sh anon back yet again 320 days self harm free but the self hate thoughts are getting stronger and stronger. I wish I could've just been born a normal girl I don't want to be beautiful or anything just normal and I want to have a husband and kids of my own and a little place to call our own but I know it's not going to ever happen for me I'm just gonna continue to be a failure and keep crying and making manic purchases for projects that I tell myself I'll do but never actually follow through on, I wish this life wasn't so cruel to me sorry to be a whiny bitch but I just have nowhere else to say this. I jsut want to go in bed and rot until I'm no more