I pulled the trigger on the .45 my grandfather left to me. The spring for the firing pin was missing, I guess he lost it when he was cleaning it or something. Needless to say I'm still here and I've been trying to get better but it's just not happening. I've decided I still want to check out but it's given me pause to consider the pain or even the possibility of survival if I do it incorrectly.

Now that I've got the gun operational I'm too much of a pussy to pull the trigger again. I've tried asphyxiation too but couldn't commit because of the pain. What say you, /b/, any advice on the mechanics or methods of suicide? I can't afford much but I could maybe get some poison or medications. I just want a way out that won't be agonizing.