>>81744471
thank you for sharing your experience
>Trying to form any sort of connection in a community that forces oversocialization and the same, boring hobbies you never will find yourself partaking in can be extremely detrimental to your wellbeing.
i relate to this a lot. it feels like the majority of people here don't even have hobbies other than drinking, smoking, doing drugs or like, watching football or tennis. it's hard to connect with people when you don't even have something to bring you together on a very base level.
> I chose to further dwell in escapist media and niche hobbies I had at the time.
i did the same thing my entire life but even that doesn't work anymore. all the escapism in the world can't make me feel less lonely.
>If you're willing, I can leave my tag here and we can share our personal experiences together and, hopefully, find time to plan a proper meetup?
i'm gonna turn 25 soon so i'm probably too old and weird for you. also you seem very eloquent and well put together and i'm an unstable mentally ill retard. i can't even drive so meeting up would be really hard still. trust me when i say you wouldn't wanna get involved with someone like me
>>81744513
>maybe you can try that
i just don't have it in me to do anything anymore. i'm so tired of everything. i need it all to end
>keep in mind that ending your life ends the possibility of anything good happening. Sometimes it's ok to let time do it's job
that's what i've been telling myself for years and years, but i'm reaching the end of my rope because no matter how hard i try to change my situation, i'm still stuck in the exact same spot
>How do you live right now?
alone in a tiny commieblock apartment i inherited from my grandma when she passed.
>Do you make money at all?
i get a bit from the government but it's barely enough to scrape by. i use it all on food, bills and other necessities.
i'm running out of words again, but i'll type more below