it's never enough man
why am i even trying
why do i care about her so much

it's over.

I am actually batman

>>33443069
Oh shit

Found out the woman I've grown attached to and who told me she loved me is a giant whore and all over this other dude's dick and now I can't feasibly detach myself or ghost her without basically ostracizing myself from my friend group I've grown over the last two years. I really wish I had just stayed a loser shut in and kept to myself.

>mom asks me if my gf and I are still together since I've been home for weeks and only leave the house to go to work
>she broke up with me a month ago
>lie and say yes but come up with an excuse
>"I've been busy"
>my mom responds with "She's a great girl. She's really kind and she's cute, you want to keep people like that in your life"
Yeah, thanks mom. I wanted her to be around too but she's keeping her distance and the 2 attempts that I've made to close that distance were ignored. If I try anymore, I'll just come off as clingy and needy and drive her even further away. Fucking hate my life

I wish I wasn't such a freak, maybe people could actually love me if I wasn't such a psychopathic fucking retard

>>33443240
Try to fuck her without attachment.

I DARE THESE NIGGAS TO TRY AND SAY SOMETHING IVE GOT 1 FOOT OUT THE DOOR AND ILL DROP THEM IN A SECOND IF THEY PISS ME OFF THEY SHOULD BE LUCKY THAT IVE STAYED WITH THEM THIS LONG

It's weird how like 80% who testified/gave impact statements at the Nikolas Cruz trial are skinwalkers. Like they don't even seem human and either lack emotion completely or have exaggerated emotions that don't fit what they're saying

>>33442983 (OP)
Work at school (first day back today) I'm a 10 year special education vet
School is title 1 (poor, disabled, minorities) gotta get those loans paid
In autism classroom, lots of kids that can't sit or talk and lack functional skills
I tell the staff it will be hard but we have to try to get them in a normal routine because I believe in the kids' potential
Angry Latina support staff yanking kids around and pinning them down forcing them to work on meaningless shit ignoring all my plans. Literally turning their heads when I try to direct them. (the whole point of starting out is to solidify routines and make them like school, not force them to do hard shit)
They ignore all my plans for positive reinforcement and tell me it will never work
They walk out when I tell them that they need to try because we need to hold these children to a higher standard
Principle walks in when no one is helping me, class is being destroyed but kids are calm
They just say oh no, walk out and tell me about the "shit show" they saw
Liberal white bitch to replace me for a week to give the underpaid mongoloids everything they're demanding
Principal says there's not much he can do because there is no one to replace the help but I'm replaceable with a contracted employee that he won't have to pay for
Why the fuck did I become a special education teacher. I just wanted to help kids.
Also, deport them all.

>>33442983 (OP)
I figured it out & I am PISSED OFF. SO PISSED OFF. All my anger is now placed upon this one person. I WANT REVENGE for what he did to me. REVENGE. You hear me?

Rich... this might be your scammer - tied to LAS VEGAS.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/british-columbia/las-vegas-home-of-alleged-ponzi-schemer-greg-martel-to-be-sold-for-5-1m-us-1.7098135

>>33443330
How much did he get you for my BC friend?

>>33443343
I'm not at liberty to say but I will say that...

I DEMAND INTERPOL GET HIM.

He almost cost me my life.

Venti iced Americano, black.

>>33442983 (OP)
Thanks for trying OP.
But "muh first girlfriend"fags have kinda ruined it
Yeah it sucks man but that's life. If that's the worst shit you have to share, you don't know real pain.

>>33442990
I just don't know who you are. Batman isn't enough as there are lots of Batmans out there. Just stop being afraid and tell me who you are.

I'm clearly catwoman but I'll do better if you prove you're better by telling me who you are. A least give me hint.

>>33443244
Bruh. It hurts now but that shit is nothing when you keep bettering yourself.

>>33443330
If you find this guy, I promise that you are going to learn a lot. Not just about him but about many, many things tied to him. I'd classify this as a #1 priority. They wouldn't give out TOR secrets, in court, because of me, they let the disgusting perp go. That's how you know how important this is. GET HIM!

>>33443417
To an extent, I agree but my life is pretty good currently, all the things I'm doing/improving at are just extra. At the end of the day, it ultimately doesn't make up for what a good woman provides

Surprisingly caught the fancy of a couple of girls at work but I still resort to my old ways of distanced admiration instead of engaged intimacy. I keep trying to make rapport but idk why but I have nothing in common with people my age and I'm starting to feel like a massive cockblock to my own cuck self now.

Dejavu
Strong one

>>33443396
My best friend died a year ago and I'm very much regretting not killing myself because my life just keeps continually getting worse, and even improving myself and surrounding myself with friends and family is doing absolutely nothing to fix this void inside of me.

>>33443302
>SOMETHING
Lucky?? Ur a Curse nigger GTFO

>>33443330
>>33443330
>>33443330


;)

Blackman? lol

>>33443506
White cracker?

>>33443506
Racist nigger

Does the wedding ring experiment actually work? I'm pretty much invisible to everyone.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mWRsgZuwf_8&list=RDmWRsgZuwf_8&start_radio=1

Catwoman>Batman

True story, catwoman is like a Queen in Chess. Any direction

OOOHHH MYYY GOOODOODDODODOD

THE ENDLESS FUCKING NOISE

YOU TRY TO SLEEP AND IT'S HOURS OF STOMP STOMP STOMP STOMP THEN A FUCKING DOG BARKS AT SHIT THEN MUSIC PLAYING AND THEN FUCKING CONSTRUCTION AND THEN A FUCKING BABY CRIES AND DOORS SLAM AND YOU HEAR THIS AT EVERY GOT FORSAKEN MOMENT THERE IS NEVER ANY FUCKING PEACE

YOU TRY TO LEAVE TO ANYWHERE BUT THE NOISE FOLLOWS YOU BECAUSE THESE FUCKING CUNTS GO RUIN EVERY SINGLE SPACE IN THE WORLD. EVERY SINGLE FUCKING NOISE ENDLESSLY OVER AND OVER. ENDLESS SUFFERING.

Yeah, they're trying to whack me now, why are they think this? *yawn*

Crazy town

mm i need K

>>33443651
You might have autism

Fuck psychiatrists!
Have nightmares? Take this medicine, it will get rid of them and its totally mild and without drawbacks or major side effects. The worst thing you will have is lower blood pressure which is good anyway.

Well, guess what happens when you take it for a while and try to reduce your dose? Insomnia and nightmares! Worse than they ever were! My brain is fucked!

I even told some anons here who had nightmares to try it and I regret it. Fuck prazosin

>>33442983 (OP)
my timeline gets increasingly worse. they discontinued my favourite perfume and to buy it would mean not paying rent for the next six months. i feel like throwing dishes at the wall

I legitimately suffer from delusions of grandeur and imagine myself conquering the world like Temujin, only to look at the fantasy and find nothing satisfying about it.
I have some kind of legitimate brain parasite demanding I indulge in fantasies of monstrous evil because I'm trying to square nihilistic meaninglessness with self-satisfaction and peace of mind. It's like I think I'm on the Truman Show and I want to see how far I can go before they cancel it.

My therapist thinks I should start putting myself out there in terms of dating. I'd pretty much be up for any woman that is nice and would tolerate me, but I don't think that person exists.
>ugly
>only kinda tall
>below average job/salary in a high cost of living area, been stuck here 7 years because I'm terrified of change
>live with and pay rent to my mom as a result
>csa victim
>below average dick
>been in therapy and on anxiety/depression meds for longer than that
>have zero experience with women since they've been at best apathetic and at worst reputation-destroyingly vindictive my entire life
>generally unassertive, scared of authority, confrontation, change
I'd never tell her this but the only reason I haven't killed myself is that it would ruin my mom's life

Had a dream my ex came to my workplace and was acting fucking weird
She had a bunch of dumbass new tattoos on her body and was trying to bug my workplace to spy on me
Fucking druggie

Restricting is so fucking boring. Just waiting for my next black coffee and breakfast and try to eat as little dinner as possible. I feel dumb as hell for not being productive during this time.

>>33443938
I wonder why they hate you.

What I inherit isn't all that special, oh no not at all. It takes a real cowboy to get it. I'm finally leaving retail hell and it feels so fucking good, I feel almost sorry for all the Karens I'm going to verbally run over today. On my way out. And if that rat that snitches on me for the things he does shows up today I'm straight up gonna treat him like the bitch he is. Cannot fucking wait.

I am afraid.

I'm not afraid.

What's a superheroes favorite crime to stop? A caper.

You can do an incantation? I can do an outcantation...

What's a ghost's favorite drink? Spirits.

What kind of transportation did Hitler take? An uber-mensch...

What's a vampire's favorite character? Bloodshot...

What's a mermaid's favorite thing to play with? A siren...

Jew with a boner walks into a bar and breaks his nose

>>33444131
A Jew walks into a bar, he comes back out with a stack of cash. He talked the owner into buying the bar from him...

