>>81498147
my bf has scars on his shoulder. i used to cut, and seeing his scars made me want to cut again becuase of similar logic you made in your post, like it would make me "closer" to him somehow, but that was before. then then he told me why he cut and how it was over his ex and all this shit, and it was this heavily traumatic time in his life. if i did it, now knowing what i know hed think i was psycho, he wouldnt feel closer to me, and he would hate me for it. even so i still want to slice into my skin and bleed. i feel like i deserve to suffer. i also want to match his scars still, but it would have the opposite effect.