I'm a midwit with worthless opinions, but so is the vast majority of people. They say and think stupid things, and so do I. Their lives are inconsequential and so is mine. It's like seeing my own reflection in countless mirrors, but I think I know better (and so do they).
I can't argue for or against anything comfortably anymore because it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter who is right or wrong because who are we? No one. Nothing. I don't know about geopolitics or the nature of existence or anything really, but when I open my mouth I really believe for a few seconds that I know something, that my words have power. Sometimes I feel like I'm the arbiter of good taste too, and that I need to teach people something. Maybe the other person changes, or maybe I change, but so what? Blind leading the blind.
I read a couple of books and suddenly I'm an expert. Suddenly I feel like I carry something valuable that everyone else needs not only to know but to submit to. But I am no one, I'm nothing. I'm the kind of person who could get baited easily because I felt the need to right some wrong, to prove "my way" was right, but what way was that? Sometimes it feels I don't have real opinions, all I have are visceral reactions to what people say.
It's all so ridiculous. I'm tired of pretending to be this deep, knowledgeable person who's different from the rest. I point with a finger and three fingers point back at me.