>>33426078
I think I’m either on the verge of giving up or have already.
I don’t think women want me and attempting to get them either makes them uncomfortable or runs the risk of an arrest.
I don’t truly know if anyone wants me desu.
I have a small group of friends, I’ve always been the butt of their jokes though.
I get along with my colleagues, but it’s partly because they have to be nice to me. I’m too valuable in the workplace to lose. But for the past two years this has been the best source of self esteem I have. And it’s fucking pathetic.

I’m almost 27 and the only girlfriend I could get in that time was with a girl who didn’t want to even hold my hand.
Even when I broke up with her, it was for her benefit. Because I genuinely realized I was not going to stop wanting her, she was never going to let me in, and I didn’t want to hurt her.


Either I’m just that repulsive or I’m fucking monster deep down or somewhere combination.
How do you even keep up hope in such a situation?