly. Unfortunately, she mentioned she had a boyfriend and then he showed up. Dude looked exactly like Ansel Elgort but more disheveled (pic related). Still she made him wait around as she waived at me and said goodbye.

Fitness Goals: Start doing more work on hips and ankles. Also loose weight.

I am nine pounds away from my goal weight. There are six weeks of summer left. This is going to be (hopefully) the final cut. I am taking the leanpill.

Also, have to work on the stability and mobility of my hips and ankles. I realized I have knock knees and I'm going to fix this.

>>76378921
I plan to take the CFA level 2 any recommendation? Do you recommend to study with schweser notes or with the original books? How did you prepare? I hope you have a good CFA 3 exam :D

I spotted abs in the mirror yesterday! I love my boyfriend!

>>76380709
Houses are a lifetime investment. Priced go up and down, sure, but over time they only go up. If you can swing it now, buy it now and quit wasting your hard earned money on rent. Refinance if rates go down.

I can not emphasize this enough, you can not predict a crash. None of the people in this thread can do it. Warren Buffet can't do it.

What you can predict is that prices will go up over time, dips notwithstanding. I know so many people, myself included, that couldn't afford to buy their houses again today, but they got it when they could so they're locked in.

If you can buy now, buy now.

>>76381093
>and they're about to
Unless you're about to murder Jerome Powell soon then they will remain the same until 2026. Add in getting someone new plus the amount of time it will take for them to implement anything, and TACO and I doubt it.
>just 2 more weeks and the zombie economy since 08 will crash
>meanwhile it has been on the rise and only stopped because boomers are retiring in droves right now

>>76381626
>>meanwhile it has been on the rise and only stopped because boomers are retiring in droves right now
And may continue to rise with the new employment numbers. Oil prices are also down which is surprising for the summer

i think it's a core philosophy of these threads that if you see a good opportunity, you must take it. maybe if you wait, a better opportunity might appear later, or maybe it will not.

there's a saying, a bird in the hand is worth two in the bush

but that saying isn't even half of the story. the bigger point is the interest accreted over time that you get out of each opportunity. one small improvement today turns into a big improvement 1 year from now, simply because you've spent a year building on top of it. if instead you don't take it and wait a year for a (chance of) better opportunity, you would have wasted that year

this is specially true when talking about buying a house. the earlier you do it, the earlier you can move on and start a new life and go forward in whatever else you are supposed to do

>>76378842
I’m really sorry about your loss. Your friend is watching you from heaven, become the type of man he dreamed of becoming

So everyone on fit is a rich homeowner too huh? I guess that goes along with how everyone works a six figure remote job.

Something good, something bad.

I was seeing a younger woman (35 myself) and it was good. We were on the same line in a million different things, big and small. Our values and life goals meshed, we had similar sense of humour, you name it. We wrote letters to each other since both liked that. Conversing with her was just easy and pleasant, a better connection than I can remember having with anyone for years. Better than in some of my previous relationships. We were talking about spending time at a summer cabin she rents every year... and then she pulled the rug out from under me. "I dont feel we're truly on the same level in our communication." Apparently I'm too down to earth analytical while she's pondering philosophical and doesnt get the stimulus she needs from me. Of course her being like that was one of the reasons I liked her. And yet we had more in common than I had with most of my exes. So that hurt. A lot.

On the plus side I've gone down 2kg in 1,5 weeks on top of everything previous. I've got ways to go but the process feels easy and pleasant (since CICO works). Lifts have now stalled but havent gone backwards. I adjusted my program accordingly. I'm getting a new better bench with some accessries for my home gum. I also have a good friend who has supported me when I've been down. I'm getting pangs of loneliness and depression but with some good old excercise and white monster everything is possible. And being alone is familiar to me by now anyway.

>>76378807
One day the boy will challenge you. Keep training so that he has to get strong in order to surpass you

>>76382261
Thanks, man. It helps.

mom's gonna buy pizza tonight should I go straight fast until then or eat a chicken breast before my workout (shoulders today)

>>76381548
I’d recommend really taking the time to review and do practice exams. Give yourself an additional month at the end to just practice and review. I’ve only studied with the Schweser notes, the original books are too lengthy. I prepared by taking detailed notes, reading and rereading the textbooks, and doing a lot of practice problems. Don’t underestimate the importance of doing questions. Thank you fren, I hope we both pass our exams :DD

>>76380144
Chekt. How's your financial situation been this entire time? If you lost your job right after reading this post how long would it take before you'd have to go on welfare/mov ein with your parents?

>>76378932
Congrats! You’re working hard and your big break is in sight. WAGMI

extremely stressed out about this presentation i am giving tomorrow (i am terrified of public speaking). i am so scared i am going to look absolutely stupid and make a fool of myself.
might stay home tonight and do some bodyweight stuff.

>>76378951
mediocrity is sadly enough the norm in adult society. you either need to learn to accept that fact or look for places where incredible people congregate

>>76386918
Hit the gym. To help with nerves try and think of something that you have to do after the presentation, even if it's mundane. Like you'll have to drive home later that day, or you have to go to the store this weekend, that way it helps minimize it as just another thing in a list

Only just started working out at age 32 (almost 33), and I was so weak 2.5 months ago that I couldn't even do a single regular pushup (6'3", ~145lbs). Hell, I could barely do 3 knee pushups. Working out at home with adjustable dumbbells, a lat pulldown and leg press machine, I've now worked my way up to 3 sets of pushups at 10, 7, 5 reps. It feels fucking sick bros. I know I'm still a fucking meganoob, but I'm consistently seeing numbers go up either in the form of reps or weight week to week.
I'm going to start going to a proper gym soon, because I particularly lack a barbell bench press/squat setup, as well as a leg curl machine. Looking forward to trying out some of those main compounds with a barbell instead of dumbbells.
Also, because I'm so skinny, the progress is already visible, which is motivating as fuck. I'm still a twig, but being able to see a bit of muscle growth is awesome. WAGMI bros.

Had back surgery about two weeks ago. I haven't moved much since the surgery, it was very intense. Today I decided to walk to a nearby park that I haven't been able to go to due to my health issues. Making the journey alone was a real test for my recovering body, but I strapped on my back brace and headed out. While walking I kept calculating whether my body could handle the journey back but I made it to the park and decided to keep going. A good ways inside I made it to a creek that was overflowing through the path and it started to rain so I had to turn around. The way back was uphill and I had to hurry before the storm hit. Forcing my nerves and muscles to reconnect, my heartrate and breathing elevated, sweating and pushing myself, felt fucking great. Got home, showered and felt that familiar post-workout relaxation while listening to the rain and thunder. Pic related, the turnaround point.

>>76387172
>32
>6'3" skelly
>jahy pic
>mfw

Still, glad you're making the change. At 6'3" and 215 lbs just keep in mind that your frame might make you look smaller.
>16" biceps looks gigantic of 5'3" vs 6'3"

>>76387203
Unsure how to interpret Rogan with a NASA suit and sunglasses
>At 6'3" and 215 lbs just keep in mind that your frame might make you look smaller.
That's alright. I have no aspirations of being some huge dude. I just want to put on some muscle and be as lean as I can. I actually didn't even consider that being taller = longer muscles = equal size to someone shorter is going to look smaller, but that's all right.
Also it's crazy how much it's already doing for my motivation and mental energy. I know people tout those side effects, but it really is a nice change.

>>76378952
for what exercise? I'd go for deloading first

Honestly one of my goals is to not an hero over the next 12 months

>>76378807
incel hands typed this

I beat an alcohol craving today, day 4. I looked in the mirror and my face and I knew it's time to get serious. Fuck this shit.

>>76387701
See you in a few weeks.

>>76379565
You’re so close, so keep pushing forward until you make it!

I feel a lot better today. I think I’ll survive and I think I’ll make it

That wfh job never called me. I don’t think I’ll be getting it, not sure. My friend who passed my resume to his connect got fired in his first week. They had a training exercise and he likes to act shit out (plays DnD does full voices of all sorts) and this asshole chose to do an Indian accent. He wasn’t trying to be hateful towards pajeets but the company is super liberal and this was enough for them to fire him on the spot. They also said he made a female employee uncomfortable by “being way too personal” when he complimented her hair over webcam, apparently it was some black chick with an over the top multi colored braid type hairstyle. You know, the kind a bitch gets to fish for compliments.
>inb4 why would you wanna work for those kinds of people
It shouldn’t be an issue. So long as I don’t compliment hair or use fake accents. I think it’s gay they fired him over that, but also I’m a bit upset that he did that. I’m stuck in my current job I was supposed to hear from them like 3 weeks ago.
Current job (old guy coworker anon) is gonna give me like 3 weeks off in 4 months. Which is okay whatever. Job still sucks, still low pay, still a fucked up commute, hours still prevent me from being able to do a lot of the stuff I want to outside of work. The 3 day weekend doesn’t even mean anything at this point.
>commute
My commute is so fucking gay, it’s just a straight line but it’s minimum 45 minutes sometimes over an hour. 3/4ths of it take me 15 minutes. The last 1/4th takes 30-50 minutes through the most fucked up streets and traffic imaginable. Imagine driving through hood town like MLK jr street and grand obama avenue type road names mixed with a ton of out of state people. There is no alternative route. Taking the highway would make it take just as long because I’d have to drive out of my way just to get to one, effectively going north then later on back south twice as far. Not stressing myself with high way traffic for the same outcome.

