Time to fly! Im excited but also a little scared. There's so so so many ways things could go wrong! But I'll make it, I think, and maybe I'll even have a good time!
Got distracted on a newish gen this evening. Kinda cool!
Gotta be awake in 4 hrs to fly. Deep breaths.
>>39931963
Not the first time I've seen this kind of sentiment. You're not alone in feeling this way, at least. It can be really really REALLY hard to figure stuff out when ppl just get all huffy and storm off. Do you have any close friends you could confide in? Even just having one person to baby steps you through how things went wrong can make a night and day diff. If you dont, maybe you could find some help in spaces like these? Im no expert on socializing - social shutin the past decade and all - but I could speculate with you maybe! ^^'
>>39928064
This pic made me laugh. The cow hiding in the background took me out!
>>39927116
Mmmm, honestly its mostly that my marriage is falling apart in general. Im also losing my job in Nov (tm) and moving states which adds a lot of stress. But the big thing is mostly just communication failure and total sexuality mismatch with my SO (ive shifted more femme attracted and he's kinda just gone pure ace) - which has left me feeling very very unwanted and unloved. Also some of the things he says and does ive been told repeatedly is actually very abusive (like threatening suicide when I mention our marriage is sliding).
Its a whooooooole can of worms. My to do list is over 100 tasks long and never gets shorter and... my transition is buried about 50 tasks into it! X'D
Its a lot a lot. But I need to wake up in 4 hrs and im already brain fried from the past few day. Maybe ill sit down and type out as much of the spiel (in under 2000 characters) as I can for yall.
Thank you, btw, this made me feel very welcomed. ^-^ Kinda needed it at this exact moment.

Gonna cut it there or ill really wind up not sleeping. >< Nighty night, /sig/.