Got caught cheating, not in the act but was in the room when my ex put the pieces together in her head. I was looking at her when the realization dawned on her, and the look on her face for about 10-20 seconds as she put it together keeps playing in my mind.
It's been more than 6 months, but the guilt is killing me. I have recurring nightmares about that moment.
She has since expressed forgiveness and wants a relationship with me, but I know it is best for her to move on. I haven't been able to move on. Not specifically from her, but when I think about a new relationship with anyone, her face in that moment pops into my mind.
I was unsatisfied in our relationship, but she didn't do anything wrong and was always very pure and sweet to me. She certainly didn't deserve to be cheated on, and at this point I feel like I will never forgive myself.