>>76388884
I’m just bitching. I’m still hopeful still have goals. May start looking at electrician apprenticeships again. Although every time I’ve tried all the jobs want me to be in or done with trade school and certified sometimes with 3-5 years experience already WHICH MAKES NO FUCKING SENSE for a role meant to teach someone with zero experience. Same was true for helper positions btw which makes even less sense…

>>76379060
they make some devices that hold your tongue in place. i have a cpap and i hate it but it does work. dont let them cut you up

>>76388892
Try joining a union with an apprenticeship program

>>76379604
Continue cutting, you’re so close to your goal. Don’t feel depressed, you’ve made so much progress already

>>76388910
She just glared at me when I suggested she trim my tongue down even though girls would hate it. I was given the option of a cpap, but "you're not really the target for that" and they sent me to the dentist. I went to my own dentist who said he also swallows his tongue and his wife made him get one of those oral devices that hold your shit in place or a cpap.

He talked me into the newest, latest and greatest, piece of hardware and said if it works for me he would switch over because the one he has is uncomfortable as hell. Dude is older, but pretty /fit/ and not obese and also said a cpap is impossible to sleep with. Every fatass family member I know who has one doesn't bother to use theirs.

>>76380622
Congrats!

>>76378932
Update: Got offered roles for both shows AND have been connected to audition for part of a major film with Universal.
>>76385584
WAGFMI

>>76389157
I tried that man didn’t work. Have to take math tests. The way I do math isn’t the way you pass a test. I got through all of middle and high school making Cs and Bs and sometimes As in math without ever having learned how to do the actually work, like I skipped all the fundamentals in elementary and middle school. How fucked is that? Clearly not a retard but may as well be one. Even did most of an associates degree like that

>>76390826
>>76389157
Meant to say, and it’s been so long that now I can’t even do what I used to. I can do math I just can’t pass a test. I would have to khan academy k-12 study for 3 months just to test into the union and even then it’s not guaranteed. Tried the practice tests from my local and didn’t know how to do a good deal of it

>>76381355
You’ve proven to your boss that you’re more than capable, now he’s trusting you with great responsibilities! Good luck in your job! You will rise to the occasion

>>76381559
Congrats on your abs! What’s your ab routine?

>>76388633
To talk about my success, yes.

>>76382406
I’m sorry about not going further with her. Women can find random reasons to break up. But don’t give up, you’ll find someone eventually. At least you’re making progress in terms of fitness. Having one good friend is key to living life. You’re making good progress, don’t slow down now

Exercise is one of the only things that makes me feel okay. I think I will start using creatine. I wanna get even more ripped. That will look cool.

wtf chadnet is back

>>76376580
Just one thing I would add anon, if you get just a pair of dumbbells you can do a lot of things already and they don't cost much, particularly if you get a good deal on used ones.

Alternatively, if you want to get something that will take as little space as possible, you can consider buying resistance bands. Layered bands are better than molded bands, but they are more expensive.

Just something to keep in mind, if at some point you will be looking for some alternative to the gym.

>>76387175
You set a reasonable goal and succeeded! You should feel proud of yourself. Your strength will return eventually if you keep recovering

>>76391822
Nta but the more experience I have with women the more I understand that nothing about them is able to really be understood. What I mean is they truly are illogical and it really isn’t worth stressing about them or what ifs. Just the things you can control, which is your own life (money, health, happiness). Some of which stems into dealing with women, I.e. not putting up with certain things like disrespect or dropping them if they’re proving to be more of a headache than any benefit to your life.
And I hate to have to look at dating and relationships in such a redpill sort of way (because of what Redpill has turned into and what it’s associated with these days). But it’s the reality. They’re a waste of time for anything but some fun, you should never believe she will stick around forever or shape your life around that belief. Everything can be perfect and then because of one short lived emotion she ups and decides she can do better and cheats or leaves

>>76392195

Any idea what they added?

They used to have a section with new material by month, that was useful.

>>76386918

itll pass anon

you will make it

euu

I could really use any advice or criticism or just any input or opinions I may find insightful if you guys don’t mind.


I know what’s wrong with my life, I know what changes I need to make. I would say it’s all relatively simple. Realistically I can compartmentalize it all into like 3 sections. But I don’t know what the point is.
>depressed
Why? The world is crap, people are entitled and selfish, and I don’t really see the point of any of this. I can keep going but that alone sounds faggy enough to type out like boo hoo womp womp yeah I know.
>what needs to change
A.) health and physique
Get back in shape, get a good body again.
Why? 1.) it stems into other aspects of life ultimately leading towards being happier 2.) this alone is a source of why I’m not happy right now.
B.) fulfillment and fun
Fulfillment isn’t an easy thing but for example with a hobby I genuinely enjoy I would feel fulfilled whenever I make progress.
C.) money
Self explanatory. Simple as finding some shit I can actually do. Idk what that is though and it’s a double whammy of paralysis because like I said before idk what the point of it all is and also idk how to bring myself to invest if I don’t know it will work out, don’t have time or money to waste on that shit
D.) pussy
This is more of a base needs satisfaction section but this and most other base needs are met if I fix A-C.


>example of what accomplishing this shit looks like
Great body, making $75k (enough for comfort) from job and working on building a business related to the things I enjoy probably a fishing social media and lure company, dating women I genuinely want to date and have around me.


And I look at it like “okay cool but what actually changes when I get there? Great I got some pussy now too bad I find women insufferable to be around beyond a couple hours. Working a full time job and balancing time for hobbies and trying to build a business? I would be burnt out before any of it worked why try

>>76393571
I just see it all like “what actually changes?” I feel like I could fast forward 1 year and be there and I just wouldn’t care, I would feel like I’d rather just be alone in my apartment doom scrolling and playing WoW.

>>76388884
Keep looking for wfh jobs. They’re rare but they’re worth it by all metrics.

>>76376026 (OP)
>at gym
>lanky fat retard walks in wearing an anrmy shirt with the zoomer stache
>red flag 1
>starts to work out right around my area and even gets right where in order to do my sets i have to shoo him away
>red flag 2
>whispers to himself while lifting
>red flag 3
>cranks out as many reps as he can do, even with sloppy form, the entire time i'm at the gym and coincidentally leaves the second i leave
red flag 4

I'm tired of pretending people respect you more when you lift. Unless you come off as a big teddy bear most people will start shit with you and treat you worse because you're better than they are on a visual level. Women act cuntier to me than ever before. Men, especially manlets, spics, and manlet spics, try to 1up me and want to try and fight to play David and Goliath. EVERY goddamn boomer wants me to believe he somehow managed to bench 3+ plates "back in the daaaay". The only exception to this are the uggo nerdy fatties (male and female) who at this point I'd rather be around because at least they don't try to make everything a dick/clit measuring contest.

Yes, yes, I know. Woman-shit.

>Meet woman online
>We vibe very well
>Agree to meet up
>She is very clear she is averse to male touch and asks me not to touch her, it'll take her a very very long time to get to that point - no problem easy
>Ends up being a 12 hour date, amazingly fun

>Keep talking, long phone calls, she's very engaged
>Meet again 2 weeks later
>"Anon, touch my face/shoulders/hair" and hold hands
>Yes

>Meet again a third and fourth time
>So fun, both very engaged
>Had a hotel room for work and she comes over both times
>Cuddling, kissing parts of her body including the inside of her thighs, holding hands
>Lasts the whole night, get breakfast at 6am together

>Meet a fifth time, also fun, ask to kiss
>Get told "Whoa, Anon, I want to make this clear: I am not here for a relationship. Kissing is too romantic. I am not emotionally available. That is not what this is about for me"

Are. You. Fucking. Kidding. Me.

>Next two weeks we're on/off, the rupture keeps getting brought up
>I tell her: "okay, you're not here for a relationship? Cool I can meet you there, it's not like that for me either"
>She gets quiet, seems kinda disappointed
>Rupture keeps getting brought up again
>She's basically treating it like a break-up, ghosts me for a few days
>We call, agree to continue under it not being romantic at all
>Still lots of laughs together, great conversations, >Ignore certain bids for romantic attention from her
>I feel like things have turned into being more shallow, distant, boring because I'm half-having fun/half-angry

You could have had me and it could have been great. I have lots going for me, we compliment each other well, and we get along very easily.

Now you can't. Ever. I feel so led on and then rejected. I see your bait and I'm intentionally ignoring it. You don't deserve it.

The lesson I have learned, and what I want you to learn vicariously, is that just because someone is cool doesn't make them worthy of your love.

>>76393923
>army shirt*

>>76393931
>She is very clear she is averse to male touch and asks me not to touch her
Stopped reading there. If physicality is a major thing for you then you should have immediately told her, respectfully, that wasn't going to work long term. You could be "friends" (AKA: "Hit me up with a girl you know who IS physical") at best or end it there. IDC if it's a shit test and she'll let you do anal Proxy Paige style.

>averse to male touch
Translated:
>i've let dudes fuck me HARD withing 15 minutes of talking and i'm trying to deny i'm a cum dumpster

>>76391901
At least youve identified something that brings joy to your life. Keep improving

>>76393959
If you read further you'd know that it did progress to more touching.

Though I don't disagree with your overall assessment that she's let dude hit it hard. I actually think it's more of a control thing rather than a modesty thing. Like, she doesn't trust men not to go to far (you can imagine why) so she's very up front about it until she feels she can trust you not grope her or just grab her.

>>76393959
Nta but you seem insightful, riddle me this. If there’s no sex, then there is no relationship right? I.e. let’s say the bitch lives 3 hours away, but of a pain in the ass but that’s a driveable distance. You’ve met up and had dirty raw ferocious just stank sweaty sticky sex where she’s looking like a pulled apart grilled cheese after a few times but that’s it. She’s all for talking and yapping your ears off via call and text but when it comes time to meet up suddenly she can’t suddenly she has a thousand excuses why she can’t. You’re being played in that situation right?

>>76394191
Ok I read further. I was correct in that it WAS a shit test. Just escalate it to the point it's borderline rape. A firm NO means no. Everything else is just bullshit to make her feel wanted. You have to be willing to take that attention away and be fully willing to let her go the second you bust your nut and are no longer horny.

