i became the discord user at a server that vents in #general and makes everyone's day worse by sharing my self loathing
tldr I have a very bad relationship with art (and also ze self,,, how profound!) and the artists there don't sympathize with me moaning about being unable to create anything with soul or worth seeing.
always makes me sad thinking about it but I understand their frustration with me,, if I was running a server I'd ban someone acting like me
I did paint a landscape yesterday and today though.. landscapes are pretty. but not human. you know?