My bf likes to thirst over other men he sees on the internet whether it's fictional characters, youtubers, or just men posting thirst traps. Which would be fine except he expresses zero sexual desire towards me. I'm never gonna look like the men he swoons over and ever since we've been together I've started to get body dysmorphia, it's been going on for years now. He keeps telling me he'll like me for who I am and how I look doesnt matter but whenever I flirt with him sexually he just acts awkward or upset but will still express sexual desire over strangers right in front of me despite knowing how uncomfortable it makes me feel and even though weve been together for a long time we've never even had sex once. Should I just kill myself?