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8/6/2025, 6:07:02 AM
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Just out of mostly introspective curiosity, as a fellow porn addict myself, do you recall how old you were when you first interacted/found out about porn? Its not something that I pin on my old man completely but it is a fact that I was introduced to porn during my early days of bodily self exploration. You see, my old man was into recording the playboy channel for hours, he ended up with stacks of tapes.In some other cases it was spice tv and in some rare instances he managed to copy actual hardcore porn films by recording a recording? He used to work for Hitachi when they were on their prime so he had access to all those fancy VCR recording gadgets.
But he was sloppy with keeping it a secret, he carried a briefcase with printouts of that very same porn or he would just outright print scans from old magazines online or sometimes just frames from a film and just fill a folder with those. He seemed to also have indulged in homesexual pornography as he had images of erect penises either just as is or during or post ejaculation. So needless to say I found all these things and I think that was the genesis of my spiraling into pornography both hetero and homosexual.
I may have been 8-10 years old and I remember I would hide the vhs tapes inside my cartoon vhs tape covers so he wouldnt notice, he had a lot of them. I never really took anything out of the briefcase as it would have been a dead giveaway probably leading to a beating. But that did help my imagination a lot so I resorted to drawing porn, mind you this was way way before the internet or hentai or at least way before I had access to those things.
Anyway I dont regret it,Im a self hating yet unrepentant hedonist nowadays but I do hold some resentment towards him for not being more vigilant, so how old were you when you discovered it? was it also through a relative or did you got to it yourself? Apologies for the blog oriented type of post, I just felt genuine curiosty so I had to ask.
Just out of mostly introspective curiosity, as a fellow porn addict myself, do you recall how old you were when you first interacted/found out about porn? Its not something that I pin on my old man completely but it is a fact that I was introduced to porn during my early days of bodily self exploration. You see, my old man was into recording the playboy channel for hours, he ended up with stacks of tapes.In some other cases it was spice tv and in some rare instances he managed to copy actual hardcore porn films by recording a recording? He used to work for Hitachi when they were on their prime so he had access to all those fancy VCR recording gadgets.
But he was sloppy with keeping it a secret, he carried a briefcase with printouts of that very same porn or he would just outright print scans from old magazines online or sometimes just frames from a film and just fill a folder with those. He seemed to also have indulged in homesexual pornography as he had images of erect penises either just as is or during or post ejaculation. So needless to say I found all these things and I think that was the genesis of my spiraling into pornography both hetero and homosexual.
I may have been 8-10 years old and I remember I would hide the vhs tapes inside my cartoon vhs tape covers so he wouldnt notice, he had a lot of them. I never really took anything out of the briefcase as it would have been a dead giveaway probably leading to a beating. But that did help my imagination a lot so I resorted to drawing porn, mind you this was way way before the internet or hentai or at least way before I had access to those things.
Anyway I dont regret it,Im a self hating yet unrepentant hedonist nowadays but I do hold some resentment towards him for not being more vigilant, so how old were you when you discovered it? was it also through a relative or did you got to it yourself? Apologies for the blog oriented type of post, I just felt genuine curiosty so I had to ask.
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