>>40122394
my relationship is going to fall apart, i can feel it. i think i still love her but i don't know whether i can take being with her much longer. ive sacrificed so much for her and i never minded, but now she's in a better living situation and things haven't really changed. shes still burning through my savings, she still has screaming crying breakdowns. i don't blame her. i never expected her to get better overnight, that would be unrealistic. but im no longer able to take care of her like i used to and i can feel it wearing me down. ill catch myself thinking about other people while i hold her, or snapping at her over nothing. ive told her some of what i feel and it destroyed her, and it destroys me to see her like that. itd be hard but i know i could move on. she couldn't. i wish she hated me. i wish she could find someone better. but she refuses to leave me, im all she has. the hardest part is that i know she's trying her hardest to get better, she needs my help and my patience but ive already given her all that i have. it's so unfair on her. i don't know what to do.

sorry for rambling