So. Here we are again.
I feel completely numb about anything to do with my relationship. I have been beaten, berated, gas lit, insulted, and just shown in every way they dont give a fuck about me and my well being. But then sometimes their so sweet. Im just numb though. I dont care anymore, im emotionally miles away from their bs. Like when they do their freak outs im like oh. The only emotion I even feel anymore is anger towards them.

We have broken up and gotten back together a ton of times. We have a kid. During our last, and longest break up I got a place. I basically kept him 6 days a week then. Not that im complaining, I love him and the further away from your bs he is the better off he is.

I guess you're well aware I wanna leave. I've told you as much, ive told you my issues for weeks but now that you know im about at my limit again you're all of the sudden gonna change?

When I look back I realize you lied about yourself to get back with me, said you're okay with living apart, you accepted that you treated me badly, that you're not drinking, hiding the fact you had been dating around. Telling me you missed me so bad and making up any bs for me to get on the phone with you.

Im done with this crap. I need my peace. I obviously got tricked into believing you where changed. You're not. The past couple months that mask slipped off more and more by the day. Now we're practically in the same position as before I left you.

Now I have to prepare myself to do it all over again. Deal with your psychosis and suicide threats, the never ending spam calls. I wish I never got back with you. Everything is back to how it was and I can't believe I let it happen again.