Why is there no escape from my pathetic life? Why can't nothing get better? I hate real life and that's why I rely so much on connection online, I literally can't make my "bf" happy because I didn't cut his name into my arm and thought my cute doodle (on paper) was shitty, even though I stated before that I'm not okay with cut signs, I hope he doesn't use /r9k/ and is just a larper (because we met through a 4chan like server I was in and then got banned from because I wouldn't shove a brush handle up my pussy) I try to make him happy, but I just can't satisfy him, I just want to be in a world where people actually love me, where I'm not deep in depression, I feel delusional for wanting that.