No, I feel as if the universe grants me what I desire in a monkey's paw way. For example, I want money so inflation happens. I have more money but it's less useful. I want better ideas for my writing, so my brain processes speed up and shower me with a non-stop waterfall of thoughts I need to manage and calm. I want time off work, so I get horrendously ill and my entire body hurts. I feel as if no matter how specific I get with my desires and meditate on them, something will always go horribly wrong so long as I desire anything.