Why does seem so rare it be a straight man who feels masculine but enjoys things considered girly and feminine? Let's see how do I even explain this well... you know how there are normal men, and "effeminate" men that could be straight, gay or trans, I'm neither outwardly masculine or inwardly feminine, it's just that I have no interest in typical male hobbies, in particular dgaf about competition and ego. I'm drawn to mainly female musicians and YouTubers, enjoy talking to women more than men, and my life orientation is more like flowing and feeling, opposite the typical male perspecctive oriented towards having a purpose and achieving things. The most obvious ways my family noticed I wasn't gender typical were how I would enjoy watching romantic comedies and soap opera type shows, but ddidn't want to watch sports or attend sporting events in person. The most obvious thing I notice in social interaction is that I feel a lot more relaxed and like I can be myself around women, playful and singsongy. But around men it feels very tense and awkward, like walking on eggshells, ironically what normal men say talking to women for feels like for them.

This all intuitively makes sense to me, being a man who is very aroused by all things feminine that's what I would choose to occupy my life with during peacetime, and I'm not at all gay or effeminate, in fact quite the opposite, whenever I make eye contact with other men it feels like we're challenging each other and subtly threatening to fight. I dunno what do you think.