What's a clown's favorite archetype l? A GLADiator...

>>33444131
How do you break a jew's nose? Put some coins under a glass table.

if you're gay and in prison, it's probably the best and/or the worst time of your life

How did the artist die? He knicked an Artery...

Who likes winter more than summer? Snowbody...

>>33444180
Me

>>33444180
I do >:(

>>33444274
Who're you?

>>33444278
Who're you?

>>33444291
I'm batman

>>33444280
I am me, who're you?

>>33444308
I'm now known as JokeAnon.

>>33444300
I'm Fatniss Neverlean.

Nobody likes you

>>33444371
I am Nobody.

>>33444371
Stop being such a cunt

>>33444376
No, I am
>>33444377
Ok sorry

Where's El?

They’re all out without you, having fun

>>33444390
You should do the same.

>>33444398
Why

>>33444405
Because you deserve fun.

>>33444408
I don’t see the point in it. I wish I was dead

>>33442983 (OP)
just asked a girl I'm pining after a little whether she wants to go to a fair with me, haven't yet had the courage to check me phone.

I think I've hit a new low this summer. As an unproductive procrastinator who leaves their room messy and bed rots. I dont really have anything going for me. I don't think I'll ever get the privilege of being someone's first choice.

I want to kill myself because I feel that no one truly cares about me and no one ever will

If 10+k, then buying a bike right away.
If under that, then I'm buying myself cheap porn.

>>33444462
You probably are. Clean up your room. Wash everything. Do tai chi, eat healthy. Exfoliate your body. Get yourself a nice haircut, moisturize your body and face, wear sunscreen, use a upf/uv hat. Don't let the days go by.

So obviously this guy needs to be researched in NYC

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/George_Santos

>>33444387
Hi

>>33444390
As always - nobody likes me, right? The truth is my bare hands paved their way. You don't get to tell me about sad.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vOZFiX6hDXQ&list=RDvOZFiX6hDXQ&start_radio=1

>>33444627
He just started serving his sentence - good opportunity to crack a deal if he talks...
this is huge.

So. Here we are again.
I feel completely numb about anything to do with my relationship. I have been beaten, berated, gas lit, insulted, and just shown in every way they dont give a fuck about me and my well being. But then sometimes their so sweet. Im just numb though. I dont care anymore, im emotionally miles away from their bs. Like when they do their freak outs im like oh. The only emotion I even feel anymore is anger towards them.

We have broken up and gotten back together a ton of times. We have a kid. During our last, and longest break up I got a place. I basically kept him 6 days a week then. Not that im complaining, I love him and the further away from your bs he is the better off he is.

I guess you're well aware I wanna leave. I've told you as much, ive told you my issues for weeks but now that you know im about at my limit again you're all of the sudden gonna change?

When I look back I realize you lied about yourself to get back with me, said you're okay with living apart, you accepted that you treated me badly, that you're not drinking, hiding the fact you had been dating around. Telling me you missed me so bad and making up any bs for me to get on the phone with you.

Im done with this crap. I need my peace. I obviously got tricked into believing you where changed. You're not. The past couple months that mask slipped off more and more by the day. Now we're practically in the same position as before I left you.

Now I have to prepare myself to do it all over again. Deal with your psychosis and suicide threats, the never ending spam calls. I wish I never got back with you. Everything is back to how it was and I can't believe I let it happen again.

poi

https://www.crunchbase.com/person/jp-maroney

>>33444371
According to who? You?

>>33444788
wtf man

D&D International Investment Services Inc
1270 N Wickham Rd
16-321
MELBOURNE, FL 32935

>>33444421
Why

>>33444444

>>33444809
lol men are weird, nobody cares about your dick

https://rosettistarr.com/the-santos-scandal-a-deep-dive-into-deception-part-2/

>be 30yo, socially adjusted, good friends and stuff, but never had an actual gf
>closest was a situationship I had last year that was going toxic, but otherwise even if I knew a few women liked me I didn't like them so nothing official before
>meet this girl online, we talk a bunch, exchange socials, really hitting it off
>after about a month we finally go out, but it's more of a small dinner + movie outing, then I drop her at her home
>next day, I tell her that I thought she was really pretty and that I love talking to her, so it'd be nice to at least keep going out or keep a friendship if nothing else
>she's good with the idea, just mentions that she's not sure where it might emotionally for her due to previous experiences, so let's try and keep it friendly for now
>been two weeks since, we keep texting every day and usually until she goes to sleep, have a longer date planned for this Saturday
>Friendship day a couple of days ago, don't mention it once throughout the day
>before she goes the sleep, she texts me "happy day btw! (Not in a friend zoning way but in a I like yapping with you way)"
>mfw I have no face
>haven't felt like this at all with my situationship from last year
Is this how teenage love feels or just regular love.

>>33444854
Karlista Maroney - poi
https://www.linkedin.com/in/karlista
https://www.instagram.com/p/DFOYBAmMpHB/

>>33444877
https://search.sunbiz.org/Inquiry/CorporationSearch/SearchResultDetail?inquirytype=EntityName&directionType=Initial&searchNameOrder=JAYSONBENOITASSOCIATES%20P200000392630&aggregateId=domp-p20000039263-355affed-b37c-44a3-a5e5-c272308fb4c5&searchTerm=Jayson%20Benoit%20%26%20Associates%20Inc.&listNameOrder=JAYSONBENOITASSOCIATES%20P200000392630

>>33444844
you know that to be untrue

>>33444911
Really? You're really making everything about your dick? If you want nymphos to bang... maybe but then it's good you have an average dick size... if you're sex obsessed - which you are. Now grow a pair. Your dick doesn't matter to anyone.

Im a 40 year old NEET. I've been a NEET pretty much my whole adult life. Most of the reason i didnt work was because it was hard to get a job not having a high school diploma, also disability didnt give me enough money to get a stable place to live so i mostly lived in rooming houses full of crackheads. Id usually be sharing a bathroom and kitchen with a dozen strangers. Early on in my adult life i bounced between homeless shelters and the rooming houses. The youth shelter kind of enabled me into not just making due with places i lived. They'd just let me in even if i had no reason to be there. One time, the only time I got a job interview, this one was at Walmart 20 years ago they had a problem with the gap in my work experience after awhile i just gave up. It's weird how menial minimum wage jobs even back then expected you to have a flawless work experience(like the gap wasn't even that bad back then) I'm sort of glazing over a lot of details because this happened over 20 years. Id like to get a job now but the market in Canada is especially competitive now. for jobs I want to get into a lot of them are taken up by temporary foreign workers who are subsidized by the government so employers tend to prefer them. Also the long amount of time I've been out of work it probably would give people the idea I've done hard time even though that's not true.

I might have gotten too horny

It's nice hearing you have a nice cock.

I wonder how she's doing...

How to ruin your life: be a 5 who somehow attracts a 9 for a brief fling and then fumble her

I got to sleep with a guy I hadn't seen since last year and he was 400% more buff, super nice and fucked my brains out. I swear his cock even grew bigger. Distance really makes the heart grow fonder.

>>33445202
just get her back retard

>have to work from 9am to 8pm
JUST LET ME PARTAKE IN MY HOBBIES AAAAAAAAAAAA

>>33444948
learn a little nuance. there's room between
>nobody cares about your dick
and
>You're really making everything about your dick?
You seem to be either underage or retarded, one of which will heal, so don't feel too bad.

>>33444422
meh, she's out that weekend, that's unfortunate

I don't think I'm ever going to get over it.

>>33445311
Brutal

>>33445311
https://youtu.be/LH6MstVxehQ?si=DxFp2sJ2TyWy3BHI

I have no hope for the future.
Everything is so fucking expensive, you get less and pay more.
Costco changed their tasty chocolate muffins into crap that you would find at fucking McDonalds.

And even if the economy gets stable those cheap bastards will continuing selling new their 80% air products for 2x the original price because profit matters more than a good product.

The internet is getting worse with all the baby proofing shit.

Not to mention the rising pollution and microplastics.

I honestly wished I died in 2020, so at least I wouldn't have the knowledge that the world fucking sucks now.

>>33442983 (OP)


I go to doctors multiple fucking times to get herpes tested (literally aparently a ton of atypical herpes cases are like this) and they say all of the symptoms are all in my head and want to put me on psych medication. Apparently everything they’re saying isn’t right according to most recent updated info. They say it can only be blisters and not otherwise. Im so fucking done. Why bother anymore?

>>33445420
At least I get off around 5pm on Sundays (I only get Tuesdays off).

>>33445472
They better pay well. I can't imagine a job working you 6 days every week unless you're tied multiple jobs

>>33445480
>They better pay well.
lol
lmao, even
>I can't imagine a job working you 6 days every week unless you're tied multiple jobs
It's still very common in my thirdie shithole, sadly.

weighed myself when I woke up (no water or meals) and I hit 100 lbs LETS GOOOO!!!!!!!!