>>76394292
Depends. Did you go to meet her for grilled cheese sex or were you hoping to start something serious? I've always ended FWB with the notion of
>send me nudes if you want
>i'll keep in touch
>let's figure something out later on
>don't talk to her beyond that
Also, could be that there was someone else closer and/or caught her attention. If she's willing to fuck a stranger to the point of baby making she's not exactly a fucking upstanding character.

But yes. She's making up an excuse and being a cunt. If you're willing to let her go call her out on it and call her a cunt. It got me laid once but that also means you need to treat her like garbage to keep fucking her.

>>76394340
>ended FWB
Or rather, I've ended a FWB meetup*

>>76394340
Anon, I got a firm no to asking to kiss her. This right here:

">Get told "Whoa, Anon, I want to make this clear: I am not here for a relationship. Kissing is too romantic. I am not emotionally available. That is not what this is about for me"

is verbatim what I was told in that moment. Since then I have been distant. I spent the next week barely replying to her texts until she got upset and then the call happened where i was like "okay, not a relationship" and she got mad. Then she doubled down in a call a week later and "we're clear this isn't a relationship" and I agreed and have basically since left.

My point of posting here was to let off steam at being played. I'm not going back. I'm not playing games with her. I'm not even going to try to dick her down because that's still giving her attention.

She's extinguished from my life apart from random memes or whatever. And it's her doing. Live with it, bitch.

Anyways, thank for listening.

>>76391901
make sure you enter a loading phase at the start. 4x5g throughout the day for about a month. you'll notice a massive difference in your strength per workout. 10g/day after for brain performance improvements.

>>76394382
So again I say: next time some bitch tells you that, drop her right then and there.

Thank you for sharing

>>76394382
Dude I’m about to reply to other anon with what’s probably the most obvious case of a guy being played and even I can see your situation isn’t that complicated. I know (obviously lol) how hard it is to see while being IN the situation, but
>im not here for a relationship that isn’t what this is for me
THEN THE FUCK ARE YOU THERE FOR BITCH? She’s a waste of time. You’re telling me this hoe really thinks some guy took her on a date and spent time with her because he wants to be her bestie? A father figure to her? Get a grip hoe! She’s garbage man, she has already proven to be a waste of time. She’s already playing games with you, like even if it was just a test this is one way too early and too big to look past. She’s just going to continue this shit. Games and tests never stop man. Doesn’t matter how long you continually pass them they never end and if this cunt is going to play this “sorry we’re just platonic friends teehee” bullshit just imagine how much worse it will get. This is the type of hoe who will flirt with other dudes to get a rise out of you. Just drop her and move on. It isn’t worth the hole between her legs. Nothing she can offer you can’t also come from a better chick.

>>76394340
>>76394340
>start something serious
Man I fucked up it shoulda just been FWB. It was the perfect set up. I took a friends shitty advice who didn’t quite understand the situation and rushed into a relationship with her. We fucked and then spent a week together a couple months later and fucked a bunch more. Never really went on a date with her. It was essentially just a penpal ship with some bitch I fucked a few times.
Every time I tried to see her after she had 1000 excuses despite that she had just said open schedule.
She started to pop up red flags and seem like a whore so I called it off (can give specific examples Freudian slips and such like her getting mad and saying she would just go bother another guy when I wanted to sleep after spending hours on the phone then claiming it was a joke). Spoke here and there every few months since, nothings ever come of it.
She’s been begging to see me last few months, had a week off so told her to come here on the 4th. She was all on board and then just never bought her ticket until it was too expensive. Prices dropped then she spent 3 hours packing a days worth of get fucked clothes and it sold out. Then a day later started yelling at me on the phone saying I should have paid for her ticket so I hung up after explaining I wasn’t going to argue and that I wasn’t going to spend my money on a ticket for a girl who has proven to be incredibly flakey.
Last we spoke like a week later that’s the dynamic now, she demands I pay for her ticket. I’m not doing that. Like it’s a game to make me waste money. She’s broke unemployed not in school but idgaf. She said she could drive but then that was no longer and option either. I also told her I was in her neck of the woods a few months ago and she just ghosted for the day.

>>76394340
>>76394540
In retrospect it’s very obvious in being played. I still posted it. But typing that and reading it it’s so fucking obvious now.
She was the hottest I’ve ever fucked in all fairness
Is there anyway to crack it again?

>>76394546
Sucks. Fir me its wanting to believe that thete is a woman out there I could trust and marry. lolno. Treat all women as livestock. They enjoy it.

I haven't had any coffee in 2 weeks. Let's go bros.

>>76394575
I’ve been watching Casey Zander and I feel like I’m waking up man. It’s like manosphere stuff but his doesn’t come off as forced or fake. And he’s just giving free info all he sells is a war room like club for individual help he barely plugs it. Just countless videos calling reality how it is

>>76394575
And ftr I really want to believe the same shit man. This isn’t my first time realizing women are at best play things not worth taking seriously. But it blows to let my guard down meet one who I think may be the one and then re learn reality. I’d love to have the 1950s American dream. Take a virgin wife who’s easily a 7/10 who will act how a woman should have some kids etc.
But I know better. Seems like the next best thing is to improve until I can have like 5 bitches on rotation who I don’t even have to spend money on who will just travel to my place to suck my dick the second I tell them to and then kick them out after. Is it wrong to want that? Because it’s all I really need if none are worth a ring

>>76394608
Invest in twinks younger than 25. Im being completely serious.

>>76394465
I do disagree a bit. I think you should generally be understanding and willing to meet people where they're at, including if they need time to get comfortable with you.

But if someone doesn't meet you when you give that, toss their ass to the curb. They are a user. And that's what happened here. I'm just annoyed because it feels like there was more and things were going well until it got too real (hint: it was never real).

>>76394533
>Then what the fuck are you here for bitch
100%. She's was there for attention, entertainment, sexual tension, but not real connection. A part of what makes me mad is how can you meet someone you share that with and then be like "nah lol".

>>76393923
But does lifting make you happy? That’s what truly counts

>>76394743
Anon I’m the guy you 100%’d with and I gotta say while I do entirely understand where you’re coming from
>I think you should generally be understanding and willing to meet people where they're at, including if they need time to get comfortable with you.
I just don’t think this is the way man. Something like anal, sure. But you’re talking about a bitch using someone for free nights out and attention effectively stringing him along for a “well maybe she lets me stick my penis in her tonight!” When there are women who aren’t gonna do that shit. If that’s the allowable standard anon agrees to put up with, she’s going to drag that on as long as possible (and in all honesty more than likely be fucking other dudes the whole time). Anon could go meet a non whore who’s fine with the kiss, or at least rejects it in such a way that makes it clear there won’t be any games or future dates so he doesn’t waste time or feel confused. This girl knowingly omitted her goals until the very end and played the classic innocent woman role of “oh I thought we were just buddies” trying to make anon out to be some kind of bad guy “that’s not what this is for me wow I can’t believe you thought other wise you’re a creep nigger faggot mcgillicutty dickcheese farm laboring pest”
That’s not someone to be understanding and patient with, that’s how you get played and used. Maybe I’m misunderstanding you a bit and you agree with that, it looks like on on second read. But I feel like what you said may be more applicable to not fucking on the first date than the context of what this chick did to anon (to you? Idk who’s who anymore). Even then there comes a time when you have to stop being patient and understanding. 5 dates in no pussy? You’re both wasting each others time except she’s benefiting from it. As a man your time is finite. As a woman she can afford to play these games because she’s still benefiting from it.

>>76394752
Yes. It's when you see fags trying to get into a dick measuring contest. It's the type of shit that makes me want to go full MMA (as spergy as that sounds) so I can actively call this shit out.
>Why the actual fuck are you working out right next to my bench where I can't dismount the bar? You know I can't get my sets in so move, you faggot.

I like gym. I hate gym fags
I like MMA. I hate MMA fags
I like the outdoors. I hate outdoor fags
I like guns. I hate gun fags
Traditionally masculine stuff in America is indeed masculine but most queers treat it like an accessory on par with
>woah johnny! you ALSO got a ford bronco? so did greg, mike, and bill!

>>76387050
>>76393356
thank you anons
i made it through.
this week was rough all around.

>>76394585
Great job! I’ve been a week free from caffeine. I’ve noticed that even if I sleep less, I feel more rested

Women are just retarded in general.
I was a late bloomer and the first girl I dated was a spic. We went on dates all the time, she said she loved me, blah blah blah, then suddenly after a few months she goes completely cold. Internally I was freaking out and trying to salvage things wondering what I did wrong.

Then I saw on her instagram she liked a post that basically said something like "when you find the perfect guy for you but you just cant bring yourself to like him back". That's when I realized it was truly over.

Opened my eyes at least and i stopped giving a shit about my next gfs. Also learned why mexicans are going to be forever poor and retarded, because they can't let go of their shitty culture and MUH FAMILIA. Dumb bitch had a golden opportunity to get with a white guy with actual money and she blew it. I remember when I took her to my parents house and she said she's never been in a house like ours.

>>76394382
>asking to kiss
dude, it's over LOL

>>76395592
It wouldn't have made a difference if I didn't ask. She would have rejected me anyways because she just wanted to play. Maybe I could have got it with another month of keeping it cool. Guess we'll never know.

