>>40609908 (OP)So far the universe has always granted me what I needed, good and bad, because I longed to know. When you are pure in heart things always turn around, yes I had periods where I felt hopeless and truly thought my suffering would never end. But this is just life, it's never going to be perfect, but you can find perfection in the chaos, you can find inspiration and the will to fight. I'm not going to say happiness comes from nothing, you have to walk towards it, even when you feel like you can't, experience new things, walk away from fear because it keeps you where you don't want to be. I don't dream of things anymore I don't have, if we are only in the present, then make it feel like you have everything in the now, and if the now sucks, then walk away from what hurts you, can always try new things.