>>33442983 (OP)
I kinda just want to end it all , I went through the bullshit of college , got a decent job my own place but I am ugly and old and due to several other issues I am undatable. When my parents die thats it , no friends. No girlfriend , Wife etc. Tried taking pills they just make me worse. Im type 1 diabetic and even though I take good care of it I just feel like something horrible is bound to happen. Im not contributing anything meaningful , Im not going to come up with a miracle invention or anything of note , so why not just end it? Logically I think Ive got sound reasoning. This guy I talk to sometimes said my logic is flawed but cant explain why

>>33445774
ur a woman?

>>33442983 (OP)
>Hang out with people
>Don't say anything
>"Oh Anon your so boring"
>Try and act more active and crazy
>"Your so fucking annoying Anon"
>Stop talking to people
>"Why aren't you talking Anon?"

I give up, normies are something else man.

>>33445801
Wouldn't my height determine how good or bad it is instead?

I think I've officially hit the age where I can't get away with living a sedentary lifestyle and only eating three small meals a day. The bulk of my diet is satchet porridge and sparsely garnished sandwiches. I feel so weak in body, mind, and spirit. Is it better to walk more, or to eat more first? I always feel like I don't really deserve to eat good food, it's not an eating disorder, it's a general self-worth thing. I commute on foot so I've always seen that as my leg exercise, maybe 45 minutes a day, but spend most the day at the office desk and most the evening sprawled out on my bed dreading sleep and aching all over. People talk to me about dead serious matters and I'm barely 50% there, more like 30%. I can't see these issues being resolved at this point, seems I've also officially hit the age where I'm a lost cause. I'm teetotal and have always lived a clean, frugal, safe and extremely boring life for the sake of the "future" too. Sort of fucked up really. I'm only guilty of being anon, that is my crime, and also my punishment.

i couldn't stop locking eyes with this married lady

at first she fought it and would look away and pull in her lips but now she's embracing it, smiling back, blushing, and flirting

feels bad

>>33445840
just answer
and yes, whats ur height then?

>>33445854
male 4'9

>>33445861
why are you so short?

i just feel like if you can't turn someone's head with your gaze you've got a weak gaze, that's all

i am cheating on the girl i love and who loves me back. both girls dont know about the other. i feel guilt over it, as i accuse the girl i love of cheating when i know she isnt. guess i am just projecting.

>>33445871
My genetics just suck lol

>>33445966
u gotta have some insanely bad genes for you to end up that short, especially as a male
congrats on the weight loss either way though

it's nearly fucking impossible for me to keep friendships and relationships, hell even to stay in contact with my family. but i'm trying.

>>33445996
I guess. Though I don't personally care much. And thank you!

Fucking bitch.

>>33446199
I feel bad for you that she lives rent free in your mind while she lives a beautiful life

>>33442983 (OP)

I became friends with someone my brother used to date. Their breakup was messy—we both lost someone close. Months later, the ex reached out to reconnect. I missed them, so I agreed to some light small talk. I was open with my brother, who didn’t seem to mind at the time. Eventually, I ran into the ex at a festival, where they met a close friend of mine. The two started dating, and the ex re-entered our group circle.

About a month later, my brother got into a new relationship. Suddenly, I was pressured to block his ex. His new girlfriend labeled my continued contact with the ex “disgusting” and “a betrayal.” Despite being honest all along, I was coerced into blocking the ex in front of them. It felt less like healing and more like control.

To complicate things, before that confrontation, the ex had reached out to my brother saying something like, “Make sure your brother isn’t lying and seeing me behind your back.” That stirred unnecessary drama and spiked his paranoia.

Now, my friend and the ex have broken up. The ex still wants to stay friends with me, but my family assumes they’re fully blocked. Everyone—including my previously understanding family—thinks cutting ties is the only right choice. My brother is especially paranoid, and I don't want to damage that relationship.

The truth? I’ve already been unconsciously distancing myself from this ex-friend. They've not really done anything wrong recently—in fact, they’ve been a surprisingly positive force in my life this year. That’s what’s making this so hard.

What I’m Struggling With:
Do I:

Fade out gradually?

Be honest with the ex and hope they don't retaliate against my brother?

Or just block them outright and preserve peace with my family?

I don’t want to lose my brother, but I’m torn about ghosting someone who’s been good to me—especially when the problem now feels more political than personal.

>>33442983 (OP)
Sometimes when I try to sleep alone in a bigger house, the ambient sounds start distorting into speech of humanoids that are plotting to kill me in my sleep and I can feel them moving upstairs. Then I have to shout at them, and look around closets and the bathrooms to make sure they're not there. Sometimes I feel the need to talk to monitoring devices installed in my apartment subtly, but not enough to make them aware that I know about them. Maybe I'm just silly and bored

>>33446358
Why is every other 4channer a schizophrenic??

i like it when cute girls are hairy and don't use deodorant or artificial fragrances

I am having a super bad day
Many bad things have happened
And more are coming

My dick is sexually ded. Also my misanthropy is increasing every single day.

I hate this, but being raped in my sleep would lowkey be hot as fuck. Hope I find someone into somnophilia someday

>>33446502
i've had my morning wood jumped on by a girl i was dating, it's nice to wake up banging

>>33446528
The thrill of waking up in the middle of the night and being pounded into... too bad this kink is controversial and too little people are likely willing to do it. I guess my virgin ass will just have to stick to fantasies.

>>33446546
i'm pretty sure i repaid the favor several times

like if a had a girl sleeping on my bed right now i wouldn't be able to help myself, ya kno?

I just dont think Im fit to manage people. I want to do a good job and make the people I service happy, but dealing with others who dont care about doing the right thing just makes me upset and causes me to do my job poorly. I dont want to train anyone because I always end up saying the wrong thing and for some reason that leads to them not respecting me.

goddamnit I didnt want to feel shitty this weekend, there's a party to go to and I want to be there and feel free and happy and interact well with people. but now this'll be in my subconscious and fuck up everything for me, mark my words. I'll try not to let it.

I hate taking medication, i feel like im always suffering from akathisia, and ive felt on edge all day, even when I have nothing going on I feel restless, even when all other things are equal and Im relaxing I feel like I want to jump out of my skin. Doing anything productive feels like a massive painful exertion. The medication doesnt help as much as i need it to

It's the hard knock life for us.
It's the hard knock life for us.
Instead of treated we get tricked.
Instead of kisses we get kicked.
It's the hard knock life.
...
Empty belly life.
Rotten smelly life.
Full of sorrow life.
No tomorrow life.
Santa Claus, we never see.
Santas Claus, what's that? Who's he?

I got a new job and it's a big raise. Rather than splurge, I decided to budget max to make the gains go further, and moved into a cheaper apartment, one that looks pretty suite despite the cheaper rent. That said, the people are less classy, and I'm afraid I'll regret this. Just today when I stopped by the empty unit to collect my key and let the internet person install the equipment, I noticed there was a lot of bass from the unit beneath me. Jury is still out, obviously this doesn't mean he'd always be doing that, but it gave me a bad vibe. I really hope I didn't just consign myself to 12 months of no sleep / concentration. I really just want peace and quiet.

>>33443769
No fucking duh

>>33446908
I do the same but I live in shoeboxes in the best areas I can find. Location, location, location.

>>33446409
Real smell is a good smell.
Humans cripple themselves with all sorts of odd behaviors.
Pheromones are important.
One can be clean without being sterile.

>>33446474
>My dick is sexually ded
False
Unless there is physical damage, You probably have depression.
Just get some praise.

Fuck you bpd bitches

Why don't we just kill pedophiles as a society? I mean seriously, being attracted to children is absolutely deplorable and lowly behavior. To have unbecoming people into our society is nothing more than planting the seeds of our downfall. I loathe pedophiles and every day they get killed in a prison by a bunch of thugs is a day I rest my head with ease.

You know what I'd do if I were a woman? I'd suck so much fucking dick.

Just immediately start inviting guys over to my apartment one-by-one so I could suck their cocks before kicking them out. Simply way too fun to pass up.

>>33446984
>inb4 uh you can already do that as a guy...????
No, that's gay and gross and weird and gay.

>>33442983 (OP)
I hate Trump and everything he does. With that said, I agree with the tough nuclear posturing toward Russia. Russia has been playing games for too long because we have been a rational actor and that makes them feel safe to be irrational dickheads. Refusing to play the role of the straight man so they can continue to play games is the right thing to do with Russia. Personally, I would go further. Most likely this is actually theater designed to make him look tough on Russia without actually doing anything but in any case it's better than nothing I guess.

>>33442983 (OP)
Y'all, I have one single friend on Steam but we've been pretty good friends over a number of years and have done sexy stuff in the past though we don't currently have that kind of relationship at the moment. I'm kinda wanting to get a certain porn game and kinda don't really want to bother hiding it from them with the private game feature? Would that be weird?

