The courts cited my frequent trips to the philippines as a reason to deny me custody

I like gimbap but smelling it like it's a fucking cigar is too much
It's fucking seaweed what's there to smell? The stench of Korean pussy?

>cutting
>cant sleep
>low energy from poor calories and por rest
Is it even worth it? When does it get better? If I reach my goal weight will I suddenly have more energy or will I have become a zombie by that point?