I survived this week :)

>>76395591
My first GF was a nig. Hot as fuck in her prime, 5’3” huge shapely non saggy perky double D tits big dick sucking lips 100lbs great ass when in doggy, turbo hoe super flexible. Learned basically every lesson I ever needed from women from her as a late bloomer. And I still largely don’t understand them but I can at least go into a relationship knowing it will probably end and never get fully attached, never truly take seriously beyond “just some bitch I fuck”

>>76395591
>only value you give yourself is your money and your parents house size
lel, another betabucks cuck on /fit/, what else is new

>>76396049
Horrible mindset ngl

>broccoli head lil zoomie asks me if I have jumper cables
>I do
>Asks for help
>Doesn't know how to do it so I just do it myself while explaining to him
>Doesn't work immediately and he starts to get anxious
>Tell him to wait and try a few times afterwards, if doesn't work we can always push start
>Seems uncomfortable
>Says maybe it's better to call a tow truck
>Just wait lil bro
>It finally works
>Soft handshake
Felt nice helping the dude but zoomies are as they say cooked. I thought us millennial chads were pretty autistic and dependent on others but next gen takes it to a whole new level.
>

>>76396073
Yes. But it's the mindset you need to have.

>>76396837
We are indeed autistic. I doubt many of us will make it
t. 1997 zillennial

>>76394596
I just checked out this guy, the stuff he talks about is pretty much on point, but realizing these things out in the open like that makes me not want to pursue a woman ever again

do you guys think that if i moved to cabin in the woods and i wouldnt see a female for years, that my libido would be nonexistent and i wouldnt even jerk off?

>>76396933
I'm a 1990 boomlennial and felt like a well adjusted and skilled person compared to lil zoomie bro.

>>76396837
They say we millennials are autistic and helpless because we need to ask how to do shit the generations before us (people over 50) never taught us which was just automatically taught to them by the generation before them. Boomers genuinely think they were just naturally born with knowledge on how to do shit.
I shouldn’t even have started replying I’m especially pissy about this right now over the old guy coworker I’ve bitched and moaned about on this board for the last year. Fuck face will let me do 90% of the work call me slow and lazy and then claim that he did all the work and I’m just another lazy young person man there are times when I have fantasies about donkey punching this fucker.
>>76396933
Hey man as long as you make the effort to learn shit that’s all that can be expected of you. Ask people, watch videos etc.
That’s the skill you need to hone, being able to watch a video and follow along. You learn to do the stuff as you do it. I can follow basically any video and maybe a blue print type diagram showing me what to do. After my 3rd time doing the thing I have memorized. For example I had to watch videos on changing tires on the side of the highway a few times. Now I can just do it it’s easy. I had to replace a side view mirror recently, after following the video for my specific car once I can do it again without the video. No one just knows stuff, even total savant retards have to at least look up instructions. Your generation like mine isn’t being taught stuff that was previously handed down without anyone asking. Ask, fuck anyone who treats you like shit for trying to learn. You do that and you’re better than most people your age. Who act like the zoomer in anons story just freaking out over nothing

>>76397571
Thanks for the advice. I try to ask questions and learn from others

>>76376026 (OP)
>39
>all my classmates are either bald, fat, crippled, or dead, or a combo
>younger cousins have bad backs and chronic pain
>zoomers I hooked up with are the same, if not worse
>all of them, even this 21 year old I plowed two years ago are aging like shit

I don't get it. I've been a borderline alcoholic for the past 3 years, my lifts have gone to shit, I don't get out much, I smoke, I smoke weed, I do other drugs. I know if I keep it up it'll catch up to me, but I just don't understand how all of these people, especially the well-adjusted ones have nosedived so hard.

>>76399087
A lot of people give up after a certain age. Work and stress really do cause people to hit the wall hard. The situation is further compounded due to food delivery and streaming. These days it's normal to be a loser

>>76399322
Chekt. I feel like a loser being unemployed for so long yet still remember I'm not in debt to a McMansion, student loans, a faggoty Ford Bronco, married to a crone, and fat af. I get compliments and stares despite my greatest achievement this year being System Shock 2's release

>>76399350
So you're living well. Keep your head held high, you're gonna make it

>>76399087
I'm 39. Having a full head of hair and not being overweight puts me ahead of most guys my age, it seems.

>had a recurring dream since I was a kid of being unable to walk up an incline
>the incline would always change from a hill, bleachers, a drive way, etc.
>only constant was I was struggling to climb and going slow while everyone around me was able to walk up quickly with ease
>last night have a dream where instead of going up something I'm walking down a steep staircase
>I'm doing my usual slow pace and making it down steadily
>everyone else is trying to go down quick but they're falling and getting injured
>for once feel like I'm actually moving at a decent speed
Don't know what it means but maybe it's a sign of things getting better. Also had a a gf in the dream so maybe that's a sign.

>>76378872
That's a great memorial. Marigolds looking nice

>>76396058
Cope
That's why you're probably also poor and retarded

>>76399403
It’s a sign that subconsciously you’re doing better. Keep trekking forward, you will make it

>>76389942
havent posted here in a while, what's your story?

was looking into modelling but most of the "agencies" here are shifty as fuck and demand up front payment.

>>76399322
>>76399374
I've 'given up' plenty of times over the years. Should probably be in a lot worse health than I am, but it just doesn't happen. Parents are relatively healthy and look great despite my dads chain smoking and severe alcoholism and my moms decade of chemo (ongoing).

>>76399350
If you're able to get by month to month who honestly cares. I was unemployed, no car, mums basement, ex broke up with me, etc. Went to get a fresh haircut, barber and his coworkers were all jealous that I didn't 'have' to work. Helps if you don't act poor I guess. Looking back on it, I had no obligations, I had time to figure shit out and do what I wanted in the mean time, and I squandered it. This was only 3 years ago, and in hindsight the shit I worried about then was really not bad, and the shit I worry about now are inescapable realities about my situation and the people around me.


>>76399390
Just having your shit relatively in order seems enough to mog anyone 18+ these days.

>>76378932
>>76389942
fucking eh anon, nice one! dont forget us here in the MiS thread when you're on the red carpet, y'hear?

>>76401307
I took a break from performing for a year or two to be able to get a stable tech slave job. I started back again last year with some acting classes with a big emphasis on building out your own brand via social media and hounding casting call boards.
Eventually moved to unpaid gigs with some community theatre and indie films nearby, then my name started getting around and I interacted more with directors telling me about their upcoming projects.
While I've never done any kind of real modeling (I've done promotional shoots for the gigs which is akin to that), I would imagine the process isn't too dissimilar. While I don't have any representation, I wouldn't seek it without building some kind of independent portfolio first. My city has a "local creatives" meet and greet every month with the intention to network people of disparate talents and interests to collaborate. Might be worth a shot connecting with some photographers and building up some kind of portfolio that way and bringing that to an agency instead.
>>76401339
Said it before and I'll say it again:
WAGFMI, brahs

>>76401411
I've got a femboi friend who does custom cosplay and makeup. I'll get him to help with some portfolio, I guess. There's events here, but a lot of it is run by the usual bunch of faghags who try to make everything sexual and otherwise gay.

Glad you got your foot in, anon. I'm not a terribly social person so I might have to take a slightly different avenue, which is fine for me.

Keep us posted, or at least come back and greentext us some stories.

>>76401411
even actors got tech jobs huh?

>>76401503
Most of them have more low level stuff like food service. I went to school for both theatre and compsci with the intention of having a more steady health insurance than relying on inconsistent union gigs.
>>76401436
Honestly, I'm a massive introvert, but my networking self is effectively another character I play, just for a particular audience. I don't need to warn you about the catty fags, but if you get them talking about their projects, even if you don't go for them you can at least build up favors by connecting others together. Half the time I'm playing agent for others because I've gotten so in demand that I can't do the unpaid stuff anymore and now just refer other people I've met to my older connections.

>>76401559
What's your background like, aside from university? I'm also a csfag, pays well, but I'm looking for an out I guess. Keep getting told I could (and should) "get paid for being pretty", but I think I have maybe 3 public photos of myself out there.

>>76401665
Honestly it's mostly tied to high school and uni. During covid I did a little more paid work being in some of those retarded crime reenactment shows or background in reality shows. I spent a lot of time on different casting sites and local pages trying out for every gig I could fit into my schedule.
Honestly, I would say you should consider doing the same even if you don't intend to do much actual acting. The reason being is from the models I do know, they basically act in a very silent way. When they're on shoots, the photographer is generally coaching them on specific affectation to convey the purpose of the brand or whatever artistic message they're trying to convey. And getting involved with some kind of classes (legit ones not ones put on by talent agencies to basically groom you) can help you network yourself.
The world is full of unfulfilled talent because people cannot sell themselves well

>>76401934
>The world is full of unfulfilled talent
MFW the rock album I've been working on the past two years will never see the light of day because music and instruments are expensive and I don't know anybody
All it is now is just a bunch of text files of chords and words and how I imagine the rest of it in my head

>>76401934
I'll give it a look, anon. I know there's a lot of films of varying quality being shot here, figure even an extra role would be a fun experience.

bros I had surgery a week ago and my throat aches so bad from the breathing tube. I'm up and moving normally but every time I swallow or eat/drink anything my throat aches so bad. hurts especially bad in the morning.

apparently this can last weeks, fuck whoever hammered that breathing tube down my throat. I have to speak so low to not get pain.

Anyone had any experience in cooking with coconut oil? I love coconut, but I don't want food like steak to taste like it. I hear it has great health benefits and wanted to try it.

>>76403863
It works very well, but I still use butter for steak.

>>76403956
What do you cook with it and what about the taste?

>>76403863
nigga read a book, you can use practically any fat that isn't trans fat or a bunch of highly processed saturated fat like crisco and be good to go. use olive oil, use canola oil, use butter, use whatever. just monitor your omega-3s as well and you're pretty much good as lipids go.

>>76402181
I’m sorry bro. I hope you feel better soon <3

snorlax here how do we get new bread

>>76404224
When this one dies

>last week stopped following the news and politics altogether
>bought Meditations
>downloaded My Fitness Pal and started calorie counting at -750
>daily walks, will get a gym membership in a few weeks once i got my finances in order

I became 28 years old last saturday on the 19th, but the entire week before ive been reflecting on my life and I didn't liked it, only okayish part is my webdev career.