>>33447179
I guess not. Just tell them you want to cyber sex with them and then fuck each other irl. Just don't get hiv

>>33447185
Nah I'm not gonna do all that lol. Like I said, we don't do that kind of stuff these days, it's just not part of the kind of relationship with have at the moment. We're just friends right now. I just feel like we're both adults and it's not like we've never been sexual with each other before so, like, seeing a porn game in my steam isn't the worst thing in the world?

I guess it would be easy to just private the game. I don't wanna like have to feel like I'm hiding it from them, we're grownups and this is nothing particularly shocking for us. So it's mixed feelings because I also don't wanna seem like I'm flaunting it. Maybe I should just err on the side of caution.

>>33447216
Nvm I decided on a solution. I'll just buy the game without privating, but appear offline when I play it. Even if it's fine for them to know I own the game, they don't really need to know if I play it.

I still check ur twitter multiple times a day, its the last bit of connection i have to you, it makes me feel like a creepy stalker and a loser, especially since im pretty sure you dont even think about me at all when im stuck thinking about you multiple times a day.
in a couple days it'll have been one month since you cut me out of your life, the milk in my fridge expires on that day which is just yet another annoying reminder i have of you.

i've been seeing so many patterns in my life it's kinda driving me nuts because when i notice it and analyze the significance of these things, it gets manifested or something big happens in my life. it's most likely normal, but who knows. i joke that i'm some seer and i've honestly predicted a lot of events for people close to me.

>keychain friend gave me broke. this was a sign that our friendship was going to officially fall aprt (it did)
>prior to this, she gifted me a sticker of art she made for me
>the sticker began to fade into white, which led to us having our first fight and straining the friendship a bit.

>seen all of my previous bosses and even the woman who hired me at my first job as a young adult in my last job on my last day before getting promoted
>lost job week after
>see a sanrio character that happened to be the favorite of someone i once loved
>they message me a month later asking to catch up


To add in a joking manner, i joked once to a friend about chris chan being released from prison and then 3 days later chris chan was released.

this stuff, though i dont take seriously, makes me chuckle or surprises me from time to time

Jesus fucking Christ

It's so weird being a human with a dick who doesn't think of myself as a human with a dick. Like, I acknowledge that it's there in my mind, but I prefer to pretend that it's not. In my fantasies, I never have one. IRL, I don't despise using it, but ideally I wouldn't have it at all. Sadly there's no way I'm ever trusting any human to take a knife to my genitals so that'll never happen. I would be happy if it just never gets hard again though as long as basic orgasms still happen, which I believe is possible, but sadly mine still gets hard.

It's weird having political stances that are mostly left leaning, except for some social ones like trannies, but at the same time finding nobody on the planet more insufferable than leftists. There is something so incredibly wretched and off-putting to me when people who claim moral superiority over other people use dishonesty and manipulation to justify acting like the most horrific people I've ever seen and to treat people like garbage. I hate these people. I see through your gaslighting, your dishonesty and your underhanded tactics and the way you treat people - you are not good people, you are wretched vermin

>>33447482
I'm sure you are so much better than everyone else bro

>>33447482
Wtf are you even talking about. The absolute worst humanity has to offer are all rightoids

Someone's mad that the left doesn't want them to genocide trannies
Waaahhh

>>33447494
Factually true, although better than most would be accurate. Definitely not everyone. Objectively, better than likely 90% at least.
>>33447504
No, rightoids will just be a piece of shit without any facade, be straight up racist or something. That is at least honest. Leftists are just frauds, constantly feigning offense at something they don't actually care about, but use as a vehicle to treat other people like shit. Again, they are dishonest frauds trying to convince others they are great people, when they are the same pieces of shit the rightoids are, but at least the righoids are up front about it.
>>33447512
Strawman - low iq behavior

>>33447504
This is an example of what I mean.
>Reddit front page thread posting Sydney Sweeney's voter info, address, etc
Rightoids would post someone's personal info like this and just say here is this bitch's personal info go harrass her. It's a shitty thing to do, regardless of whether it is technically doxing or not. But, the rightoids, who would do stuff like this just like leftists, would, as I say, just straight up say here is the info go harrass her.
>picrel
Perfect example of the difference, how fucking intellectually dishonest the left is about it. All this rationalizing, gaslighting, dishonest bullshit to justify doing the exact same thing.
>Posted to Reddit front page so that people can harrass Sydney Sweeney, since Reddit and leftists/progressives are pissed about the American Eagle ad.
Everybody knows what the fuck this is, why it is posted on the front page, what the intent and goal is. But unlike rightoids who would just say go harrass her, the Redditors do this dishonest bullshit trying to act like they aren't doing what they are clearly doing. Snakes in the grass. Frauds. Both pieces of shit, but leftists more so because they try to act like they aren't the pieces of human waste they are. As I said, vermin.

>>33447604
Sweeney is fucking creepy as hell and so was that commercial. You can try to pretend otherwise but it was disturbing as FUCK. The only reason you would think otherwise is you legitimately believe I'm in eugenics and white supremacy.

>>33442983 (OP)
I think I just 500 days of summer'd myself.

>>33446930
>Just get some praise
difficult

>mfw guy I'm fucking tries to psychoanalyze me and say "what my problem is"
>mfw he's absolutely correct but that's not his place to say
>mfw it's my own fault for answering his retarded questions and not keeping it light like I prefer

Suicide ideation goes brrr

>>33446345
you should continue seeing your brother’s ex, because it seems like you are somewhat of a submissive and easily controlled person, and your brother’s new gf is taking advantage of that and manipulating you. you should do what you want, not what she wants.

>>33446908
I did this for 2 months and regretted it. I doubt your area was as bad as mine. I lived on the 2nd floor so could hear everyone outside. The neighbours were all alcoholics and they hung out on benches right outside until 1 or 2 in the morning, usually arguing, sometimes it got so bad the police were called, keeping me awake. So, I guess for the future, visit the location you are considering moving to first, hang around there for a few hours, or even at night to get a feel of what it will be like, before you make a big commitment.

>>33446935
A lot of paedophiles are very powerful people - eg rulers of nations, the folks who hung out with Epstein.
And what do you mean by paedophile? It used to mean someone who was sexually attracted to pre-pubecent children (which is wrong and un-natural), now some people use this word for anything from being attracted to a teenage girl to being a 32 year old dating a 23 year old.

>>33442983 (OP)
Currently trying out CBT ERP therapy for my intrusive thoughts over my girlfriend's sexual past encounters. it's literally irrational because I'm literally the wilder partner so I know this is more a me problem than an actual her problem. Literally typing every intrusive thought of their possible sexual experience and just sitting with the anxiety and not responding.

Notes so far:
- I am not a cuck (thank god) because writing these scenarios only causes my anxiety/pain and no horniness
- It is helping my anxiety because writing down some of these stupid shit helps normalize certain things
- it's helping de-idolize my girlfriend, I'm realising she is just a normal girl who has had sex with people and she has given sexual pleasure to other guys and other guys have given sexual pleasure to her, just the exact same as me.
- like writing this shit down is also like just letting it get out of my mind so it is no longer stored up there for me but instead is just out here for your motherfuckers

>>33446345
Lol, both the ex and and the new gf sound like untrustworthy and manipulative bitches

being angry all the time is exhausting.

>>33447825
If you fucked other girls too, then you're even.
But caring and writing about it with such anger is quite cucked on its own, though.

>>33447841
Just be angry for half a day or less. Anger can be a positive and motivating emotion.

I wish I was dead
I wish I was dying tomorrow
I wish I had a gun

>>33447850
>If you fucked other girls too, then you're even.
That's the strange part - I have. I've had more and better and wilder sex than her because well it was quite clear she was inexperienced when we first did it. That's how I know it's a ME problem with any brain being super retarded, treating all these intrusive thoughts like active problems.

>caring and writing about it with such anger is quite cucked on its own
I know man. The only solace I have is that it seems to be helping reduce my anxiety. Also that I am flaccid as shit writing all of this down.

Lowkey jealous of the traumatised people who go onto adulthoods of being useless drug abusing sluts. Being a hyper-independent shut-in overachiever is fucking exhausting, and if I let the mask slip now, what the fuck was the point of the last 20 fucking years?
I know the character arc for the former type, what the fuck does mine look like? What am I gonna do, go to therapy? Just make the responsible choice AGAIN? Continue spending all my money and emotional bandwidth ensuring my pesky problems don't impact anyone around me or my social standing amongst them? How does that not read as a lateral move at best?

>>33447860
i already do that but it adds up after years. just like how being alive gets exhausting after a while.

>>33446935
It's an easy leash for the (((owners of the wiold))) to control politics & most people have been trained to be way to soft.

Families used to go to public hangings, now state execution is basicaly banned in the first world.

