>>82010433
> I just can't see myself falling down that hole anymore
That is a good attitude.
> all I want to do is sleep and feel strong bouts of mopey/angriness
Burnouts can remind you to lay off for a while.
Never did MMC or heared anything about its reputation but if it hits you that way maybe switch to something lighter your body can tank; like amp (if you can find a good source); it has been kind to me at reasonable doses.
> it's been a dark bumpy road for me
It can be that way. Drugs should be a tool, not a prison. By the way you describe it, you're on your way out (keeping doses some time apart, confroting your burnout)
> nobody in my life knows about this immensely degenerate aspect
We all have degen phases. It's nothing to be ashamed of. You sound like a reasonable person that is aware of his situation and is making decisions to better it. Getting it out is a good step.
Stay strong, anon.