I will follow the /sig/pill, by july 19 next year, I hope to be in a better shape, have a healthier mind, and be more social, I really miss having friends.

snorlax
started adding interval cardio to my workouts and it seems to be helping me sleep without the mask. not sure if it helps with snoring but wife keeps saying i move too much so we're in separate beds for now anyway.
everything seems to be going fine with the pregnancy so far.
Got my testosterone results back - everything is in range (free, available, total, all that) but i want to dig deeper into the numbers. the cool thing is that i wasn't even at the optimal timing for the test but i want to see what i can do to improve and do it again in a few months. Either way, not bad for nearly 40.
had a few calls with recruiters and a consulting agency last week for a one off call. not holding my breath on any of them coming through but the enjeetification of my company is making me want to push the move sooner than later. a lateral move into another industry is probably more beneficial in the long run than ending up unemployed again in six months. either way, mostly on track to get this other certification by the end of the month. might also be doing sales for a product my college buddy is putting together.

>>76404337
Congrats on the kid! Continue working hard so that your kid has someone to look up to. My old man is one of my biggest role models in life.
Keep applying to jobs and studying. You’re making the right choice saving yourself for something better

I WILL MEET ALL OF MY DEADLINES
I WILL STUDY HARD
I WILL PASS MY LEVEL 3 CFA EXAM THIS JANUARY
I WILL MAKE IT

Work is improving but still tremendously hard. I’m confident that I’ll meet my deadlines this week, but I need to work extra hard in order to succeed. I dislike my boss, but so do my coworkers as well. I’m not sure I chose the right job, but I need to push through and make it. I will escape

Studying is difficult but I have the added advantage of having experienced this information before. I can’t get discouraged if sometimes I stumble or the oath ahead is unclear. I know exactly what I want and have made this ascent previously. I need to calm down and climb forward. This time I’m making it to the summit

Good luck on your journeys frens! Take it day by day, eventually we’ll reach our destinations. WAGMI

>>76404258
I’m roughly the same age as you (27) and I’m in the same boat. I’m also trying to zone out from politics and news. I want to be happy and focus on making friends

I'm going to ask for a raise after just a few months with the company, likely they will not give it to me so I'll have to quit afterwards.
In the end they'll probably miss me because I'm a pretty good worker and I'll probably regret it since the job is ok 80% of the time and there's some room for growth but it is what it is.

I don't live paycheck to paycheck and the free time will be good to get back into running.

Surprised the /sig/ mega archive hasn't been posted yet

https://mega.nz/folder/Lro2TQxT#xGKCfbRYvE5cUkCPZyjzGA

>>76376904
>I do go on regular two-hour walks with a friend which helped with the weight loss.
Bro walking does so much more for you than weightloss, especially with a friend.
You were evolved to walk so your body showers you in benefits. If there's a health benefit that can be had, walking gives it to you.
It's fucking cheating how much health per calorie burned you get out of it.

>>76376519
bro the other two are right
you've got the tism probably in some degree which makes it tougher for you to socialize because you aren't as good at getting a read on people.
But that's okay, you just need to build your playbook.
Treat each socialization as a game of life instead of a personal measuring stick.
>I tried this
>they laughed
>*marks down as good*
>I tried this
>*they did not act favorably*
>*write down as bad, come up with solutions*

If you got the tism bad enough you aren't going to be able to read anything that you haven't developed in your play book.
But once you get you playbook written, your indivdual and unique personality will shine and mix with it.

Then you will develop personal bonds and your oxytocin will increase giving you much better feelings.

Don't compare yourself to your friend
Study him and aspire to have those traits.
Pay attention to his body language, his facial expressions, his cringe phrases.
Because that's his playbook.

Confidence requires either stupidity or bravery. Luckily, I have both in spades. You can do a lot of stuff you shouldn't be able to do with confidence.

Hang in there brother.
WAGMI

>>76377056
>when i was in a depression spiral and it's like i'm reading someone else's thoughts.
People are hella complex when you think about it.
That's you. A part of you.
If that wasn't you, you wouldn't be able to grow and learn from it.
Also hell yeah on ChatGPT, don't let any fucker who doesn't give you the time of day tell you not to use it.
It's pretty supportive, but you likely already know you can just ask it to be more critical when you need it.

>>76383328
Fast through the workout if you're eating that pizza within 4 hours of finishing. Cheese is great protein and can replace the breast.
Do a lighter workout. It'll be okay.
Enjoy pizza with your mom.

>>76404258
Meditations is okay. Pick the parts that make sense, but don't treat it as gospel.
Meditations is basically a long
"Accept the things you cannot change and have the courage to change the things you can" thing.

>>76376026 (OP)
Hey /MITS/, the Bar is next week (pray for us lawbros).
How do I summon internal motivation to study/NoLife this?
The only things that my brain wants are external which is what my friends have (they have jobs that require bar pass or fiancees to fight for so to speak).
I don't have those.
I've also been dealing with mental stuff that needs pharm intervention (tried prayer, talking it out, yeah, can't afford for brain to be like this, especially in a court of law), which has been sucking away brainpower.
I'm scared.
If I fail I can take again with a bar course free of charge so to speak, but I'll be worthless w/o law job. No woman who's of value wants dude w/o job.
>Especially a Catholic conservative one

>>76399087
People's social lives tend to get destroyed after college.
People are social creatures.
Without fulfilling our evolutionary advantage, we tend to rot away
Stay social, anon.
Even if you have to use us to limp along.

It was my birthday yesterday. I didn't drink, but i did on thursday, friday and saturday to an extreme level, so I'm still hung over.
I've noticed hangovers are one of my biggest sources of motivation. It's kind of a toxic relationship with myself, but whenever I go on a bender, the hangover feels so shitty and I feel so bad about the time I waste being useless, that once I get better I go full self improvement like some sort of high performance monk.
Then I get so much shit done that I stop worrying, I become lazy and soft and end up getting drunk at some point and restart the cycle.

I don't feel guilty this time cause it was my birthday and all and it was fun and, despite the quantities, I drank like a responsible adult. But damn I'm still hung over, this sucks a lot, it feels so bad physically.

>>76405647
That's just it though, I'm the shut-in autist who is genuinely happier alone. They're all social, decent careers, families, etc. Some of them were active, none of this was from work related injuries either. In my immediate circle, I'm the only one who wakes up without being groggy, even after a broken, maybe 3 hour long sleep, and out the door at 5-6am.

>>76376026 (OP)
My apartment just gave me a letter for my lease renewal. I have the option of rent increasing an extra $50 to fucking $1300 or month-to-month at $1500. I've lived here since 2018 and up until 2021 is was $935... And that is in addition to prices increasing to everything from car insurance to groceries. This shit can't keep going on the way it is. There's no fucking way this entire system doesn't implode. What's driving the economy right now besides AI and surveillance hype?
>inb4 buy a house
Nigger, even if you got in at good interest rates the value of your home has arbitrarily doubled "BECAUSE IT HAS TO, GOY!" over 5 years where the fucking property taxes are insane and that's assuming you don't live in an area where they are high. The amount of people I know with kids and a house that say they can barely make it despite good income is insane.

Genuinely: what is the point anymore knowing I will probably stay in this now "diverse" apartment complex until I die or get culturally enriched? Fuck having kids. Fuck a wife. And fuck a home that isn't in Bumfuck. That is financial suicide.

Also, to keep it fitness, got a hard mire from a Gen Alpha grocery shopping today. Poor lil fucker is probably more aware of how bad things are than I am.

>>76405779
>hard mires from gen a
It's a weird experience when zoomette's and gen as are with their dads, who are your age, and they either mire you hard or visibly make comparisons between their dad and you.

Idk where you are, but those were normal prices 5-10 years ago here, even in the bumfuck nowhere places. Canada, unfortunately. It's the most hilarious fuckup I've ever witnessed. Rents were too high before covid, taxes for any half decent job were high, and professional roles pay half as much as the burger equivalent. Companies can't hire people from outside the area because nobody can find a place to stay, and even if they did, it would be a lease they'd be locked into for a job they haven't even started. So not only are there no jobs, there's shit tons of jeets everywhere, there's nowhere to stay, and the few companies that actually try to hire domestic skilled labor cant, because nobody can afford to move. Everything in this country is a complete fucking train wreck and I swear to god if there's a disaster that impacts any of our industries we'll simply collapse as a country, because it'd be over a decade and 10+ billion spent on consultants before shovels hit the fucking ground.

>>76405812
To make matters worse for myself I'm looking for a job and don't see anyone hiring unless I'm willing to whore myself out for the trades again in which case I know I will become a functioning alcoholic and/or pothead. I can find places that are like half the sqft of my current place but that would also mean giving up this current apt's gym which is admittedly nice. I'll be the first to admit Trump is doing a fucking terrible job but I still don't know how tf the left has a leg to stand on when LITERALLY FUCKING EVERYTHING is their fault since Covid. Yes I'm still fucking mad because it was nothing but lefty cunts who forced this shit when EVERYONE told them shit would go up in price. Then again, I wish Kamala would've won because it would have been such a shitshow either the system would be dead or people would actually realize this outdated boomer shit doesn't work any longer.

There is no amount of exercise that is going to somehow make this a non-issue. I can't even fucking smoke a ciggie to relax because fucking ciggies are $12/pack

>>76377790
I have never regretted any workout I forced myself to do. I think you should go.
Also, I now can notice live that tiredness and lack of sleep give me depressive symptoms so sleep goes first, no more fomo.

I don't have anything to contribute, just going through the motions of life rn. I wish all of you the best.

>>76405833
Both parties were unironically retarded during that. Both rely on the same retards who use hindsight to say, with absolute confidence, that things would have been better if x was elected. At least you didn't have trudeau, anon. It was pretty well recognized our labour market was bullshit before and we paid more for nearly anything you could name.