>>33447504
erm actually anyone who is political on both sides are the worst of the worst because both the left AND the right are the exact same thing and if you disagree with that you are an absolute moron brainwashed npc retard idiot

>>33447881
Guarantee you’ve never seen someone die irl.

>>33447018
Imagine being this retarded.
Trump is a puppet. The USA is a nuclear armed goon, it's not sovereign. You swallowed your owners dick so hard. Stop imbibing thier retarded propaganda.

>>33447709
>want to fuck them
>don't want a relationship
Your problem might be really unavoidable if fuck buddies are getting it correct.

>>33447886
Me personaly seeing it irl isn't really relevant. But I have.

>>33446935
something something government overreach (applies to other types of criminals too) and something something thought police slippery slop (if the person doesn't actually act on it). also, theres people who want the death penalty for FAR less severe crimes. should they get their way too? sorry you got raped as kid though, faggot.

>>33447899
It's just basic trauma and rejection sensitivity he didn't call it that but basically said I spaz out too readily at people

i wanna fuck my therapist so bad hes so hot. he told me he wanted to keep seeing me as his patient when i mentioned id thought about quitting therapy. ik its so unrealistic but hes complimented my makeup and clothes before i can tell he would if he trusted and i LITERALLY i wouldnt tell a soul. damn i think im just ovulating or some shit but id do splits on it if he just gave me a chanceeee

>>33447912
>basic
It might be basic but it's important.
You deserve love too.
Boners & heart boners.

Feels like it’s not a matter of if anymore, just when

>>33447946
Nope, I'm evil

i am feeling so sick and lonely and just want anyone to cuddle me to sleep

Women are unironic chakra vampires that need human semen (soul energy) to survive, diagram of uterus is the image of apostelic baphomet, look it up, complete with horns and all.

When you have sex, part of your soul is being lost on ejaculation, think about it, you cum inside and the cum never comes out, soon enough it is absorbed by the vagina (baphomet devouring soul fragments), but how? It has no mouths, yet it happens. Semen is the vagina's (apostolic baphomet) preffered goyslop, without semen women (demonkind) dies of starvation, which is why women seek sex and always want you to cum inside for an 'unexplainable reason', part of the reason this happens is based on the fact there is no superior entity for them to rely on once their interior energy is depleted, think of it like a really big tank with only one mouth on it that slowly leaks out. They replenish their inner energy by absorbing it from men, because ultimately they have no souls which they can rely on to produce this energy themselves. If they do not get enough energy, they bleed. just look it up, pregnant women (women that have been cummed in and had their energy needs temporarily sated) do not have periods at all, nothing, blood simply does not come out. Yet a woman that does not have this 'suddenly' bleeds and feels ill for several days in a row with pain and weakness and bleeding. Normal?

In my first relationship, still a virgin, we've been taking it slow (really slow, as in one date a month or less).
I feel like there are some potential red flags here that could cause issues if we ever became family, but I don't know if I can find another woman willing to tolerate me.

>>33447974
That's kinda hot.
Also still deserves love.

>>33447997
Women don't like sex, they do it too control you. You've already let her control you. It will never warm up.

>>33447797
>I did this for 2 months and regretted it
Was this a short term lease, or did you just say "fuck it" and break the lease?

I just want to be a Himbo.

I'm not fat, but no muscles.
My job/life prevent gym access AND getting a S.O.
I only keep the job to manage one of my irrational anxieties
One of those anxieties is absurd std fear, so I can't even do hookups.
Most of my anxieties prevent any connection.

Kill me now

>>33448031
Everybody always calls me mean maybe I just need a guy to find it hot

>>33448064
As long as your not mean to your S.O.
Also do some trauma work, you need to feel better for yourself.

>>33448081
There is no trauma work to recover from finding your sister stone cold dead

>>33443240
just get friends from a different school bro. I'm not even joking, and don't be a smartass you can replace the word "school" with "work" or "structure" whatever the hell you attend on the daily. Make friends elsewhere and ditch that group, don't stay just because you get some comfort from them and you're afraid to go out there and find new people. Branch out, you'll really thank yourself once you do it, I thanked myself so fucking much when I went out and SAW that the world has SO OOO O O O O Ofucking many nice people out there to join forces with. SO fucking many, literally. JUST GO.

am an extreme autist and grew up with no friends. very doting and protective parents and only went outside to go to school growing up so i missed out on the typical teenage experience and think i mentally never grew up. i have a job and drive but mentally i'm still a kid. its affecting me in adulthood now because i still think that people are going to be there to look after me, to feel sorry for me, essentially to baby me and make sure i never feel any pain. but i want independence and to become a proper adult. when i think about maybe trying to talk with other people my age, try dating or even small stuff like buy more mature clothes but something in my head holds me back every single time, fear i think. i just want to be babied and im scared of losing trying to grow up when i'm always going to mentally be a kid, scared of losing my shield against feeling any real pain and scared of losing the innocence that comes with spending my life alone in my room. it's pathetic but i've given up on trying to find a way out. i don't think i even want to be adult anymore but it feels like i'm wasting my life like this.

I need to move away from this state with my family. The people here are becoming horrible and shitty

>>33447802
I mean a specific attraction to children, not weird age gaps.
>>33447881
Yeah, I think the desensitization has brought a lot of good and bad. Nowadays people act with a lot more evil in their hearts.
>>33447904
I mean people who act on it. People who fap to young tranime characters are just weirdos, not pedos. I just want total pedonigger death. Children are the future and by corrupting said child you are corrupting the future as well. We must raise them with the best interest at heart and with something as perverse and morally/ethically devoid as pedophilia is, it has no right to belong in my society and should be utterly expurgated.

I think humans are fucking awful and should be put down.

God

Wipe this cursed hellhole off the map. Destroy us. Kill us. Smash us. Annihilate us. The people here are irredeemably awful. Horrible without exception. Monstrous, cruel, petty, vile.

God, if you have any justice or mercy you will destroy this place and all of these horrible, evil creatures

But God will do nothing
Because there is no god
There is only this awful little planet filled with awful things
Just pathetic tiny monkeys suffering for no reason on a shitty rock
There is not even anyone to laugh at our suffering
Yet we won't stop inflicting it
Suffer suffer and suffer more
More cruelty
More cruelty more and more and more

That's all this world is

God
If you exist
End us

>>33448236
God doesn't exist. Praying is for the weak.

>>33442983 (OP)
I've noticed I take far longer to get over things than I used to, I went shooting today with the family and I just felt such venom come out of me when I was forced to talk about being denied a shotgun certificate.
Reminds me of how much time and effort I put in to helping the gun community here and all I got was being told to fuck off, all I got for my efforts was spit in my fucking eye.
Literally makes me almost want to crush them out of spite.

>>33448255
Gee if only I had said god didn't exist or something

Fuck off retard don't ever reply to one of my posts again

>>33448236
>Just pathetic tiny monkeys suffering for no reason on a shitty rock
How about I blow your brains out right now faggot, tell me what a shitty blue marble we live on is when you're tasting steel

I will no longer feel bad when I watch videos of policemen dying

How's that for a change
The results of the polices hard work over the last couple months

ACAB

>>33448272
You're exactly the kind of creature I described

>>33448277
Nigga moral nihilism is so 2013 get a job you fucking dweeb

>>33448280
Oh sorry its not posted on Instagram by celebrities often enough for you

>>33448289
>Urr
>Why does God allow for cruelty
>I'm so deep...
>he's omnipotent you know chud...
Get over yourself

I WANT MY PERFUME BACK!!!!

lowk want to kms rn...

>>33447984
I would fuck any woman in a heartbeat LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

God damn. I'm tired today.
Last night I lost sleep because my gf thought it would be cute to send me a text saying that "It's National Girlfriend Day!" Shot this info as I was pretty much pulling up to our home after working a 12, and I fucked up by not doing something to show that I love her "just that little bit extra". She was upset with me for the rest of the night. And now I'm not spontaneous enough.

I understand why more and more guys are turning to AI and virtual love

>>33448292
he's not wrong

>>33448300
Go get it then. Buy a new one, a better one that doesnt cost too much and doesnt overly smell.

>>33448235
Sometimes I feel the same, thoughever there are certain people that dont fit the bill of being awful people, theyre rare.

>>33448301
Why?

>>33448328
She's retarded. Its not even fucking a real holiday.

>>33448328
Sorry man

>>33448376
She's not retarded, she's biologically compelled to shittest.
People that are barely conscious aren't exactly retarded.

