Why does seem so rare it be a straight man who feels masculine but enjoys things considered girly and feminine? Let's see how do I even explain this well... you know how there are normal men, and "effeminate" men that could be straight, gay or trans, I'm neither outwardly masculine or inwardly feminine, it's just that I have no interest in typical male hobbies, in particular dgaf about competition and ego. I'm drawn to mainly female musicians and YouTubers, enjoy talking to women more than men, and my life orientation is more like flowing and feeling, opposite the typical male perspecctive oriented towards having a purpose and achieving things. The most obvious ways my family noticed I wasn't gender typical were how I would enjoy watching romantic comedies and soap opera type shows, but ddidn't want to watch sports or attend sporting events in person. The most obvious thing I notice in social interaction is that I feel a lot more relaxed and like I can be myself around women, playful and singsongy. But around men it feels very tense and awkward, like walking on eggshells, ironically what normal men say talking to women for feels like for them.

This all intuitively makes sense to me, being a man who is very aroused by all things feminine that's what I would choose to occupy my life with during peacetime, and I'm not at all gay or effeminate, in fact quite the opposite, whenever I make eye contact with other men it feels like we're challenging each other and subtly threatening to fight. I dunno what do you think.

>>33309813 (OP)
I think a man not threatened by his masculinity is able to relaz and fully embrace his “feminine” side. Every women and man has a masculine and feminine side. The percentages differ. Perhaps you are more attuned more to that “feminine” side but that’s nothing wrong. You are an artistic soul. You probably will thrive with a dominant woman in your life.

> whenever I make eye contact with other men it feels like we're challenging each other and subtly threatening to fight. I dunno what do you think.

naturally men feel threatened by men “different” than them. Your senses pick up on this and hence why you feel that.

All my friends all the way from third grade until graduation were girls. I didn't get along with guys.

OP here, the strangest thing happened today: I go to a convenience store and the guy at the register is wearing some kind of jersey, and he literally asked me "Do you like sports? Football, Basketball, Baseball, anything?" I just said no, he said not even a little, and I repeated no. Felt really awkward. I couldn't say yes cause then he's ask me something about a team and I'd have no idea, it's not Superbowl or world series time as far as I know. Not making this up.

selection bias and confirmation bias
men are broadly represented in every artistic and creative field far more than women
you just don't meet those men

>>33309813 (OP)
maybe you were raised by women?
I couldn't read the whole thing but I'm also more at ease talking with girls than with men and I consider men treacherous violent beasts
I'm straight and very dominant and masculine in bed and yet I'm chill and not controlling in general
I don't get the singsongy part but I do like music that others consider gay or for girls like kpop a lot.

gender norms are the most retarded thing ever lol just do whatever you like, no one cares. In my experience being "effeminate" and having "effeminate interests" has only given me female attention