>system would be dead or people would actually realize boomer shit doesn't work
Look at how hurried everyone was for everything to "go back to normal" and not take the opportunity to change their lives or the system itself. Left leaning parties will just keep things chugging along in a different way, new jobs will exist to deal with another regulation, while the jobs involved in producing anything are more restricted and pay less as time goes on.

>>76405305
You’re setting yourself up for failure. Stay at least a year in this job. If you don’t get a raise then, you can begin looking for a better job.

>>76405305
is this your first job? no one gets missed after a month.

>>76405305
DON'T FUCKING QUIT, YOU RETARD.

This job market is absolute AIDS and unless you're well connected you ain't getting shit unless you're doing something like traveling nurse or life insurance salesman. IDC what you're in, you're literally flinging shit to the wall to see what sticks.

>>76405889
You know what? Fuck it. I'm going back into the trades. They are the only industry that will hire me as a rusty 4 year and the only industry that will pay half decent.
IDC if I destroy my body
IDC if I become a weekend alcoholic again
IDC if the heat and cold destroy my brain again
IDC if I'm working 6 days a week for 12 hours a day
IDC if I had to listen to white boys playing nigger coon tunes trap rap with a bass that melts my brain.
IDC if 15% bodyfat is my new 8% bodyfat

It is literally the only way to make any money and I don't see this fake, nigger-tier economy fixing itself any time soon. I wish I could've enjoyed liberalism like my peers did but if I gotta work until death then so be it.

>>76403863
refined coconut oil imparts no flavour or smell on the food
unrefined might

>>76405720
>That's just it though, I'm the shut-in autist who is genuinely happier alone.
Hi there.
You are not different than the people 100,000 years ago.
You are biologically programmed to benefit from social experiences with people you trust.
It's just like working out
It's just like eating.
Think you're as different as you want, but we've got the same exact bodies as 100,000 years ago.
And this is how they worked and thrived.
Trust me on this one.
I promise you once you start doing things you evolved to do, like walking and being social, your mood and everything is doing to skyrocket.
It's going to be hella tough because you've ingrained these defeated neural pathways that has not killed you yet, so your brain just defaults to them because it's the past of least resistance.
You have to try new things to build new neural pathways.
It's just a lot harder than it was 100,000 years ago. You were kinda forced to be social or you fucking died.

>>76406189
I'm not that guy but that is bullshit. Nature throws every variation possible and we're all different to each other in at least some way. There's bound to be some of us who don't enjoy shit the majority of people do.
I used to think that I was wrong, that I was the problem, that I had to change the way I used to live to accomodate to others and have a social life, and it's one of the few things I regret in my life because I just wasted a lot of time that I'm never going to be able to make the most of again.

I have a gf now and my social life is very barren, besides a few friends I see every other month or so and my family. I'm not completely alone, but this low frequency socialization hits the right spot and I find myself wanting to be alone way more often than wanting to be with people.
The only real drawback I experience is that it is hard to find a good job like this. 0 connections make the job hunt way more of a grind. But I'll take that over being friends with a bunch of idiots I hate any day.

>>76406213
exactly how the hell are you going to tell me having a trusted circle that provides you socialization is wrong and then tell me you have a close circle that you trust that provides you happiness
ignorant-ass nigga that wants to be special

>>76405659
hang in there hungover bro, you are god's bravest soldier

>>76405633
Good luck on your bar exam! My bro is taking it next week and he’s also stressed. My advice to you is to focus on doing the very best you can do. 24-48 hours before the exam, stop studying. There’s no point in cramming then, do just relax. You’ll obtain both of those desires after you pass, so use that as motivation. You can do it! You’ve put in so much effort so far, so don’t let it go to waste.

I've been 94-ish kg for what feels like years now, despite slowly making changes to my diet. Today I started counting calories (again), with the goal of going under 90 in two months.
I feel like my inability to lose weight has got less with the diet and more with lack of sleep, stress and lack of exercise lately though.

>>76406485
Because having a handful of friends you see every other month is hardly much of a social life. My gf hangs out with her friends every week, sometimes several times a week, has several circles of friends and most people around her live like that. Also hanging out with my parents or grandma doesn't really count as a social life, although it fulfills a similar need.
But most social activities sound like a hassle. I'm glad to spend my time alone. Without a gf it is indeed very lonely and I'd probably want to kms from the lack of sex and intimacy, but I could do without everyone else.

>>76406901
>Because having a handful of friends you see every other month is hardly much of a social life.
you don't need a social life to socialize and make oxytocin.
you got your gf. be sure to hold onto her though because you've got a deep and ingrained mindset you don't seem eager to change.

>>76406189
I get what you're saying but I didn't somehow come to this conclusion without trying at least once. I do not mean avoid any form of social interaction, I just mean I prefer to be by myself and without too many close ties. I've had friends, friend groups, dated, was involved in choir, group projects, worked up to a director, etc, and all of this was in a relatively short amount of time.

I wasn't asking for advice, and I appreciate where you're coming from. It's just not for me.

>>76406213
>>76406485
>trusted circle that provides socialization
Honestly bro, I find it incredibly difficult to trust anyone anymore, and again this isn't something that I decided at 14 to be edgy.


>>76406158
Idk what trade you're in, but if you play it right you won't have to bust your back for too many years. Save up, invest if you can, keep your obligations minimal. Both of my cousins ended up in management/analyst roles because they were lucky enough to find decent companies and their years of grunt work gave them valuable skills/knowledge that some bus admin major would never have.

One runs a heavy duty mechanic shop, essentially retired at 35, the other travels all over and calibrates/fixes/installs industrial machinery.

Guys can you proofread the suicide note I'm writing to my parents, is it too short or does it get the point across

>To my parents: You deserved so much better than this. Thank you for everything you did for me, even though I never showed gratitude for it. I sincerely apologize for everything. Please enjoy the remaining years of your lives without thinking or worrying about me. Goodbye.

Later this week, I'm going to tape this to my bedroom door in an envelope and leave in the middle of the night so they won't hear me leave, go to a nearby bridge and jump off it, or potentially poison myself in some woods. Either way I want to try to make sure they never find my body

Thanks /fit/, it's taken me a lot of courage to finally kill myself but I think this time I can finally cross over and complete it.

>>76405659
So try remembering how shitty you feel whenever you want to drink. You need to cut out your bad habits in order to reach your full potential

>>76407084
Everything's spelt fine for an American.

>>76406603
Those are all killers. I’ve learned the hard way that stress and sleep are huge gains (or cut) goblins. Try avoiding blue lights an hour before bed. Good luck!

>>76376026 (OP)
I've been doing nothing but hammer curls for my arms for the last 3 months. I *Iove* what it's doing for my arms. I can't believe I slept on this exercise. I'm never doing regular curls again. What I'm losing in bicep peak I'm gaining in overall arm size. I've never seen my bicep area so wide and big.

>>76407084
livestream it pussy

>>76406603
>lack of sleep, stress and lack of exercise
my diet was going flawlessly then some emergencies made it so I was constantly busy and tired for a couple of weeks and during that time I couldn't for the life of me bring myself to care about the diet, stress is a bitch. Just a bump in the road thankfully

>>76407084
>Please enjoy the remaining years of your lives without thinking or worrying about me
as if, you are about to ruin their lives in a way they can never recover from. I know that guilt-tripping suicidal people isn't nice but this is the harsh truth, your idea that they might get over you and enjoy the rest of their lives is a complete delusion

it's a good day :)

>>76376026 (OP)
I must confess anons, i have let myself go over the past year. I have found a new goal in life and i need to start training pullups. Now my fat ass can barely do one so any advice on how to train the muscles is most welcome.

>>76405878
Thank you, I hope you find meaning in your life

>>76406058
>>76406104
Been doing it for almost 5 month, I started barely above minimum wage because I had no experience in this field. Do you know what minimum wage gets you? A crackhead, brainrot zoomer that is 90% of the time on tik tok or an immigrant that doesn't speak the language, not a focused autist that upon starting a task only stops after it is finished.


>>76406137
What the hell are you talking abou? There's thousands of jobs available and the economy is solid, by the end of the week I could have another job that pays more and is less demanding by than this one. I've only stayed so far because I learn new skills on a weekly basis and, boss doesn't bother me and if there's room for professional development, if not within this company certainly within this trade.

>>76406982
>I get what you're saying but I didn't somehow come to this conclusion without trying at least once. I do not mean avoid any form of social interaction, I just mean I prefer to be by myself and without too many close ties. I've had friends, friend groups, dated, was involved in choir, group projects, worked up to a director, etc, and all of this was in a relatively short amount of time.
That's really understandable and human, not to go therapist/chatGPt on you. It's a different world with different dangers nowadays and I cannot blame you for for not easily trusting. Because most people -are- a threat to us somehow. Be it our time, sanity, or monetary resources. So no that's not 14 or edgy. It's just human nature.
Now you aren't an ignorant-ass nigga.
You're special to me though <3

>>76407655
This. They'll spend the entire time wondering what they did wrong.

But the fact that he doesn't have a concrete plan will help.

>>76407084
Hang in there if you -want- anon. I'm not going to stop you from jumping.
But if there's a shred of willpower left in you I'd listen to it.
Hell you're living in your parents house.
That's a great position to turn things around.

Now come on anon.
What's been bugging you?

>>76407806
I’m positive about this week :)

>>76376026 (OP)
I must be a masochist, started tracking the entire shift with old guy. Timestamping updates throughout the day. In short the entire thing boils down to the same shit I’ve whined about.
>5am starting X planogram task that would take me 3 hours
>7am have done 75% of the task, can’t do the small section he’s doing because he’s in the way and he won’t let me do it for him
>915 he’s still doing it should have been done over an hour ago
>11 he’s STILL doing that shit, nearly done with 2nd task for day
And so on.


