>>40237017
>Welcome back estro, happy to see you!
Thanks! I feel like I will probably disappear again soon, I should try meeting my social needs irl (and my navel gazing needs with my diary).
>I am sure your speed will ramp up naturally
I'm not sure, I always have to force myself to go on faster (but shorter) runs. Today I jogged 9 km with a 6:30 min/km average pace and 100 meters of elevation (I picked a route with a hill).
It's way more fun to do those very slow runs, but they're probably not as good for me as shorter, faster runs, or intervals...
>Sometimes relapsey things like that.. happen
Yeah, I feel like I've been pretty good about not catastrophizing the relapses too much and sticking to my structure despite of them (e.g. by still going for estrowalks even when feeling physically and mentally horrible and so on). The danger only is I could easily see myself getting used to those deviations again until they become not just deviations/exceptions but regular occurrences.
>Why are they rejecting you again, like, the formal reason?
Basically they said they feel like I won't be open enough about my issues + eating disorder with them...
>Oh that's exciting news! Sometime July?
Yeah! Looking forward to him!
> Do keep us posted.
I will. Just in case, I decreased my dosage from 0.15 mL (7.5 mg EEn per week) to 0.1 mL (5 mg/week) (the injectable contains 50 EEn mg/ml), but even on the higher 0.15 mL dose I felt like my skin already has been getting worse without cypro, which sucks.
I guess I should really order a blood test again sometime (last time, my prolactine was way too high, probably due to CPA, and my E1 levels were also way too high, because back then I only had estradiol pills).

>>40238263
>Benched 3x5 200 lbs today.
That's really cool, congrats! How long did you train for that?
>Come a long way from when I couldn't bench the bar
That's me. On a good day I can do like 6 push ups in a row, I feel like I should start weight training, too.

>>40136296
Banana, hehe