>>33448415
She's a little bit retarded

>>33448376
It was something that I was going to point out myself, because she didn't even know about until she saw a video on tiktok.
I pretty much told her that it felt like it was like walking into a trap that tossed right in front of me and then getting punished for not being fast enough to dodge. Which, while yes I was getting defensive, it rubbed me the wrong way.
She's got a PHD, and still the lack of processing sometimes is rather impressive.
>>33448402
Like things are good for the most part, but sometimes it's like she doesn't understand that as a tard, shit is not easy for me. One of her complaints was that I'm not empathetic enough. When I so many compromises for her having a bad day, or not feeling well. Maybe she's overwhelmed. I give her the benefit of the doubt but at times, I feel like she doesn't want to understand that I dont think the way she does. I find her attractive and there's even drive to do things, but at times sometime prevents thoughts from becoming actions. Shit like this though? Fucking undermines my confidence and sadly it was my mistake for thinking ahe wouldn't employ shit tests.

>>33448419
You underestimate her to your disadvantage.

She pulled the "national gf day" and it worked on him. Don't give her that advantage. Retarded people can still be threats.

>>33448427
>Shit like this though? Fucking undermines my confidence and sadly it was my mistake for thinking ahe wouldn't employ shit tests.
That's the point of a shittest.
Tell her you didn't appreciate that.
Being a manipulatir like that is a relationship ender if unaddressed.
If she can't stop doing this, you either need a spine and sit her down or leave.

>>33448443
Thank you for the insight. I'm fucking exhausted today and its making it hard to think clearly and I'm 6 deep into my 12. I want to bring it up tonight but it feels like it's going to start her up again.
Which to be honest, already shows my trust is eroding. Since last night she said that she feels like she's "walking on eggshells" but also saying that I'm always so "calm and collected, and normaly [I] dont blow up". Which feels like a contradiction.

>Had car repaired
>Less than a week later it's showing new problems.
At least the 4 extra hours of work tonight is optional to figure this shit out.

>>33448045
nah, it was an airbnb, the cheapest I could afford at the time

Going through a bit of a rough patch and isolating myself. Resolved to call 3 people in my life today. took me literally 2 hours to work up to hitting call and 2 went straight to voicemail but the third answered. i didn’t know how much i needed that, to just talk to someone even for ten minutes. my hearts been beating so fast the entire morning and by the time the call was over my whole body was shaking hard. social anxiety’s a bitch but i will continue to brute force it to death.
I might hit call on a fourth person.

I feel stressed

>>33448649
Same

guy threatened to report me to the police cus i responded to his threat of physical violence with more physical violence. gf defends him. am i a cuck for not forcing her to cut ties with him?

Fucked up a bit
Even if people agree with me, I yelled at my boss
If he wasn't family, I would have been in a lot more trouble
But because I'm family, it seems like I have to constantly take some serious butt fucking, and I had quite enough of it
Shouldn't have done that
Shouldn't have done that

>other people's parents and families will stand up for them, protect them, have their back, support them, help them out

This is the weirdest thing to me. My parents and family wouldn't piss on me if I were on fire. None of them would do jack shit for me ever.

>>33448743
Hmm, I am on the other side of a situation like that.

>>33448783
A family member that's your employee?
What are your expectations of him?

>permabanned from /ck/
It's over

Being evil is a lot more profitable and secure than being good

>>33442983 (OP)
i think im gonna get fired soon and if i can't find another job ill have to move back home again and then ill have to admit that im a complete failure

>>33448815
To do what is in the best interest of the business.
>>33448873
Glaucon?

Brad the Bard (he's dyslexic)

>>33447782
Yeah but I don't wanna lose my brother.

I understand that my lack of in-depth interest in things that people chat about normally may come off as snobbish but I genuinely have no input in those conversations. Instead of asking or mentioning this to me people directly jump to the conclusion that I must have a superiority complex. I'm not saying I'm the most humble person in the world, but I don't see my interests as being any better than anyone else's, I just like different things that are more niche so I have a harder time making conversation with people. Why is this so hard to understand?

>>33447828

I know. How do I block without consequences

I frequently imagine myself jumping from the balcony, or my dead body lying on the ground below. I really don't want to die but I feel so hopeless

>>33442983 (OP)
does anyone get a dream that they see vignettes of their future
>>33449275
man its not worth it dont you have parents friends think of them go take a walk for a few kilometres relax a little

Oh look, another one! 4 in the space of a few days. Its an absolute piss take. Knew you would be trouble by the name.

I'm seriously fucking angry now. I'm going to make things very difficult for you, you stupid fucking retard.

Time to deal out some long-overdue punishment to some other idiots while I'm at it.

Annoyingly, things are mostly looking up and I was in a really good mood until this bullshit came along.

I wish I was humble.

i post my discord tag in several soc threads but then never accept the friend requests i get.
i want friends so badly but im so damn shy, i just wish i could skip the first talking stages and just instantly become close friends w a person, its all so gay.

>>33446328
Well our lives are entangled so it has its ups and downs. I love her but she can be kind of a bitch sometimes.

Hah. One silver lining from this shitshow. I will feel no remorse whatsoever when I fuck you over, you stupid piece of shit.

Revenge is funny, isn't it? You think you've blocked the possibility and that so much time has passed that the idea has gone. Only the opportunity is still there, and the person who wants revenge has just been waiting for the change.

It's time to pay up what you owe, you stupid cunts.

My hand locked up a couple of times whilst masturbating today, I think I did my back in too. I'm breaking down in real time here, I need to learn to act my age. Maybe it'll be enough to FINALLY QUIT JERKING OFF I'M SICK OF IT MAN.

>>33448374 idk. i suck at making friends bcs i think i have social anxiety, which is fucking bothering considering that i mostly be on my own now. i'm not very open to people close to me, even my own family. i don't think they even know that i watched porn and kinda addicted to it. i just feel like a failure idk why

I keep getting really angry and upset with myself and my inability to improve at video games. Part of me realises how pathetic it is to get so depressed over something that literally doesn't matter but when you literally have no other hobbies it's kind of pathetic that I'm not even good at the only thing I do spend my time on.
Like surely years of playing would improve my aim or something like that but I'm just retarded and slow.

>>33449365
do you have any friends now anon?

Pic related.
I paid for porn today, and now I feel like a huge fucking loser.
It gets worse. I didn't even pay for a well known legit site like pornhub premium, or brazzers. No. It just had to be whatever the fuck kinda shady russian shit "erstis" ist.

Post nut clarity is fucking KILLING me.
I don't want to be a fucking gooner anymore. I gave the damned ruskis my credit card.

>>33449833
Yes and no, I finally added someone back but it was a woman so that wont go anywhere, I can’t befriend women without eventually wanting to be more than friends with them so I just don’t befriend them at all.
I’m still pathetically clinging onto the hope that this one friend I had will reach back out but it seems he’s completely moved on from me which really sucks :/
I both want to replace him asap to fill the void but then I also reject any new possible friendships since they don’t match up to the connections him and I had. Retarded, I know.

If what I am is the things that I do, and the things that I do made the world around me, why do I do the things I do because of the world around me and become a stranger to myself. I'm caught in a current. If I make my world I become a person, I choose, not what I am. And when I don't chose I just rot and hurt. There is no relief, only confusion. When I see the sickness of what people do I turn away. Turn away too many times I don't know which way I was headed. There is no big revelation or catharsis. Life has no meaning, and I'm sure it never did.

You think you can order me around? Tell me what to do?
Who do you think you are?

>>33442983 (OP)
I keep thinking I'm over you, yet your name still slips from my lips when I get all snug in bed.
I wish I didn't love you so much, I wish I loved you enough to be able to let you go.
I long for the day I can look into someone else's eyes and say I love you just as passionately as I wanted to love and marry you.

i do fairly well for myself, but fuck. After being raised by somewhat wealthy parents, everything I do feels like it's graded on a curve by myself. I can never take pride in anything I do because all I can think is "your sister/cousins are more successful than you in literally every way and did this earlier in life than you and also have outperformed you at literally everything". With the tism I can't find a woman who even is willing to date me, let alone marry me, so I'm slowly growing apart from all my friends and family because they have no time due to their own marriages/children. i fucking hate myself and my life

>>33450158
>complaining about being born into wealth
kwab

Pic related depresses me because it makes me face that I, as a straight man, will never have a gf in this "category" (that is; a perfect 10\10)...Even if I was a psychopath willing to do Epstein-shit, im not competent enough to really pull it off.
it's not "being humbled"- it's realising everything's meaninglessness. There's a 0,001% type of males who get this -say, 1 in 20, 30 million- level of woman.

>>33448870
lol why?

Going bald and it's really fucking me up. I'm 32 and I've had really nice long hair since I was a teenager, but there's nothing to do but shave at this point. I know it'll age me 20 years and I don't have the head shape to look good with no hair. It also feels like conceding I'm not a young guy anymore, and I spent most of my youth being a miserable faggot anyway. Shit sucks.

How stupid are the women who choose being stranded in the wilderness with a bear over being stranded with a man?

First off, it depends on the bear. There's a 0% chance a black bear will attack you vs. a 75% and 100% chance of being attacked by a grizzly and a polar bear respectively. Add those three together and there's a 58% chance you'll end up with a bear that'll attack you. Compare this to being stranded with a man, where you chances of being attacked are merely 50/50.