Today he takes 12 feet I take a different 16 footer. Was hoping he’d be on the 12 feet all day. Finished my 16 footer within 3 hours he took 5 to do his 12 footer. His had no stock work and was just shifting a few items. I started a pita 12 footer that has every shelf adjusting which means pulling every single item off first. This faggot comes bumbling along and starts saying I skipped my 16 footer. He was shocked that I was done like he still after a year hasn’t realized even when every fucking day I do his work for him and do minimum 3x the amount of shit he does that I am faster than he is. You can’t make this shit up.
What does this mean though? It means we aren’t going to finish the new task I started. By myself I could get it done by leave time maybe have 30 minutes to spare. He already started bitching and saying I can’t do it the only way it can be done which is to pull every item off first. They all go in a new arrangement so it just fucking works that way very smoothly. Instead he’s gonna wanna do one shelf while leaving everyone on the shelf above it and below it which makes it impossible to adjust them because the merch is in the way. Then he’s gonna go at his dumbfuck snail pace anyways.
He was upset that I started this one. We literally spoke and planned today 3 times from last week to yesterday and agreed this task would be started today since we won’t be back at this location for over a week.

>>76408341
He also told one of the store leads we work with that I wasn’t doing my work an hour ago. I hate this faggot so much I’ve done 70% more work than he has today. And btw when I say these percentages I’m being accurate. I’ve done (at this point) 17 feet of pain in the ass tons of moving shit around work like carrying 20lb bags of rice back and forth and lifting them nonstop for 3 hours he’s done 12 feet of medium sized items that weigh like 0.20lbs. 17 x 0.70 =11.9. I’m not just estimating or making random guesses when I say that. It’s legit I do 70% more of 70% of shared tasks sometimes more every single day and this cunt thinks I’m lazy. Because I don’t want to stay late and work for free, because I don’t care to show up 30 minutes early to wait, because I want to get home before my commute will take 2 hours. I fucking hate this boomer mindset these people ruined the country and they’re fucking retarded

>>76408074
>>76407806
based

>>76407824
Welcome back fren! We’re glad you’re back. Now that you’ve articulated your goal, devote everything you can to achieving it

>>76407084
Bro please don't. Even if right now shit looks bad life does get better.

This is my post from a month ago >>76318317
It's insane how well i'm doing lately. My porn addiction is completely gone. My rumination and negative self-talk is gone. My anxiety is gone. I rarely even post on 4chan these days. I lost so much weight i'm almost at my all time lowest weight since high school. I freely talk to people even if i shut down sometimes when it gets "deeper" and i know i'm about to exchange contacts and get the longtime connection, but i'm still working on it. People start talking to me for no fucking reason and it's always a good conversation, but just a couple months ago i could only talk to alcoholics on the street. People tell me i look great. Women fucking love me. I'm discovering my own fashion style, i even managed to talk to a very hot girl in some hipster thrift store for 15 or so minutes and she said she would be happy to see me again. My calendar is full of concerts, raves and festivals i want to go to and on every single one of them i'm going to have fun and find more great people to talk to.

I think i'm going to make it. This is NOT a manic phase of depression, i went to a funeral and didn't spiral back into negativity, i'm still standing strong. People from this thread and feels bar helped me more than i could admit but holy fuck i'm making it.

>>76409469
HOLY BASED
INSPIRATIONAL, ANON

>>76407084
If you really hate life, why not try to live a little? Go on a trip, join the army, fight the army. You’re going to die, so try to live

was in here a few weeks ago. Wanted to update - I failed the web development course. Just couldn't do it in the allotted timeframe.

On the plus side, now that it's out of the way I can get back to working without hesitation. Found a place that is hiring, and it's very close to my old gym, maybe a 4 or 5 minute drive. The job is more warehouse work, which I really wanted to get out of, but at this point I don't have a choice because I need money plain and simple and I'm confident I can get the job with a decent interview, and it starts off around 20 an hour which isn't bad for my area and would let me easily afford to reinstate my gym membership. Even if that one fucks up though, an old coworker whose brother I'm friends with is hiring again for decent money too.

Then another friend of mine got a bike frame from a shop and is fixing it up. Told me he thinks it's big enough for me so I can come try a ride with him and his group. It's not the most exciting thing in the world but it beats spending yet another weekend unemployed in my room playing fucking marvel rivals.

Life is not very good right now, but I am doing my best to persevere. I did find out however that one of my favorite bands will be playing about 3 hours away from me very soon. If I can land either of these jobs and save up the funds I might try to go.

>>76409563
>Life is not very good right now, but I am doing my best to persevere.
exceedingly based
preserve on, anon
Unfortunately your luck isn't that great so it's time to grind your way out of it.
Be ever looking for opportunities. Luck is what you make it.

>>76407934
What if the search for meaning in life is what leads to unnecessary suffering?

>>76377790
Learning to deal with a bad day is much like building a strong muscle or a good physique, you can't just do it you have to slowly build the capacity for it day by day.

The tip that has worked and endured all my years is gratitude training. The way i do it is that every night in my bed before i sleep i come up with three things that i am grateful for. Even if i've had a completely shit day i have to come up with three.

For example:
Pretty much nothing good or even remarkable happened today but
>I had a pizza that was good
>My nose isn't stuffed
>I replayed an old vidya i like

Even if none of these are remarkable and some are even bad for me, i won't let that keep me from being grateful for it. When i consciously decide to appreciate them i train my brain, like a muscle, to appreciate more things in everyday life.

Again, it takes time, but after a few months you will notice that when you go to bed you will manage to find a lot more than just three things to be grateful for. You will appreciate the times for being good both when recalling them and when you are living in them

Shit days will always feel like shit, nothing can change that, much like how 250 lbs will always be heavy. Despite that, you can train your muscles to handle the pressure of 250 lbs and you can train your mind to handle a bad day.

It takes time, begin with three things you appreciate.

>>76409469
Congrats on your progress! You’ve worked hard and the results are finally showing! Got any tips on dressing better and making friends as an adult?

>>76376026 (OP)
>order dominos
>smells like pussy and tastes like it too
>throw away after a few bites
Can someone knock some sense into me and tell me there’s no way I just ate pussy juice pizza?

>>76409593
On our death beds we’ll have scars to prove that we lived

>my birthday today
>wife let me drink a diet coke

>>76409469
Good job, anon. As someone who was lucky enough to find this kind of turnaround in my 30's, enjoy it.

Constant self-improvement is the way, but watch out for your ego. When you morph into a desirable guy after being invisible for so long, it can actually be intoxicating —druglike. Stay humble, keep seeing yourself as a work in progress, and make sure you're doing some charity stuff, reading books, and maintaining friendships even while doing the outgoing social stuff.

>>76410183
Happy birthday! What are your goals for this year?

Fuck, she's cute. Fuck, fuck, fuck. We only see each other once a week and she's a teacher at a place where I have classes. I'm probably just a student for her. Maybe she even has a bf. We only chat for ten minutes or so when the classes end. How can something even devolp from that? But she's cute. She's shy, she blushes, she has cute reactions. She says hi in a excited way and went out of her way to chat with me today. She's also the only woman I met ever since I broke up almost three years ago who feels like my type. I wish I was less of an autismo or at least knew how to progress things along. I don't want to fuck up my classes, I do like them a lot.
But she's cute.

>>76410019
You didn't, that's totally illogical. However dominos pizza is not healthy

>>76407655
>as if, you are about to ruin their lives in a way they can never recover from. I know that guilt-tripping suicidal people isn't nice but this is the harsh truth, your idea that they might get over you and enjoy the rest of their lives is a complete delusion
I have literally never provided anything good for my parents. Not only have I been a humiliating embarrassment as a person, but I don't even keep a relationship with them. Never do anything with them, barely speak, nothing. Nothing to look back on and think of happy memories with/for them. I've wasted our life's relationship.
>>76407996
>Hell you're living in your parents house. That's a great position to turn things around.
No it isn't. I'm not some young guy in my late teens-early 20s doing this. I'm in my 30s
>What's been bugging you?
That I've been a complete failure for my entire life and all I think about is how many years I've wasted.
>>76409532
>If you really hate life, why not try to live a little? Go on a trip, join the army, fight the army. You’re going to die, so try to live
This rationale always sort of confuses me. I've never done anything in my entire life. I have no motivation to. I can't suddenly get it.
>the vacation thing that everyone always says
Yeah, that's just what I want. To go on a vacation alone. Spending shitloads of money on car/plane, hotels, eating out, just to do it all alone, and see all the people who are with their friends, families, children enjoying their vacations. I went on vacations with my parents when I was young and never enjoyed them then either.

The only regret I have is not having done this a decade or 15 years ago. I have put myself through so much misery that would have been avoided if I would have gotten the courage to do it at 18 after graduating high school or something

Day 2 of my cut and feeling good. Fatigue is intense prob bc I've been drinking like a fish for weeks at the same time. Gonna have a weed mint and a seltzer and play some Death Stranding 2 after I get my kids to bed and squeeze in a short roon

WAGMI bruhs

>>76410661
>No it isn't. I'm not some young guy in my late teens-early 20s doing this. I'm in my 30s
>>76410661
>That I've been a complete failure for my entire life and all I think about is how many years I've wasted.
my nigger, when we get old people will be living to 100.
I'm 35.
Yeah you missed out on.... fuck what did you actually miss out on? You haven't named one single thing you missed out on in your post. I can't think of anything I missed out on that matters.
So what the hell is the belly-aching for?
Your actual prime years are ahead of you still. Men don't become men until they're 40. Until then, we're just young adults still trying to make it in the world.
You can unironically just talk to ChatGPT about this and tell it to treat things critically instead of being 100% supportive. It'll help.
You need a system, you autistic fuck.
A routine, a goal, a plan.
It does not have to be grand.
https://simple-shot.com/products/scout-lt?srsltid=AfmBOoqNSqSAzEcPY5KCUP1x9HV6RbFAadzuAfOMv04I-6v62abJGJ-1
Here. Go buy a fucking slingshot and some clay slingshot ammo from walmart.
Grab any random object and practice until you can hit it from 50 feet away.
No I'm not telling you how.
You already know how to learn.
So do this and get some accomplishment.
You just need some accomplishment of something you did yourself.
That can bring you joy.
Just doing different things rather than getting stuck in a rut.
Because like I said, you are not dead YET.
So your brain thinks what you're doing is SURVIVAL.
And it keeps WORKING because you're NOT DEAD.
So it's going to keep doing this over and over because it's the unironic neural pathway of least resistance.
Really shittily, I might add. It's hurting you in the long run but you're NOT DEAD. And you'll likely stay NOT DEAD. But your body is going to keep the score.
So that's why you keep ruminating and going into a depression spiral.

