I want to die by setting myself on fire in my room. I used to want to do it with a gun but it's too quick and easy. It's not that I hate myself that much or I'm trying to make a scene and get attention. I just want the last thing my parents remember of me to be my screams in agony. I really, really hated this life.

It's genuinely so tempting to me and I can't stop thinking about it.

> can't find a job
> can't make money in this extreme horseshit crypto market
> every diamond in the rough stock already mooned
> every idea pitched on youtube has already been poisoned by 1m+ subscriber grifters
> other "innovative" business ideas already oversaturated thanks to covid keeping everyone inside and they took over the niches during that time
> sports betting sites figured out how to ban the arbitrage folks
> surveys keep paying less and less and are becoming more and more gated too

Many more points above, but yes I'm an unemployed CS grad need. I also have some job experience but it's in ancient mainframe/cobol frameworks and I've completely lost interest in coding too and the tech field is absolutely horrible right now for anything entry level that I'd might pivot to. I'm completely losing it and I don't know what to do at this point.