hi /adv/, what do? every time i don't have someone's attention on me, i feel crazy suicidal. i think it's because i've been used to SOME form of attention my whole life, but recently due to depression i've been pulling away from my friends without meaning to. when they don't check on me, it just makes it worse. i don't want to exist unless i'm someone's favorite.

if answer is die: any recommended, painless methods?