I am a 5'4" khhv effeminate looking man. Although I am 27, people think I am 15. I don't think any heterosexual woman can ever be attracted to me.

Only two girls have ever shown interest in me and both were queer girls who dated other girls. I didn't make a move on them because they were both druggies and my morals at that time told me I shouldn't date a woman like that, but they definitely were attracted to me.

How can I enter a platonic lavender marriage with a lesbian? I don't mind if she has affairs with women. I just don't want to be cucked by a man. I don't want to be single forever and I want a wife, so this seems like the most reasonable option.

I am a software engineer so I can definitely be a good provider even if there's no physical attraction.