i've wasted two years of my life. my peers are already ahead of me. i am nothing but a leech to my family. i still have it in me to fight, i don't want to give up just yet, but whatever i choose, it still feels selfish. bad things keep happening, if i was religious, i'd think the devil was testing me. i have all but given up, i am just so tired of it all. i'm tired of struggling, nothing comes easy to me anymore, everything is just so intimidating.