>>76410385
Don't go for her, you're just going to make things awkward. Keep searching for someone

Applied for a dream job.

>>76410661
you sound like a fucking loser. why, at any point in time while you saw this happening, did you not just do something to change it? fucking faggot, having a fully functional body and brain and still manages to fuck up and is still crying about it on the internet. please rope

>>76409795
>Got any tips on dressing better
I'm still not really experienced with it so i can't really say.
>and making friends as an adult?
I'm still working on this, but what helped me so far: just become a regular somewhere (if it's something hobby related, even better) so people keep seeing you, talk and be open for other people if they want to talk to you. Also people you meet at music related events are almost always open to talk, if they're alone or even if they're in a group. Sometimes people like you more than you like them. Sometimes it's the other way. But if you feel a connection, try to keep it.

>>76376334
now is the perfect time to talk to her
hitnher with the "I havent seen you in a while"
it'll make her feel NOTICED

>>76407084
Ok, you have the courage to kill yourself. The worst thing that could ever happen to a person is dying and you have the courage to not only die but to do it yourself. Now ask yourself, what else could you do with that courage?

>>76410865
Good advice all around. I would only add that he should read about complex ptsd. It helped a lot with making sense of my own situation and seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. I think a lot of giys on 4chan suffer from it.
>>76410981
I wasn't planning to. At least not gratuitously. I would only go for her if it became abundantly clear that she's into me, like she constantly goes out of her way to talk with me and do things that portray interest from her part. Women aren't very subtle about liking someone and I'll keep taking classes there for the foreseeable future, so if she does like me I'll know, and if she doesn't there's no reason to go for it instead of keeping it cool and waiting to meet someone else. One way or another it's nice to know there are women like her out there after three years of thots and dating app hoes.

>>76410238
Thanks anon. My goals are:
>finish my recomp and drop another 10 lbs bodyfat
>sell my money pit condo
>build a project space / tool area in the garage
>do a big camping trip in the 4wd in a remote area

>>76410780
Hang in there bro! You will reach your full potential but you need to push yourself forward. Imagine the pride your kids will feel once you become fit. WAGMI

>>76410385
Just ask if she wants to grab a coffee later

>>76405659 here
went back to the gym yesterday after the hangover healed, improved on every lift. Fuck yeah. I figured the binging would fuck with my performance but I guess the boost from having had fun was stronger. wagmi bros

>>76410986
Good luck but don’t get discouraged if you don’t get it. Keep applying to jobs

>>76412535
Congrats on your lifts! This year is going to be even better than you expected but lay off the booze. WAGMI

>>76410661
>>76410865
Not sewerside anon, but I can sympathize. Had a breakdown as a teen, put on goyfeed antipsychotics and such, body ruined, constant zombie state, vampire hours because the jeet doctor fucked up the dose schedule. All for a misdiagnosis that I spent 20~ years trying to work on, only to find out it was pointless. You simply cannot put a price on 20 years of lost time - those are earnings, friendships, family time, relationships that may have been shit, but preferable to literally nothing.

Off them now, have been for 4~ years now. I've 'caught up' to some typical milestones, had some gfs, fucked an unhealthy amount of art hoes, etc. I like my life for the most part, but it's fucking hard to move past some of that shit. My mum is dying, right as I'm getting shit in order, so there's always the cloud of "I could have done more" over my head.

>>76411478
CPTSD is gnarly and it's difficult pinpointing it, let alone knowing what to work on, and whether thats effective. I think therapy has the potential to be effective, but not in the typical white woman "therapy is a silver bullet for everything" way. It can easily make things much worse, "shopping around" for the right therapist is not possible for most people and definitely fucking harmful advice. Even fi you have insurance/extended medical, it doesn't cover many sessions and you would need a lot of them.

Honestly, aside from dealing with the grittier shit, learning to accept that some days I'll feel fucking awful and telling myself that it's "okay" is the most helpful thing. Otherwise I'll just start dwelling more on lost time and getting angry over shit I cannot control.

>>76410661
>I'm le sad and am going to le kill myself like a faggot instead of doing something cool or helpful by taking out demons with me

what a faggot

>>76410661
Listen my guy, do one single hardcore push before you give up completely. Try to do something with yourself but always keep the exit strategy (suicide ofc) in your mind. I've been through this. We probably suffered the same way, so i'm sad seeing you to continue suffering instead of letting go and enjoying life. There are lots of ways to do it as long as you're open for them.
You CAN recover in your 30's. It's possible. You didn't miss that much - althought i might regret not getting into some cringy but cool subculture when i was younger. Most people your age are soulless husks and if you work on yourself you can make it and easily mog most men out there.

Also it's so hard to find an image of two guys hugging each other that doesn't screams "gay" and the only one i could find screams "gay" because it's from My Hero Academia LMAO

>>76410865
>Yeah you missed out on.... fuck what did you actually miss out on? You haven't named one single thing you missed out on in your post. I can't think of anything I missed out on that matters.
Not this guy but:
Teenage love, or just being a 16-20 years old virgin with a virgin gf and exploring each other together, mentally and physically
Dating young girls when you're both the same age and on the same wave length as young adults
Being into sports at the age when it mattered when you could be a professional or at least semi-professional athlete
Finding a girl you could start the family with at your prime age of 23-25 years old
Generally starting the family before you're stigmatized as an aging human failure and not as a single young guy who has his entire life ahead of him
At the very least building the dating experience while you're young and desireable
Being able to do fun shit as people around you go "you go lad enjoy your youth while you can" instead of "lmao this unc thinks he's still young haha look at him look how pathetic he is HEY OLD GUY WHERE'S YOUR WIFE AND KIDS"

>>76413889
cope
you wouldn't have done any of those things because you are a faggot

and instead of fixing your faggotry your cry bitch moan and dwell on the unchangable past

>>76413902
Counterpoint: fixing my faggotry will never fix the hurricane of emotions i experience seeing a young twink walking hand in hand with a college age baddie knowing that i never got to experience this and that i never had a single chance to experience this

>>76413948
nigga girls in their 20's go after guys in their 30's all the fucking time
Men in their 30's are simply more attractive.

>>76412218
Those are all great goals! You better go camping. I’ve never been but have always wanted to

>>76414122
I realized I don't care about camping, I just like tech and toys. It's always better to go somewhere to do something, and then you just have to camp because it's too far to drive or expensive for a motel.
Not a helpful post but I just felt like interjecting.

>>76413902
You speak the truth based couragewolf poster

>>76414731
Bars

>>76414731
I preferred Insanity Wolf.

>>76415057
A mix of both is necessary to live

>>76412842
I applied for another one too. I see both as having their upsides and downsides. Either would be pretty good, though, and at least consistent pay which is more than I can say for the current situation.

Cut day 3, in at about 1700 cals but about to go for a roon to trim that closer to 1400 net total.

Are a mini bag of kettle chips with my protein shake for lunch and felt like an idiot for it. Otherwise good macros today.

Context 6'3" currently 205 skinnyfat with doughy midsection. Alcohol the main culprit and going without that really sucks. My brain is conditioned to expect it for the end of day dopamine hit even though I'm not a "problem" drinker. Going without sucks. Pushing through, need to get to 185. This is the first time I've been over 200 in like 5 years and it's embarrassing

>>76415081
>>76415057
>>76414731
>>76413902
How old are you

It's fukn thuraday u dafts

I started lifting again after escaping neetdom with a rather physical job that gave me whole body DOMS for weeks. I can only do light workouts for for now for proper recovery. I dropped like 4kg in 2 months but didn't lose much muscle mass. I won't make huge gains but I don't care: it makes me feel better and that's more likely to make me stick to it long term. Also, my physiotherapist is awesome, feels like having a free personal fitness coach, would recommend.

>>76415177
Good luck! I’m similar in the sense that I’ve conditioned myself to not go to bed unless I have an apple and banana. I need to cut out the habit

>anxiety is getting back
>shitty thoughts are crawling back to my headspace
>remember that one orthodox priest on youtube talking about intrusive thoughts as they were demons whispering in your ear
>tell myself i'm the soldier of Christ and no demon can tell me what i should do
>it goes away

>>76416332
What truly matters is that you’re happy and satisfied with your routine. Congrats on your progress so far!

My father was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer today, and the only girl I've felt anything towards just married a walmart brand version of me with anger issues about 2 weeks ago. I can't do it anymore, guys. Every inch of me just wants to fucking scream, but I can't do anything.

its over me i a wierdo im dyin a kissless wizard

>>76417947
Unbelievably based

>>76418620
I'm really sorry about everything that's happening to you. Try to appreciate every last day with your dad, he loves you and wants you to be happy. There's nothing wrong with going to an isolated place and screaming and crying for a bit

I've been struggling a ton mentally lately and have been considering an heroing. But I reconnected with my estranged dad earlier this year and have promised to call him every 2 weeks. I can't die