I got 400mg worth of tramadol still left, I have tolerance for the past two days but not that much, It's gonna be a fun friday night

I woke up bewildered nigga, I'm confused how I want to keep living my life, sometimes I feel good following a philosophy centered around self destruction shit living like a good lowlife but sometimes I'm like "what the fuck I'm doing with my life" and I don't know what to do, I don't know which path will be more fulfilling personally