So unless you know for sure that you'll end up stranded with a black bear, always choose being stranded with a man.

I'm so fucking terrible with people that I'm ruining my future career and college experience. Every minute I spend around other people (generally) is uncomfortable and miserable for me. I'm not bad at my area of study, but it's so networking based that it's hard to find a point in getting out of bed. I tried to talk to people more at the beginning (and I'm female, I don't get called creepy or mean or anything), but I have been called off-putting and awkward and ultimately I'm always the one left out of things. I don't know how to fix it, because when I try to socialize more I fuck up and it just makes me come off as desperate and makes my situation worse. What can I do beyond improving my appearance?

wow new hallucinated Sonic show on dream tv 1 was Clide Sign Sonic Adventure i am so impressed

I refuse to be kind to myself. I simply don't know how to do it and I don't deserve it.

I regret racemixing so much bros. Like my kid will always be my mortal enemy because I’m white and they’re pocahontasy, also it’s so hard to not call people racial slurs when upset. I lowkey always felt my vocation was with the Catholic Church but I gave into this normie cuck life because of my tism. Pray for me bros.

>>33450602
Bahhahahahahahahahahahaha you chose the normalfag life

i'm actually homeless. i can't believe it. i've been homeless for a week now, 7 days exactly.

i'm handling things okay all things considered. i'm doing great even. it's not as scary as i imagined. i think quickly on my feet and i figure out new ways to access things i need constantly. i'm on top of my hygiene. i need clothes and food but i think i'll be able to find a charity to help me with that soon. i have bruises all over my legs and bug bites everywhere, a few on my face but otherwise i don't look homeless at all. i feel really hopeful i'll navigate this okay and eventually find my way out. even if it won't be soon i feel confident i'll be fine being homeless for a while which i never thought i'd say.

the only thing about my life right now that makes me realize how bad things are is when i remember i don't have anyone to tell. no one who ever knew me knows that i'm homeless and living like this. when i'm up all night walking around the thought makes me cry for hours and i can't stop crying. i really could die right now and there wouldn't be a single person in this world who would be notified

the only person i can think of that i really really wish i could tell is an e-bf that stopped talking to me about 3 years ago (lol). we never even met irl but he's the only person would care and be concerned about me. he's the only person i know. i just want to tell someone who knows me that this is happening in my life. i've been fantasizing about him messaging me and i could update him on what's happening with me every minute. i could tell him about how i'm dealing with things and figuring this out. i miss him all the time but right now i really, really miss him. i don't want anything from him and i don't need his help with anything, i just want to tell him and talk like normal really bad. i know it probably sounds stupid but i feel like it's the most important thing to me, it's always in the background of my mind when i'm doing anything. i just wish you knew

>>33450400
50/50? What is bro on about? If we're stranded the man is predisposed to protect the woman and get her out of the situation safely, rape isn't what's on his mind, survival is. Plus if he does a good job they'll get married afterwards and/or fall in love and cuddle at nights during the stranded situation already.

>>33450618
As a former homeless person myself, it’s just really bad the first two weeks or so as your immune system adjusts. I remember I got like radioactive diaper rash because of all the sweat and treatment resistant athletes foot but nothing after that initial period. Buy lots of socks it reduces pain and chance of infection. It honestly gets better it took me like 6 months to get out of it but I just kept asking rich white ladies around me like loan officers and shit if they knew any one renting or apartments.

I pay to get it off my chest once a week to a professional. Until that time, I prefer to hold my breath. Pinkey out.

>>33450618
Why don't you sell your iphone and buy a house?

>>33450665
not op but i dont think that's gonna cover it anon

I finally started fixing myself at around 27, just started going out and doing things, went to my first con, talked to girls, etc. Then covid hit, I went into a doom spiral, and now I'm 33 and finally started doing things again, but it just feels too late.

My fear of failure destroyed my life, but I can't help feeling it was taken from me, if that just hadn't happened...

I started coming to 4chan around 2007/2008. I can't believe how dead this place is compared to what it used to be like.

>>33450739
Isn't that a good thing

it's hard to believe how mean people can be

>>33445774
Good job :)

>>33450747
Not really. There's less activity, but it's still gotten worse.

>>33450750
Yup, just like you

>>33449928
Yes, it does seem retarded, no offence. How can you expect to make new friends if you are unwilling to put the time and effort in, or even accept new possible friendships? Seems like what you need is a good, loyal British friend who won’t abandon you, will stick by you and try to make you laugh and smile, who will send you photos of cute girls, who for some reason you didn’t mention in your post, S!!!

I project my honesty on to other people.
When other people tell me tall tales and dubious lies IRL, I have a tendency to believe them. Because I don't lie to other people.

>>33450793
Big doubt

>>33450799
About what exactly?

>>33450774

>>33450640
thank you for the tips anon i really appreciate it. i keep reading that homeless people need socks but i'm worried that if i wear socks now and i sweat in them/get them dirty and not realize they're dirty i'll get an infection. it's really hot where i am right now. i always manage to find a way to shower and if i can't i still have rubbing alcohol with me. i'm poor so i get free healthcare too if i need it. i'm planning to make all my doctor's appointments as usual and ask them about what to do too. i applied for public housing. i'm gonna find social workers to help me find places to live but i'll definitely ask loan officers and people like that if i see them around here. thank you so much for that because i never thought to ask them
>>33450665
naw i'm so lucky i have my phone with me, it's how i'm gonna contact/leave my contact for charities and case managers and housing people and stuff. i already received some cash assistance from an organization because i have a phone number and app to receive it and forms of proof of (former) address in my phone too, like bank and internet statements. so it has to be a smart phone. i don't understand how homeless people without phones manage, i guess those are the ones who you see eventually dirty and sprawled out on the street. that and not having any form of ID

Tried very hard to find a decent job in finance for the past 7 months or so. I think I'll have to do a shit sandwich job now. Idk man I cant seem to cope that this will be my job for the next 40 years. Really feel like kms rn

I can play The Itsy Bitsy Spider! I'm basically God now!

I wish I was a cute girl sometimes so I could just find a successful guy and insert myself into his life.

>>33450792
fucking faggot, this is why ur gf is a whore

...with both hands.

>>33450902
I believe in you anon don't give up. I feel like quitting my job were the people are passive aggressive as bloody hell.

YOU DON'T PLAY THE GAME!!!

FUCK I JUST WANT TO BE DICKED DOWN THIS IS BULLSHIT GARBAGE

WHAT THE FUCK gor back with ex and they admitteded theyd cheat me lets goook

>>33451207
Great then show up in my vincenity and flirt with me... Oh wait you won't.

>>33451212
anon im tipsy and already left a message for the person im talking about on their steam i dont think im who you think i am good luck tho :(

THEY LEFT ME ON READ: GATHERING THE BALLS TO MESSAGE THEM MEANT NOTHING?no

>car pooling with friends
>we go to a drive through cause we're hungry
>friend only has cash
> I only brought my card
>rush to decide how to pay
>friend shoves me to the cashier windows
>blurt out "erm is it possible if I can split this bill?" while showing my debit card in hand
>wagie has the most annoyed look on her face and says absolutely nothing
>"n-nah it's fine I'll cover it!"
>hand her my card
I FUCKING HATE WAGIES, GOD FORBID YOU NEED TO PUSH EXTRA BUTTONS TO ACCEPT A SPLIT PAYMENT OF A DEBIT CARD AND CASH

I've been so lonely lately despite having friends and talking to women that I want to pay an escort to just hang out and cuddle and do gf stuff with me.

>>33442983 (OP)
Recently I had a realization that I generally go through life assuming that people are gonna throw me away. Not in the neurotic make-a-big-scene way but more like the silent background noise anxiety way.

It's kind of worrying how easily I swing between being at ease and optimistic and straight up suicidal

>>33451308
Dealt with this shit on discord. Not a good feeling to find out when the people you thought you were getting along with form a clique server and you weren't invited after an entire year of knowing them. Like nigga why are you dming me infrequently about life and shit only to let it slip that my "friends" and you were all on some secret club that I wasn't invited in, this entire time I'm wondering why I saw them less and less as time passed. Online friendships, all fake bullshit.

guess our timing is always off

>>33451327
yeah

>>33451336
It has nothing to do with timing, you say one thing and do the opposite, it's over

>>33451337
It is what it is

I just hate how I struggle to relate to others

>>33451404
"Empath" btw

>>33451308
>>33451327
As someone who has gone through this, I've learned to enjoy things by myself. I genuinely do not care if I get included in things, and if I do, it's a nice little surprise. Real talk though, once people show that they just want to use me, I add them to a mental shit list and don't really interact with them unless I have to.

