Every few months for like a week or two i get really interested in Satan/Lucifer. I often start feeling a lot of sympathy for him and kinda thinking "maybe he's not that bad".
I've also felt like I'm some kind of demon a lot in my life, and had a few very strange and powerful dreams that suggested the same. A lot of times during these phases I feel myself wanting that to be true and trying to figure it out more.
Now after all of this you might just think I'm just some run-of-the-mill satanist fag but I'm not, outside these phases I'd consider myself quite faithful to God (not exactly a Christian but close enough. I guess my question is what is this and what do?