>>81511849
>I can be submissive, agreeable, and an emotional bitch
that's your self perceived place on the social hierarchy, which considering where we are might as well be 100% spot on. Alcohol won't make you more "open", it would just make other people less willing to put up with your newfound shit talking.
try to increase your objective worth is the only sensible course of action, but with opinions like
>Whenever I talk to people (which I already don't like)
you would just become one of those "rudeness is a weak man's imitation of strength" insufferable twats.