>>33451256
maybe don't be a pussy and make them split that shit next time u fuckin moron doormat

>>33451256
There is no split payment button. You’ll pay what cash there is and the difference will remain, then run the card. If you knew, you could tell the wagie. Or if you are not retarded, you can pay and reimbursed with cash. Why can’t you just be normal without expecting the world to do unconventional shit to please you?

leave me alone cat - this is why you stopped getting canned food last time damnit

There's four Google Minis in this house. I hate those things with every fibre of my being, the voice for it will narrate the Sisyphean nightmares of my personal hell. Surely I can't be the only one who feels this way?

https://youtu.be/odgTxnrbMVI?si=ThmXlNwNHLJraNl6
Femanon, imagine you're alone at night, your car broke down on the way to your home, and suddenly three cheerful young men approach you. What do you think will happen next:^)

Fight the future

I got so much done so early. I'm gonna smoke weed, drink coffee, and play a video game.

In my 20s I started being more reserved about my personal life and trying not opening up about my general troubles so much. It was my belief that "everyone has their own troubles, and if some people don't want to listen to me or help me out, it's because of that, so I should keep things to myself".
But in the environment I am now, most people I see seem to either hide them too well, or not be all that troubled at all. They pretend they have a great time. I have nothing to show for it. I wagecuck. I go home, and by myself I do barely anything other than sleep. Other people are traveling, having their fun times, looking like there's no day that isn't fulfilling to them. They all, almost without exception, have their lovely partners or families, and while I hear a complaint or two, it's always the same shit, they seem to have their shit together far more than me. And I cannot for the love of god, despite all of this, ask any help from them. Because I'd feel like I'm suddenly becoming an annoyance, but also because I have to thoroughly explain myself for all of my personal faults.

>>33451655
It's okay to share when asked. Maybe ask some to share.

4chan should have a meta discussion board. Also, /wsr/ should allow code and spoiler tags, and /vr/ should allow webms with sound.

>>33451665
I tried, but people often do not care to talk to me much about those things.
When I try to share I'm often subtle about it, and conversations end quickly enough as though no one should inquire further. There's one friend that does bother at least with inquiring further, but often her solutions seem fairly unreachable to me.

Where do I find true love?

Some of the thoughts and ideas in my head genuinely scare me. I know, don't act on them (I don't, and I DO NOT feel like I'm at risk of doing so) but I think about such violent horrible things all the time. I don't try to feed into it and seek out gorey things, I try to focus on lighthearted things. Part of it feels like it's because I'm in pain but I don't think most depressed people have thoughts like this. Even if it's at people I'm angry at, I've never seen this shit in the most fucked up horror movie.

>>33451739
Same. Just punch a bag unironically

>>33451739
Same. For very long I've had moments of anger where I thought of dealing with someone in a brutal way. I explained this to a friend at some point, telling how I thought of pushing some stranger who threatened me into traffic with how easy it would have been, and she shrugged it off like it was normal and I wouldn't act out on these things no matter how much I was afraid of it.
Like wanting to kill your own boss seems to be fairly common.

>>33451753
Yeah, but mine are weirdly detailed beyond just wanting to kill someone. Like opening up, putting hundreds of needles inside them, sewing then back up and watching them writhe in pain.

That's so over the top it like I'm trying to be edgy or something lol but that's the type of stuff I'm talking about, ai don't think it's normal.

>>33451772
Holy shit my spelling/grammar sucks in this reply lol. Not ASL, I'm just really tired right now.

>>33451772
You could probably watch less media involving that sort of thing. If you're not that old, I'd say it's a phase. Though I myself at some point thought of grabbing a specific person, strapping them to a pole and slowly cutting them bit by bit, starting with their fingers.

>>33448206
Second this, but solo.

>>33448235
>>33448236
The light is dimming. It was written.

>>33448156
Sweet girl, the world is getting really cold, really fast. If somebody loves you, treat them well. They are very rare.

>>33448156
God has been watching over you. He has people who care for you, and are worried for you sometimes. Just know he will never leave you.

I declared to myself earlier this year that once the library for my current games console hits exactly 100 I will no longer buy any more video games from there on. As of today I'm at 98. This is probably just the equivalent of pulling petals from a flower and saying "I will change, I will not change", but still, it's a gesture isn't it? I've started watching salaryman vlogs on YouTube recently and it's making me very anxious about what I'm doing with my life. It's an odd thing, trying to motivate someone who's allergic to risks to make necessary changes before it's too late. Then again, I'm pretty sure that ship has sailed, circumnavigated the globe, and returned to port laden with exotic spices at this point.

everytime a woman is in my dreams, whether she be someone i know or a famous one i have a crush on, its always the same, her and i are super into each other, and then she acts mad at me, disappointing that i never pushed for more. what is my brain telling me?

I'm 28 and a couple months old now. After recently recovering from a near-death experience and as my thirties are nearing, I'm wondering if that is all there is to life.

In my twenties, I experienced most of the things that are expected of our age range, yet it still feels like I missed out. I've done long night drives with friends, road trips, drinking on a beach at night while stargazing... Everything but love. I kinda regret wasting so much time on LDRs that went nowhere.

The youth is fading from my features. Yesterday, my dad showed me photos from just five years ago, saying I looked like a baby. I miss pre-COVID days.

My older brother's having a child with his future wife. I'm still stuck in college finishing my masters, doing things I should've probably done much earlier, like taking an active role in college circles. Over the past two years, since moving abroad to study, I've met and become friends with more people than ever before. We never get as close as the friends I used to make when I was younger, though. At my age, how do I achieve closeness with literally anyone?

Sorry for posting this all over 4chan but my parents just hit me for receiving presents from simps. fuck my chudette life. I'm just really hurt rn

'Ate me bloody loif simple as

>>33452490
Lol, based parents.

I know someone that's a shopping addict. She has lots of money and gets at least seven packages a day from stuff she ordered online. Her house is exploding but she refuses to give anything away. In fact, she often throws new stuff (like a dress where she did not like the color or nike shoes the wrong size) in the garbage because she doesn't want it but she also doesn't want to bother with sending it back and she doesn't want anyone else to have it either. Thats some mentally ill shit.

>>33442983 (OP)
Got ghosted from the girl we went on a walk a few days ago, she hasn’t responded in two hours, do I block her? We were vibing a few days ago, kinda weird: the only red flag I saw was she put her iPhone airplane mode the whole walk.

>>33452671
>not responding in two hours
>ghosted
yeah block her though

I've met this guy that I really like, but he appears to be suffering from some sort of chronic illness, and I'm hesitating to get closer to him because of this. He avoids talking about it but he's frequently unwell, and I don't think I'm able to handle it.

>>33452801
women truly are evil

i got a phone interview for that out of state job, its on Wednesday. i'm nervous.

>>33452805
Holy shit, I'm evil because I don't know if
I can support a person with a long term illness? And for still being interested in having a relationship with him despite that? Get fucked you pathetic moron.

>>33452837
the guy is literally suffering from a chronic illness, how hard do you think that has to be on him? he's the one who has to live with it. meanwhile youre stuck only thinking about yourself, selfish bitch.

>>33452805
That's perfectly reasonable.

>>33452837
it isn't about you, it's about him.

>>33452837
He's baiting, don't worry about it.

>>33452860
All I said is that I feel inadequate. And he never asked my help to begin with, I explicitly said he won't even talk about his problems with me. Not to mention that I don't actually owe him a relationship just because he's ill.

I took a shower for the first time in nearly a month. Do I sense a comeback? Haha just kidding I'll just slide right back into my hole of unproductivity tomorrow.

>>33452879
Then tell him that, let him know you might ditch the guy just cause he’s chronically ill, dont get the poor guy's hopes up.

>>33452894
I don't need to get his hopes up. He's a strong and proud person and you've actually helped me realise what a gem he is when compared to pathetic trolls like you.

I didn't want to take my meds today but I have to go meet people

>>33452884
You did it today and you can do it tomorrow, anon!

Finally some good fucking soup.

i hate weekends because there's no new local job postings for me to apply for fuck you post jobs so i can apply
i have a job btw i just want a new one

It's only worth doing on that one account instead of my main since main has been shadowbanned for years and it takes 2 seconds to see all of the porn and other bad comments.

I know my online stuff is tainted in the eyes of social media SJWs. I don't regret anything. Mostly.

Woke up at 6am this morning with a fully fleshed out song part stuck in my head, the genre he'd write in and was getting me into before he suddenly stopped fucking with me. Couldn't sleep more, got up and tracked it
I like it a lot, I keep replaying it wishing I could show him
I keep looping the past two months with him in my head
I gotta move on but I'm so stuck

>>33454280
>ever since I improved myself I started to feel worthy to masturbate to slightly hotter girls

>>33454391
Happy for you

I finally apologized to her.

She accepted and apologized to me too. I guess we’re cool now because we’re playing iPhone 8-ball in text messages right now. I don’t want her back though, I have bigger fish to fry