>>512074373
Well okay then outside of "muh society" shit i think the biggest reason i want to kms is that i can't connect with people in anyway or make friends.

I have absolutely had no friends or positive social connections in my entire life, and it's catching up to me at the ripe age of 20. I am mentally behind almost all of my peers and I can tell people are creeped out by me when they interact with me, which didn't even happen to me even 5 years ago. I also act pretty immature for my age, like i'm still 15. COVID fucked me up big time.

I don't know how I can fix myself, and I already see the effects of having a lonely life. In college I almost never went outside besides to eat, and I talked to nobody. I started getting severe depression and I became a C student when I used to get straight A's. I also am behind on many of my classes since I had to drop quite a few.

I'm just honestly tired of it all. Life is boring as hell and painful at times.